I Love the way You Hurt - Chapter 6
Title : I Love the way You Hurt
Author : me and lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairings : Sakuraiba, Juntoshi, will have some Sakumiya later on
Rating : +17, NC
Genre : drama, romance
Summary : Ohno and Aiba are best friends for the longest time now. They've always been together and did everything together, always had the same passions and interests. When Aiba discovers the only thing that it seems like they don't have in common, he decides he needs to find some more of it. He doesn't expect to find the love of his life in doing so.
Disclaimer : None of us own Arashi. Though we'd both like to XD
Chapter 6
Sho thought a lot about who could have possibly send him that poem as a message, since no one but his and Ninomiya knew it. Could it have been that his slave boy returned to Japan? But even if he would have, wouldn’t he be with his American master? Maybe he put one of his friends from Tokyo to send it, so he could play with his mind, Sho thought. Thinking so much of this was making him go insane and he suddenly realized that him and Masaki had decided to play a lot of mind games but didn’t. Hasn’t Masaki told him that he would want a lot of mental dominance? Being so busy in his try of making the man love him in place of fear him, Sho had forgotten about it. He was starting to fear that maybe he was too sweet. Masaki left his other boyfriends because they were way too sweet, he had said so with his own mouth. ‘What if he will start to think I am a way too soft master?’ Sho asked himself. He then laughed. ‘Damn… He is the one who has me under full mind control.’ he thought.
Fear. That is one important element of mind control. Slaves, though they love and respect their masters, they do fear them. Is not the kind of fear that an abused wife feels for her husband, nor the kind of fear a child feels for his parent. Is different but weights the same. Slaves are afraid of disappointing, disobeying and screwing up. Not because they would be punished, but because they do not know how they will be punished. Not because they would get yelled at, but because they do not know what words their master would use.
Not knowing. Waiting. Confusion. Impatience. When a person feels all of this, their mind instantly goes into red alarm mode. Panic. When you are waiting for something bad to happen, the human brain uses to get over board and takes it all out of proportion. Images of possible scenes of pain that could happen come into their mind, making their heart beat faster, making the fear grow more and more, as a snow ball rolling down the hill. The sensation is horrible and some people can end up loosing their mind if they don’t calm down fast. This is why, mind games can sometimes be the worst punishment.
In the world of BDSM, however, these are very pleasurable and very used games. Almost all masters out there try some of them on their slaves, each using their own method and taking it to their own level. Some slaves don’t even realize they are being mind fucked, especially the ones who are new at it, but they all love it because it is then when they truly feel their submission most. And all real slaves want to feel that.
Sho knew that Masaki wanted the two of them to play mind games, but he didn’t know if Masaki was aware of all this facts. However, after the breath play with the tie him and his slave had done the other night, Sho was sure that the man trusted him completely. So he thought he’d might just do it and explain it all to him after. Is what masters usually do. They explain you the lesson after you’ve finished practicing it.
“What will we do today?” Masaki asked, a bright shy smile on his face, sitting in his knees in front of his master and waiting for an order.
“We will play a game.” Sho answered him, short and straight.
“What kind of game?” Masaki kept asking, desiring to know what to expect.
“Did you not say you trust me?” Sho answered him with a question.
“Of course I do…” the younger man replayed, letting his head down.
“Then hush. Take your cloths off and get in the bed.”
Masaki nodded and got up fast, stripping himself off all the cloths and lying on the bed. Sho had seen his body so many times that he didn’t had a problem with him seeing himself naked anymore. It was as if Sho was a part of him, he was unable to feel shame when he was with him.
Sho handcuffed Masaki’s hands on the bed post, moving then to blindfold him and putting a ball gag in his mouth as well. Masaki coughed a bit, not being used to such a toy yet since they had never used it before. It was a weird sensation and he was sure he couldn’t let one word out with that thing in his mouth. Even screams wouldn’t have probably come out.
“It takes some time to adjust to this but you’ll be fine. Make sure you don’t roll your tongue in your mouth too much, it will only make you want to cough more.” Sho warned him, on a pretty severe voice but trying his best to sound kind in place of cruel.
Masaki nodded, resting his tongue and trying to breath only on his nose, telling to his body inside of his mind to calm the hell down cause he was feeling himself shivering. He felt Sho putting an earplug in his left ear, then felt the warmth of his breath on his right one.
“Let me go inside your mind…” Sho whispered, using a voice that echoed in Masaki’s mind.
He then plugged his right ear as well, letting Masaki pass into a whole new world, where feeling was everything he was able to do. The slave was a bit panicked at the start. He had never felt such a powerful silence before. Not being able to talk, see, hear or move made him feel completely powerless. His mind was racing. What was Sho going to do? ‘He won’t kill me… If he wanted to do so he would have done it last night, strangling me. I trust him...’ he said in his mind, trying to remember that and not fear his master. Then again… he still didn’t know what his master wanted to do with him. He tried his best to guess where his master could have been, but he was unable to. Sho was not touching him and that would have been the only way for Masaki to realize his position. But he remained calm and didn’t move. Sho had told him to let him inside his mind so this was all probably part of the came. The room started feeling more and hotter for some reason… Masaki could feel himself sweating. It was making breathing even harder. He was feeling his mind getting out of track, his senses paralyzing, his thoughts getting lost one by one. The darkness, the silence, the heat, the loose of power… Slowly, the man started to surrender to them all, throwing himself into the abyss that seemed to want to swallow him. And there, it was nothing… No more painful thoughts, no more scary images of what Sho could do to him. No worry, no fear… Just peace. Calm, silence, relax… It felt good.
Sho was behind the bed, watching Masaki with a smile. The calmness of this man amazed him. Sure he was a bit freaked out; Sho was able to realize it by how his body had completely tensed after he had plugged his ears, but in less than 5 minutes he had calmed and let himself be taken. No other slaves that Sho had owned adjust so easy to this, not even Ninomiya. The body reactions. Such an important tool for any master. Many slaves believe that their masters have super natural powers and are able to read their mind because they always know exactly what to do. But of course that masters, no matter how amazing they seem to be, are only human. What they use in order to read their slaves minds is merely the slave’s body. When excited to the highest level, the slaves can no longer control their own body. The moves they do in those moments, the way they shake, they way they shiver, is like a language that the master understands because he knows perfectly good his loved one. And so, he can do exactly what the other wants and needs without him saying one single word.
Masaki’s entire body shivered when Sho brushed his fingers on his neck, down his chest. His member was hard and already dripping precum which made Sho giggle and took it in his hand, rubbing it with slow movements but keeping it tight, while he was kissing Masaki’s stomach. The blond couldn’t believe how amazing it all was. If he wouldn’t have had that gag in his mouth that kept him from making a sound, he would have probably moaned harder than ever. It was as if he was telling Sho what to do with his mind, because the man was doing exactly what he wanted most. The way he was touching him, the places where he was kissing him, each movement… It was completely perfect… He arched his back and felt himself about to cum, which is when Sho stopped touching him. Once more, Masaki had no idea where the man was. He couldn’t even realize if he was still in bed with him.
‘No, damn it… Don’t stop… Master…’ he said in his mind. He was wishing so much to remove that annoying gag from his mouth and tell Sho how much he wanted him. He was feeling like he could have the biggest orgasm of his life. This game was annoying…
Frustration. The state of mind in which some people get very easily. Wanting something but being denied. Not being able to get what you desire. Feeling the need to beg for something but being unable to do even that. It made Masaki feel even more that he was owned. He couldn’t get all he wanted. This was about what Sho wanted. He was not allowed to tell his master to do the things he wanted him to do, since this was not a reward, it was a game. Sho’s game.
Sho could tell the moment when Masaki realized all that by Masaki’s movements. When he had stopped touching him, Masaki started moving his head from left to right, looking as if he was confused. He even made some sounds that Sho knew he was unable to hear because of the earplugs and maybe he didn’t even realize he did. He looked annoyed. But then, he suddenly calmed down which made Sho smile. “Good boy…” he said.
Communicating without words. When a master and a slave can get to that, is almost 100% mind control. Based on shared trust, understanding and how much they know about each other and about themselves as well. It can be very easy when there is love in between the pair. But in cases of pain that lack the feelings and has only lust and passion, it can be almost impossible to achieve.
Sho got completely undressed and climbed in the bed without Masaki to realize it. He only touched slowly Masaki’s hip and the man spread his legs like on command, realizing what Sho wanted and wanting it as well. Sho positioned himself and bend down over Masaki, biting his neck when he entered him.
Masaki’s scream was stopped by the gag and he felt tears forming in his eyes that were cover by the blindfold. The mixture of pleasure and pain combined with the huge amount of different feelings he was getting by being in complete darkness and silence took over the man instantly. Sho slapped him hard across the face but it didn’t hurt at all. It was actually damn enjoyable. The heat was also increasing more and more. His breath was unregular, his body was in the highest state of pleasure he had ever felt, and his mind was completely blank… The world disappeared from his head, everything vanished. There was nothing left… Just him and Sho and that moment of total bliss. That moment in which he had completely stopped thinking and left his master think in his place.... He couldn’t even feel where Sho was kissing and touching him, he had not even the smallest notion of what was going on around him. All he was able to feel was that warm, undiscribeable pleasure he was having throughout his body.
He felt Sho resting on his chest after they both came, and he could see him smiling inside of his mind. After some few more minutes of peace, Sho released him, starting from the earplugs, removing after the gag, his hands and taking off the blindfold last. Masaki had to blink many times in order to get used to the light. He felt as if he wouldn’t have been able to see for days, but he was sure it wasn’t more than few hours. He smiled brightly.
“How did that felt?” Sho asked, caressing Masaki’s back with his hand.
“I couldn’t describe that in words if my life depended on it,” Masaki said, his smile never stopping. “It was… incredible. Something I have never felt before, something I doubted I could feel. It was beyond everything I ever imaged…”
“I controlled your mind 100% there, you know?” Sho said, sounding proud.
“I could feel it… I could feel your mind thinking for me. I could feel your heart beating with mine in the same time…” Masaki said fascinated.
“That is because I took away from you your ability to see, hear and talk. For a small time there, your senses of touch became stronger and you were able to feel things you would not normally feel.” Sho explained.
“This was a lifetime experience. Cause if we’d do it again, now that I know how it is, it would not be the same.” Masaki said.
“That is true indeed. But is a experience you’ll never forget as well.” Sho said, hugging him. “I am happy you enjoyed it…”
“How long did it take?” Masaki asked.
“One hour and 20 minutes.” Sho said, looking at his watch.
“What?!” Masaki said amazed. “I thought it’s been at least 5 hours….”
Sho laughed, while setting the air conditioning at its normal temperature. “The heat. I’ve set it at 40 digress Celsius. That, combined to the powerless state in which you were, affected your mind more, making you lose the notion of time, space and even the world around you. It also helped you surrender faster.” he explained, returning to bed.
“I think I understand… All this is so cool…” Masaki said.
“It is to you,” Sho laughed. “A normal person would have been scared.”
“Then I am happy we’re not normal. We are blinded by love and is good.” Masaki said with a smile.
Sho covered Masaki’s eyes with his hand, hugging him from behind and driving his lips to his ear. “Our love is not blind… It sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less…” he whispered to him, kissing his forehead.
“You always say such beautiful things, master…” Masaki said, caressing Sho’s arm with his hand.
They lay in the bed together, hugging tightly and before realizing it, they were asleep, both feeling very tired and taking each other inside of their dreams.
A/N: Hey, minna! I must tell you that I did not write this chapter XD In real life, I am into BDSM, I have a master. And he is the one who wrote this chapter cause I didn't knew exactly how to explain mind dominace and he was kind enough to do it for me ^-^ Yeah, I am owned and for all those who might freak out by this news, relax, I am happy and in love with my master ^___^ Now I think is more clear for you how come I know so much about this subject, huh? XDD Anyways! Me and him both hope you will enjoy this ^^ To be honestly, I loved the way he wrote it <333 As always, comments are loved ^__^ See you guys around ^.~
Author : me and lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairings : Sakuraiba, Juntoshi, will have some Sakumiya later on
Rating : +17, NC
Genre : drama, romance
Summary : Ohno and Aiba are best friends for the longest time now. They've always been together and did everything together, always had the same passions and interests. When Aiba discovers the only thing that it seems like they don't have in common, he decides he needs to find some more of it. He doesn't expect to find the love of his life in doing so.
Disclaimer : None of us own Arashi. Though we'd both like to XD
Chapter 6
Sho thought a lot about who could have possibly send him that poem as a message, since no one but his and Ninomiya knew it. Could it have been that his slave boy returned to Japan? But even if he would have, wouldn’t he be with his American master? Maybe he put one of his friends from Tokyo to send it, so he could play with his mind, Sho thought. Thinking so much of this was making him go insane and he suddenly realized that him and Masaki had decided to play a lot of mind games but didn’t. Hasn’t Masaki told him that he would want a lot of mental dominance? Being so busy in his try of making the man love him in place of fear him, Sho had forgotten about it. He was starting to fear that maybe he was too sweet. Masaki left his other boyfriends because they were way too sweet, he had said so with his own mouth. ‘What if he will start to think I am a way too soft master?’ Sho asked himself. He then laughed. ‘Damn… He is the one who has me under full mind control.’ he thought.
Fear. That is one important element of mind control. Slaves, though they love and respect their masters, they do fear them. Is not the kind of fear that an abused wife feels for her husband, nor the kind of fear a child feels for his parent. Is different but weights the same. Slaves are afraid of disappointing, disobeying and screwing up. Not because they would be punished, but because they do not know how they will be punished. Not because they would get yelled at, but because they do not know what words their master would use.
Not knowing. Waiting. Confusion. Impatience. When a person feels all of this, their mind instantly goes into red alarm mode. Panic. When you are waiting for something bad to happen, the human brain uses to get over board and takes it all out of proportion. Images of possible scenes of pain that could happen come into their mind, making their heart beat faster, making the fear grow more and more, as a snow ball rolling down the hill. The sensation is horrible and some people can end up loosing their mind if they don’t calm down fast. This is why, mind games can sometimes be the worst punishment.
In the world of BDSM, however, these are very pleasurable and very used games. Almost all masters out there try some of them on their slaves, each using their own method and taking it to their own level. Some slaves don’t even realize they are being mind fucked, especially the ones who are new at it, but they all love it because it is then when they truly feel their submission most. And all real slaves want to feel that.
Sho knew that Masaki wanted the two of them to play mind games, but he didn’t know if Masaki was aware of all this facts. However, after the breath play with the tie him and his slave had done the other night, Sho was sure that the man trusted him completely. So he thought he’d might just do it and explain it all to him after. Is what masters usually do. They explain you the lesson after you’ve finished practicing it.
“What will we do today?” Masaki asked, a bright shy smile on his face, sitting in his knees in front of his master and waiting for an order.
“We will play a game.” Sho answered him, short and straight.
“What kind of game?” Masaki kept asking, desiring to know what to expect.
“Did you not say you trust me?” Sho answered him with a question.
“Of course I do…” the younger man replayed, letting his head down.
“Then hush. Take your cloths off and get in the bed.”
Masaki nodded and got up fast, stripping himself off all the cloths and lying on the bed. Sho had seen his body so many times that he didn’t had a problem with him seeing himself naked anymore. It was as if Sho was a part of him, he was unable to feel shame when he was with him.
Sho handcuffed Masaki’s hands on the bed post, moving then to blindfold him and putting a ball gag in his mouth as well. Masaki coughed a bit, not being used to such a toy yet since they had never used it before. It was a weird sensation and he was sure he couldn’t let one word out with that thing in his mouth. Even screams wouldn’t have probably come out.
“It takes some time to adjust to this but you’ll be fine. Make sure you don’t roll your tongue in your mouth too much, it will only make you want to cough more.” Sho warned him, on a pretty severe voice but trying his best to sound kind in place of cruel.
Masaki nodded, resting his tongue and trying to breath only on his nose, telling to his body inside of his mind to calm the hell down cause he was feeling himself shivering. He felt Sho putting an earplug in his left ear, then felt the warmth of his breath on his right one.
“Let me go inside your mind…” Sho whispered, using a voice that echoed in Masaki’s mind.
He then plugged his right ear as well, letting Masaki pass into a whole new world, where feeling was everything he was able to do. The slave was a bit panicked at the start. He had never felt such a powerful silence before. Not being able to talk, see, hear or move made him feel completely powerless. His mind was racing. What was Sho going to do? ‘He won’t kill me… If he wanted to do so he would have done it last night, strangling me. I trust him...’ he said in his mind, trying to remember that and not fear his master. Then again… he still didn’t know what his master wanted to do with him. He tried his best to guess where his master could have been, but he was unable to. Sho was not touching him and that would have been the only way for Masaki to realize his position. But he remained calm and didn’t move. Sho had told him to let him inside his mind so this was all probably part of the came. The room started feeling more and hotter for some reason… Masaki could feel himself sweating. It was making breathing even harder. He was feeling his mind getting out of track, his senses paralyzing, his thoughts getting lost one by one. The darkness, the silence, the heat, the loose of power… Slowly, the man started to surrender to them all, throwing himself into the abyss that seemed to want to swallow him. And there, it was nothing… No more painful thoughts, no more scary images of what Sho could do to him. No worry, no fear… Just peace. Calm, silence, relax… It felt good.
Sho was behind the bed, watching Masaki with a smile. The calmness of this man amazed him. Sure he was a bit freaked out; Sho was able to realize it by how his body had completely tensed after he had plugged his ears, but in less than 5 minutes he had calmed and let himself be taken. No other slaves that Sho had owned adjust so easy to this, not even Ninomiya. The body reactions. Such an important tool for any master. Many slaves believe that their masters have super natural powers and are able to read their mind because they always know exactly what to do. But of course that masters, no matter how amazing they seem to be, are only human. What they use in order to read their slaves minds is merely the slave’s body. When excited to the highest level, the slaves can no longer control their own body. The moves they do in those moments, the way they shake, they way they shiver, is like a language that the master understands because he knows perfectly good his loved one. And so, he can do exactly what the other wants and needs without him saying one single word.
Masaki’s entire body shivered when Sho brushed his fingers on his neck, down his chest. His member was hard and already dripping precum which made Sho giggle and took it in his hand, rubbing it with slow movements but keeping it tight, while he was kissing Masaki’s stomach. The blond couldn’t believe how amazing it all was. If he wouldn’t have had that gag in his mouth that kept him from making a sound, he would have probably moaned harder than ever. It was as if he was telling Sho what to do with his mind, because the man was doing exactly what he wanted most. The way he was touching him, the places where he was kissing him, each movement… It was completely perfect… He arched his back and felt himself about to cum, which is when Sho stopped touching him. Once more, Masaki had no idea where the man was. He couldn’t even realize if he was still in bed with him.
‘No, damn it… Don’t stop… Master…’ he said in his mind. He was wishing so much to remove that annoying gag from his mouth and tell Sho how much he wanted him. He was feeling like he could have the biggest orgasm of his life. This game was annoying…
Frustration. The state of mind in which some people get very easily. Wanting something but being denied. Not being able to get what you desire. Feeling the need to beg for something but being unable to do even that. It made Masaki feel even more that he was owned. He couldn’t get all he wanted. This was about what Sho wanted. He was not allowed to tell his master to do the things he wanted him to do, since this was not a reward, it was a game. Sho’s game.
Sho could tell the moment when Masaki realized all that by Masaki’s movements. When he had stopped touching him, Masaki started moving his head from left to right, looking as if he was confused. He even made some sounds that Sho knew he was unable to hear because of the earplugs and maybe he didn’t even realize he did. He looked annoyed. But then, he suddenly calmed down which made Sho smile. “Good boy…” he said.
Communicating without words. When a master and a slave can get to that, is almost 100% mind control. Based on shared trust, understanding and how much they know about each other and about themselves as well. It can be very easy when there is love in between the pair. But in cases of pain that lack the feelings and has only lust and passion, it can be almost impossible to achieve.
Sho got completely undressed and climbed in the bed without Masaki to realize it. He only touched slowly Masaki’s hip and the man spread his legs like on command, realizing what Sho wanted and wanting it as well. Sho positioned himself and bend down over Masaki, biting his neck when he entered him.
Masaki’s scream was stopped by the gag and he felt tears forming in his eyes that were cover by the blindfold. The mixture of pleasure and pain combined with the huge amount of different feelings he was getting by being in complete darkness and silence took over the man instantly. Sho slapped him hard across the face but it didn’t hurt at all. It was actually damn enjoyable. The heat was also increasing more and more. His breath was unregular, his body was in the highest state of pleasure he had ever felt, and his mind was completely blank… The world disappeared from his head, everything vanished. There was nothing left… Just him and Sho and that moment of total bliss. That moment in which he had completely stopped thinking and left his master think in his place.... He couldn’t even feel where Sho was kissing and touching him, he had not even the smallest notion of what was going on around him. All he was able to feel was that warm, undiscribeable pleasure he was having throughout his body.
He felt Sho resting on his chest after they both came, and he could see him smiling inside of his mind. After some few more minutes of peace, Sho released him, starting from the earplugs, removing after the gag, his hands and taking off the blindfold last. Masaki had to blink many times in order to get used to the light. He felt as if he wouldn’t have been able to see for days, but he was sure it wasn’t more than few hours. He smiled brightly.
“How did that felt?” Sho asked, caressing Masaki’s back with his hand.
“I couldn’t describe that in words if my life depended on it,” Masaki said, his smile never stopping. “It was… incredible. Something I have never felt before, something I doubted I could feel. It was beyond everything I ever imaged…”
“I controlled your mind 100% there, you know?” Sho said, sounding proud.
“I could feel it… I could feel your mind thinking for me. I could feel your heart beating with mine in the same time…” Masaki said fascinated.
“That is because I took away from you your ability to see, hear and talk. For a small time there, your senses of touch became stronger and you were able to feel things you would not normally feel.” Sho explained.
“This was a lifetime experience. Cause if we’d do it again, now that I know how it is, it would not be the same.” Masaki said.
“That is true indeed. But is a experience you’ll never forget as well.” Sho said, hugging him. “I am happy you enjoyed it…”
“How long did it take?” Masaki asked.
“One hour and 20 minutes.” Sho said, looking at his watch.
“What?!” Masaki said amazed. “I thought it’s been at least 5 hours….”
Sho laughed, while setting the air conditioning at its normal temperature. “The heat. I’ve set it at 40 digress Celsius. That, combined to the powerless state in which you were, affected your mind more, making you lose the notion of time, space and even the world around you. It also helped you surrender faster.” he explained, returning to bed.
“I think I understand… All this is so cool…” Masaki said.
“It is to you,” Sho laughed. “A normal person would have been scared.”
“Then I am happy we’re not normal. We are blinded by love and is good.” Masaki said with a smile.
Sho covered Masaki’s eyes with his hand, hugging him from behind and driving his lips to his ear. “Our love is not blind… It sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less…” he whispered to him, kissing his forehead.
“You always say such beautiful things, master…” Masaki said, caressing Sho’s arm with his hand.
They lay in the bed together, hugging tightly and before realizing it, they were asleep, both feeling very tired and taking each other inside of their dreams.
A/N: Hey, minna! I must tell you that I did not write this chapter XD In real life, I am into BDSM, I have a master. And he is the one who wrote this chapter cause I didn't knew exactly how to explain mind dominace and he was kind enough to do it for me ^-^ Yeah, I am owned and for all those who might freak out by this news, relax, I am happy and in love with my master ^___^ Now I think is more clear for you how come I know so much about this subject, huh? XDD Anyways! Me and him both hope you will enjoy this ^^ To be honestly, I loved the way he wrote it <333 As always, comments are loved ^__^ See you guys around ^.~