Just wondering....
Just wondering if anybody I know is still around.
It's probably not fair to ask because I have gone on a semi hiatus kind of abruptly.
But I never, ever once forgot about this little corner that had been my secret best friend for at least 3 years...
But....of course there is always a but...
Right now I'm starting a family and building a business in a country that is quite foreign to me...
And I think I'm doing quite well, I have a dozen employees right now, who are working very hard to achieve our shared goals...
So yeah, sometimes it's hard to spend time in the virtual world while there are so much to do in the real world.
But I'm enjoying each second so much. I think I've never been happier, seriously.
Seeing something you build with your own hands grows, and touches people's lives...it's really awesome, a joy I've never felt before...
It's like a dream come true, and it's only the beginning...
Nevertheless, it feels like there's a little piece of me is missing, and I think it has something to do with my absence here.
Maybe I poured too much emotions here, once, in my writings, my translations, my posts.
It's hard to explain but I think I had never felt as emotional as then, and tell you the truth, I don't know if I can ever be again.
I always consider my self as a cool headed, rational person, and that's, I think how others see me in rl.
So letting the emotional side of me out here was very important, very refreshing, and leaves deep traces inside me, which I'm trying to kind of track down....to find that little piece of me that's missing...
I really want to comeback, for my own sake, to complete things that are incomplete, to meet my other self that is so expressive, bold, decisive, envisions something and make it real...
not that I don't have those qualities in rl, but, being expressive in virtual world sometimes is completely different than rl...
You might wonder what the hell I am talking about, but in other words, I realized now that I still need that other me to be unleashed, even though I thought I would get over it once I left my previous environment..
So it's not a matter of not being able to move on or "graduate" from the fandom.
I am doing perfectly fine in my life and yet I somehow try to find my way back here, although probably it wouldn't be as intense as before.
Let's say I don't want to be liberated? lol
It seems more and more people are drifted away, and it's natural, it's really okay...
but I'm going to stay as long as I feel like it
wow, I talked a lot for a pre-comeback...
anyways ladies, I hope you are all doing great in life, and please feel free to drop a hi,
even though I know it's selfish of me since I've been gone for too long...
love you and miss you all <3
It's probably not fair to ask because I have gone on a semi hiatus kind of abruptly.
But I never, ever once forgot about this little corner that had been my secret best friend for at least 3 years...
But....of course there is always a but...
Right now I'm starting a family and building a business in a country that is quite foreign to me...
And I think I'm doing quite well, I have a dozen employees right now, who are working very hard to achieve our shared goals...
So yeah, sometimes it's hard to spend time in the virtual world while there are so much to do in the real world.
But I'm enjoying each second so much. I think I've never been happier, seriously.
Seeing something you build with your own hands grows, and touches people's lives...it's really awesome, a joy I've never felt before...
It's like a dream come true, and it's only the beginning...
Nevertheless, it feels like there's a little piece of me is missing, and I think it has something to do with my absence here.
Maybe I poured too much emotions here, once, in my writings, my translations, my posts.
It's hard to explain but I think I had never felt as emotional as then, and tell you the truth, I don't know if I can ever be again.
I always consider my self as a cool headed, rational person, and that's, I think how others see me in rl.
So letting the emotional side of me out here was very important, very refreshing, and leaves deep traces inside me, which I'm trying to kind of track down....to find that little piece of me that's missing...
I really want to comeback, for my own sake, to complete things that are incomplete, to meet my other self that is so expressive, bold, decisive, envisions something and make it real...
not that I don't have those qualities in rl, but, being expressive in virtual world sometimes is completely different than rl...
You might wonder what the hell I am talking about, but in other words, I realized now that I still need that other me to be unleashed, even though I thought I would get over it once I left my previous environment..
So it's not a matter of not being able to move on or "graduate" from the fandom.
I am doing perfectly fine in my life and yet I somehow try to find my way back here, although probably it wouldn't be as intense as before.
Let's say I don't want to be liberated? lol
It seems more and more people are drifted away, and it's natural, it's really okay...
but I'm going to stay as long as I feel like it
wow, I talked a lot for a pre-comeback...
anyways ladies, I hope you are all doing great in life, and please feel free to drop a hi,
even though I know it's selfish of me since I've been gone for too long...
love you and miss you all <3