It's in the waking 
That delicious realization
The Purity of knowing 
I cried some times
Knowing

In those arms
Inside those eyes
i learned
It's in the waking

Its in the Fucking 
And in the lust 
Even in the game
But in in the end
Its in the waking

In the waking 
I'd remember the beauty in the game
The lust in the fucking 
The sex in the end
Oh its in the waking

That ( Read more... )

More a brother than my own ( Read more... )

 Looking, hoping,reaching ( Read more... )

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So this chick is totally frickin hilarious to me, the audio is rough at points but it's totally worth watchin. I want to see her live, she's all bouncy and energetic frickin funny as hell!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T_TXvGmKXLU

She asked me what i was/am struggling with, i'm bleeding and all emotey and this was what i sent , i feel insane but closer to me. this person i've never even met,she's stirred all these things inside me and i hope it brings me somewhere healthy ( Read more... )

Atleast if i was a gay man i would know i was a gay man, there'd be some clue something right? Instead i feel like this insane jumble of sexual confusion and tension. For the first time fuly uninterested in having meaningless fuck fests. Don't get me wrong i might still do it but the certainty i once had that yes i'd fuck pretty much any,time where ( Read more... )

I will not lie down to merely exist~ i am crazy but the internet is this amazing thing and i am completely enamoured with someone based simply on this fucking ridiculously long blog that pretty much opened up and poured out a lifetimes worth of get up and go on my ass. Fucking crazy this internet is.

If you tell a lie to keep someone from hurting ( Read more... )

I have decided 25 is the last party i will throw myself. There will be drag queens. There might be a Brian and Randy flying up from Atl. There will be a McCarthy and there will be drinks and fun and laughter and dancing. I realize its 6 months away, i also realize i need something to look forward too. I miss Randy, i miss Brian and Atlanta, so i ( Read more... )