I am really paranoid. I constantly think people are talking about me. And yes, Freud, it does stem from my childhood because when i was in middle school, I had terrible friends who just talked smack about each other which taught me to put my guard up, so now I am in a constant frenzy trying to think of things I did wrong.

Sigh.

Wow, Way to make me take you somewhere and then wait on you because you're not even home and won't be ready when I want to go. Don't bite the hand that feeds you, scum.

People really need to stop assuming things. There are people like PARENTS to give you rides. Don't just expect me to break the law just to give you a ride. Ugh. Oh and this isn't adressed to Becky, although she did ask me for a ride but she knows that it shouldn't be me permitting whether she gets anywhere. This is about someone far more selfish ( Read more... )

I am a truly deep person. I just lack the vocabulary to express myself.

Although I am perfectly healthy right now, I am almost positive I will eventually suffer from a psychological disease of some kind. Maybe I already do. Maybe I am a hypochondriac. No. Maybe I have general anxiety disorder. No. Maybe I have anti-social personality. No. Maybe I have dissociative identity disorder. No. Maybe I am a paranoid ( Read more... )

I am trying.
Really.
But I am mentally unstable.

seriously.
what is this?!
i get ignored for two months and then both of you come running back.

i am happy. i am truly happy again.
my anxiety is lessening.

i feel free.

in the midst of sorrow, there is always a shining light. a flash to guide you through the hazy fog.
i love having things to cheer me up when everything else sucks.

it confuses me how vastly different the ending of today was to the ending on friday. friday, it all hugging and happiness and today was kind of just dgaf.

i was hoping this trip would help me get over someone who has been causing me pain and frustration for too long and it truly did. but now it's time for round two. time for someone else who i ( Read more... )