I'm sick of nightmares. I wish I had good dreams....

I made a new friend at work. Her name is Jessica and she's really friendly and cool.

Then last night I had a terrible nightmare about her getting her head bashed in with a can of paint.

Nightmares, nightmares again. Bleh.

I've...never had sex and I've always kinda wondered what it was like...but I get too embarrased to talk about it...

I'm going to go watch Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. I love that movie.

I miss Luke today....

Just got out of work. My shoulder hurts and the burns on my legs itch bad. Grrr.

I felt really really shitty today--but I went to work and it takes my mind off of things so I feel better.

So I'm all right. Maybe I'll go watch a movie. I always have to wind down before I can go to bed.

Pirates of the Carribean or something...

Hm ( Read more... )

I need you.

And yes, I hate myself for it.

Fuck.

Staying up--my ears are ringing. I've got a beer and in a few hours I have to be up to go to Kroner's to work. Then off for a couple hours, then off to work at Meijer ( Read more... )

I've made a decision.

I'm going to major in theater.

I am inspired.

Yay.

I just can't think about how gargantuan the task will be to become successful (like...oh, Johnny Depp. Aheh.) because I will be discouraged.

I need to start taking better care of myself...and keep myself from sinking back into depression and despair.

I can do it.
I will ( Read more... )