My sob story...
If you've just tuned in to the Young and the Licenseless, I've failed my driver's test. The one I was sooooo excited about. The one I was sooooo anxious to have. And the one I was sooooo sure I would pass. I'm coming across really cynical at the moment I know. I'm just still really pissed about it.
Let's start from the beginning. Last night I had a dream. In my dream, I had a nightmare that I failed the written part of my test...I think I'm a Seer, what do you think?
Anyway, when I woke up I was like, no I'm not going to fail. I went through my normal morning routine and i was done early so I opened my driver's manual to study a bit. Then I drove me and my mom to my driving school where I was the first one there besides this lady who helped with the paperwork and stuff. So I sat there for a while and studied again. Then my friend Jessica came and we started talking about how nervous we were and stuff. Then at8 o'clock the instructor came and we went inside. We got down to business pretty soon, filing out some info thing, then they gave us the tests. I was so nervous. And then right off the bat, the first question was one I wasn't sure about. Then I got to some other ones I wasn't sure about. And I started panicking. There were these 3 questions about DUI's and BAC that I just couldn't get.
I was the last one to finsih and when I handed it in I was so stressed out. Then the guy started calling us up, starting with the first person who finished. It took forever cause he would start chatting to the lady helping him. I was freaking out the whole time. Jess told me to calm down and said I'd be fine but I knew I'd done horrible. You can only get 4 wrong out of 16 on the test. After about a half an hour he finally got to Jessica. He had been saying the scores people got outloud which made me even more nervous. Jess only got 1 wrong and she was relieved.
Finally he got to the 2nd to last one. When she got up there he asked her the regular questions (did she have contacts and to let him see her permit). Everyone was talking but I was watching cause I was so nervous. He made her come closer to him and he whispered to her 'you got one to many wrong dear' and I was like ohhh shoot that sucks. And then I told Jess and we watched her go to the lady so the lady could explain to her what would happen and stuff and then she left. My heart was racing so fast.
I couldn't watch the guy correct mine so I looked away and I told Jess to look away too. Then he called me up there. I told him yes I did have contacts and then I had to show him my permit. While I was bending to sign something he goes 'dear you got one to many wrong' and I remember being like 'oh my god' in my head. I was in shock. I looked back at Jess and gave her a little shake of my head and she winced. Then the guy directed me to the lady so I could get some stuff.
I could barely hold my tears back as she talked to me. She told me I had to wait 30 days to take the test again and that I had to pay the $125 service fee to take it there again. Then I went back and sat in my chair and put my stuff away. I felt so out of place cause I should have left and I was sniffle really loud and trying to control my tears. Finally I left while the lady was passing out some stuff.
I went outside and dumped my stuff next to the front of the building. Then I sat on the ground and just cried. I cried for about 5 minutes I was so upset. I just couldn't believe it. I still can't. I've been waiting for this for about 3 months and I'd just failed it. I had told just about everyone I knew that I was getting it today. I had such plans about driving! And now they're all ruined. And I hate myself for not studying the drug and alcohol part of my driver's manual.
Once I calmed down I called my mom to tell her. When her voice came on the phone I got all choked up again. When I'm really upset I find it hard to talk. I started crying all over again when I told her the news. I told her I didn't want to go to school and that I wanted to go home, so she said she'd come pick me up. After I got off the phone with her I sat there for a while until people started coming out of the driving place. When Jess came out I immediately like tackled her and starting sobbing again for like the billionth time. She hugged me and told me it was okay. After I calmed down we talked for a bit. She told me that her driving part wasn't until 1130. Mine proabably would have been a while after hers...
When my mom got there I held my composure until I closed the door of the car and then I starting crying again. My mom hugged me and patted my back. We sat like that for a while until I finally pulled away. She, like Jessica, told me it was okay, everyone fails once in a while, it's not abnormal and stuff like that. She asked me if I was sure I didn't want to go to school and I said I was. I didn't want to have to face everyone asking if I'd pass my test. I probably would have started crying again which wouldn't have been good.
Once my mom dropped me off at home I started crying once again. After I stopped, a sat on the couch and watched tv. Then I went on the computer and posted that little entry from before. Then I took a nap. I woke up to the phone ringing. It was my mom calling to check up on me. A little while after that my dad called which made me start crying again. I cried a lot today. I finally started to work on my homework after that. One of the reasons I didn't want to go to school was because I hadn't done any of my homework cause I thought I would be able to do it during the time i had to wait to drive...
Around lunch time, my friends called me up and I had to deliver them the bad news. They were really sympathetic and told me not to worry about it, that I would ace it the next time, and that they loved me. I really love my friends for that. After i got off the phone with them I was still pretty down but I felt somewhat better.
I had practice today but since I didn't go to school I couldn't go to practice. There was a pasta party tonight though, in honor of a big game varsity has tomorrow. Carissa's mom came to pick up the food I was supposed to bring and she convinced me to go to the practice and then the pasta party. Practice was half over when i got there and when carissa saw me she ran to meet me and gave me a big hug. She's the bestest. My team members were very sympathetic too, the ones who knew. My coach even told me that he had failed the written part his first time too. I had a good time watching the practice and then at the pasta party after.
Anyway, that's basically it. I never believed it would happen to me though. I was so confident. Now I have to wait 30 days to take the test again yet I probably won't take it until the end of November because the DMV is booked up until January and although I have to pay the $125 to take it at my driving school I definately don't want to wait that long. I hope my driving school's schedule isn't backed too far because I want to take it as soon as I can.
It feels good to tell the whole story, though I still can't believe it. I had such plans for driving. I was going to drive to our first home football game tomorrow. I was going to drive to my game on Saturday. I was going to see if I could get a parking space at school before they're all taken up, but I guess that's not possible now.
Thanks for listening to my rant guys! Even if you didn't read it all. I think I'm done now. Until next time!
~Emmy
Let's start from the beginning. Last night I had a dream. In my dream, I had a nightmare that I failed the written part of my test...I think I'm a Seer, what do you think?
Anyway, when I woke up I was like, no I'm not going to fail. I went through my normal morning routine and i was done early so I opened my driver's manual to study a bit. Then I drove me and my mom to my driving school where I was the first one there besides this lady who helped with the paperwork and stuff. So I sat there for a while and studied again. Then my friend Jessica came and we started talking about how nervous we were and stuff. Then at8 o'clock the instructor came and we went inside. We got down to business pretty soon, filing out some info thing, then they gave us the tests. I was so nervous. And then right off the bat, the first question was one I wasn't sure about. Then I got to some other ones I wasn't sure about. And I started panicking. There were these 3 questions about DUI's and BAC that I just couldn't get.
I was the last one to finsih and when I handed it in I was so stressed out. Then the guy started calling us up, starting with the first person who finished. It took forever cause he would start chatting to the lady helping him. I was freaking out the whole time. Jess told me to calm down and said I'd be fine but I knew I'd done horrible. You can only get 4 wrong out of 16 on the test. After about a half an hour he finally got to Jessica. He had been saying the scores people got outloud which made me even more nervous. Jess only got 1 wrong and she was relieved.
Finally he got to the 2nd to last one. When she got up there he asked her the regular questions (did she have contacts and to let him see her permit). Everyone was talking but I was watching cause I was so nervous. He made her come closer to him and he whispered to her 'you got one to many wrong dear' and I was like ohhh shoot that sucks. And then I told Jess and we watched her go to the lady so the lady could explain to her what would happen and stuff and then she left. My heart was racing so fast.
I couldn't watch the guy correct mine so I looked away and I told Jess to look away too. Then he called me up there. I told him yes I did have contacts and then I had to show him my permit. While I was bending to sign something he goes 'dear you got one to many wrong' and I remember being like 'oh my god' in my head. I was in shock. I looked back at Jess and gave her a little shake of my head and she winced. Then the guy directed me to the lady so I could get some stuff.
I could barely hold my tears back as she talked to me. She told me I had to wait 30 days to take the test again and that I had to pay the $125 service fee to take it there again. Then I went back and sat in my chair and put my stuff away. I felt so out of place cause I should have left and I was sniffle really loud and trying to control my tears. Finally I left while the lady was passing out some stuff.
I went outside and dumped my stuff next to the front of the building. Then I sat on the ground and just cried. I cried for about 5 minutes I was so upset. I just couldn't believe it. I still can't. I've been waiting for this for about 3 months and I'd just failed it. I had told just about everyone I knew that I was getting it today. I had such plans about driving! And now they're all ruined. And I hate myself for not studying the drug and alcohol part of my driver's manual.
Once I calmed down I called my mom to tell her. When her voice came on the phone I got all choked up again. When I'm really upset I find it hard to talk. I started crying all over again when I told her the news. I told her I didn't want to go to school and that I wanted to go home, so she said she'd come pick me up. After I got off the phone with her I sat there for a while until people started coming out of the driving place. When Jess came out I immediately like tackled her and starting sobbing again for like the billionth time. She hugged me and told me it was okay. After I calmed down we talked for a bit. She told me that her driving part wasn't until 1130. Mine proabably would have been a while after hers...
When my mom got there I held my composure until I closed the door of the car and then I starting crying again. My mom hugged me and patted my back. We sat like that for a while until I finally pulled away. She, like Jessica, told me it was okay, everyone fails once in a while, it's not abnormal and stuff like that. She asked me if I was sure I didn't want to go to school and I said I was. I didn't want to have to face everyone asking if I'd pass my test. I probably would have started crying again which wouldn't have been good.
Once my mom dropped me off at home I started crying once again. After I stopped, a sat on the couch and watched tv. Then I went on the computer and posted that little entry from before. Then I took a nap. I woke up to the phone ringing. It was my mom calling to check up on me. A little while after that my dad called which made me start crying again. I cried a lot today. I finally started to work on my homework after that. One of the reasons I didn't want to go to school was because I hadn't done any of my homework cause I thought I would be able to do it during the time i had to wait to drive...
Around lunch time, my friends called me up and I had to deliver them the bad news. They were really sympathetic and told me not to worry about it, that I would ace it the next time, and that they loved me. I really love my friends for that. After i got off the phone with them I was still pretty down but I felt somewhat better.
I had practice today but since I didn't go to school I couldn't go to practice. There was a pasta party tonight though, in honor of a big game varsity has tomorrow. Carissa's mom came to pick up the food I was supposed to bring and she convinced me to go to the practice and then the pasta party. Practice was half over when i got there and when carissa saw me she ran to meet me and gave me a big hug. She's the bestest. My team members were very sympathetic too, the ones who knew. My coach even told me that he had failed the written part his first time too. I had a good time watching the practice and then at the pasta party after.
Anyway, that's basically it. I never believed it would happen to me though. I was so confident. Now I have to wait 30 days to take the test again yet I probably won't take it until the end of November because the DMV is booked up until January and although I have to pay the $125 to take it at my driving school I definately don't want to wait that long. I hope my driving school's schedule isn't backed too far because I want to take it as soon as I can.
It feels good to tell the whole story, though I still can't believe it. I had such plans for driving. I was going to drive to our first home football game tomorrow. I was going to drive to my game on Saturday. I was going to see if I could get a parking space at school before they're all taken up, but I guess that's not possible now.
Thanks for listening to my rant guys! Even if you didn't read it all. I think I'm done now. Until next time!
~Emmy