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this is rough.
im about to start crying becausei know what im about to write about.
my best friend is moving 10 hours away from me in just under two weeks.
ive kept in my stress about this
but its time for me to let it out
i dont know what to do.
i want to pretend its not happening but it is.
and i really dont know waht to do about it.
i feel like ive been distancing myself from everything around me
...but i dotn want to be like that
apparently i cant help it though.
its just how i deal.
that and fifty other things are on my mind
but i cant seem to bring myself to talk about them with anyone.
i couldnt even tell you what one of my friends have been up to this weekend
...and i hardly have seen dan at all.
ive been working alot which has just added to the stress
...and i havent had time to think to myself in forever.
everythign in my head is all screwed up right now.
and this week is going to go like this:
yeah, i only work wednesday
...but im sure hayley will be working her regular 4-5 days a week
and lauren will have other plans
and dan works every day but tuesday, which is when he will box
so that night will be spent at ko
my sister's last week of work is going to be her doing just that
...plus packing and everything
...and i cant stand to watch her box up her stuff
ive had a headace since last night
...its not fun.
im so tense from thinking about everything constantly.
today was a beautiful day
...but for some reason i didnt enjoy it at all.
it made me itchy.
well now im sitting here waiting for my mom
...plans fell through today, didnt work out, and i ahvent even spent 15 minutes of mothers day with her yet
...hopefully she gets here soon b/c i'd really like to see dan tonight
i just need a hug right now.
:o\