well things are going ok. missing the single life though. went home for the weekend, went clubbing and found that one out. it was so much fun. plus my best friend was with me, and we found out old feelings for ppl dont die off as quickly as i thought they did. i just wish the guy saw me as more than jsut a friend. i would give anything to have what ( Read more... )

hey everyone i know its been forever. but anyway, things are going as per norm, this week is exams. yuck. i hate school right now, i need a break. however, im happy here for once in Pittsburgh, because I met the greatest guy. He's so incredibly sweet to me, I dont know how I lucked out with him. The only problem with him is that I think he works to ( Read more... )

love is not the problem, i am. i was too afraid of falling head over heels in love, and i lost the best part of me, and ill never get it back. ever.

i went on a date last night, and realized how much i truly care about russ. It must be sad to care this much about someone who has someone in their life, but I dont care anymore. I know who I love, and I cant help it. I dont want to forget him or move on, becuase doing that would mean Im losing the best part of me. But even when I was so close to ( Read more... )

They say that people deserve what they dish out. Well then, I deserve loneliness.

Last night, I made up with Russ. We agreed to be friends, but he wants to be with this girl forever. Knowing her type, I highly doubt she feels the same. I'm not talking out of jealousy(even though i am jealous of her) but something about this girl doesnt sit right with me. I can't explain it. Oh, if she ever hurts him, Jamie better have enough ( Read more... )

So today during class I text russ, to ask him why he hasnt talked to me. He wrote back, it was because he didnt know how to respond to the email I wrote him. Then he told me "I still want to be friends but im sorry she is the one and i want to be with her forever." i feel so unwanted ( Read more... )

Even though Sunday was exceptionally fun, and the kid was cute, HE*'s still on my mind. It kills me more than it should. He has someone he cares about, shouldnt i move on? I try, (I mean I went out with this kick-ass kid Brandon to the zoo. I want to progress what could possibly happen with Brandon, cause he's sweet, funny, and caring.) but I can't ( Read more... )

Today was such along ass day. I have Urian right now, hes such a boring ass teacher. I wish i was at home, cause that means the weekend would be starting and my date with brandon would be closer. Im really excited. He seems like a sweetheart, and we both have a lot in common and want the same things. Hopefully something will work out. anyway im ( Read more... )

Once again i get upset over something i saw on myspace. I cant take it anymore. I totally give up on russ. No calls, texts or emails from him anymore. If he considers this gf of his an angel and will never let her slip out of his arms, then i dont want anything to do with him. Cause he mislead me since Florida. He was dating her when I was there. ( Read more... )