[fic]: one direction/ziam: I used to pray to recover you (1/1)

[shoreparty]

Title: I used to pray to recover you
Fandom: One Direction
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1 182
Characters/Pairing: Liam/Zayn
Summary: Liam takes up prayer when he can't take up Zayn.
Warnings: none.
Disclaimer: Not mine, not true.
Author's Note: Alternate timeline but still in a band. The boys are in NYC and Zayn gets more bad news.

Comments

[laakea]

I really enjoyed your story. I also understand what you mean about Ziam, I can't read Niam at all. It's Zayn and Liam for me all the way. Any thanks for sharing I hope to read more soon.

[shoreparty]

Thank you thank you!! Oh my goodness I feel guilty that I can't read Niam, there is so much good Niam fic, but it's like...Liam/Zayn is sacred? I can't even sully that for a second by going somewhere else. Haha. Liam/Zayn is just so much more developed and *hot* to me; it's like I feel that Zayn *needs* Liam and vice versa but Niall is so shippable with the entire world lol. Ok, I will try to dig deep and write more. Thanks again for reading and commenting, dear lovely person.

[ingeneva]

There are so many things I enjoy about this. Religion is such a difficult thing to write, and you manage it with such delicacy. For me, it works so well because it's more about Liam's clumsy interpretation of his own faith than anything, and his references to religion are thoughtful but distant. I especially like this bit:
Faith is something in a George Michael song, though he supposes that it's also a kind of faith on the hotel's part to think that there's still piety in the world -- at least enough for the courtesy, which is an oddly nice notion.

Just for that, Liam hopes vaguely that somebody is using them, making dents in the carpet with their knees and whispering into the shaded curtain, through the slender balcony grille, like they care about what God thinks, like somebody really does know better.
which looks excessively long in this comment but I can't figure out how to condense it!

Anyway. Your language is wonderful. I love the way you phrase thing -- excavating for words, pooled on the concrete, steeple their foreheads, and

[shoreparty]

Oh my god you have no idea how much your comment means to me! :D *Snuggles into comment* I've been having such a shitty few weeks feeling useless etc. etc.; this was lovely to wake up to

[ingeneva]

:D I'm glad I left it, then. I always feel slightly ridiculous when I leave comments, because I don't know how to shut up.

I was actually going to comment on your use of the setting, but I couldn't figure out how to word it. It's really lovely, though. I like the presence of NYC as a colder, absent thing in the context of Liam's story. It works well.

I don't know, either! And ugh, seriously, so many feelings. That is exactly why I love them, too. I mean, I adore Harry/Louis, but they're so loud and complicated and end up being sort of polarized -- either too light or too much of a cluster fuck. Liam/Zayn feels so quiet and stable in comparison.

PS: Now if only I could stop getting distracted by every other Zayn pairing ever.

[shoreparty]

You are absolutely forgiven :D Zayn is just...gawd the band would just lose so much sizzle without Zayn. He adds it to every pairing. And I was just reminded of one of your tags from before...like he is actually some people's least favourite and I'm like are. you. serious. NO.

[singcynsing]

This was stunning! Ziam rules and you're very talented; thank you for this beautiful piece.

[shoreparty]

Thank you so much!! I agree Ziam is just the pinnacle of everything to me; all fic should be Ziam fic; Ziam is all around and thank goodness they are giving us so much to work with lately, etc. etc. Let us all continue the flail :D

[russsel]

ugh this was so beautiful and i love, love, love it when people write about religion because it's not the easiest thing in the world, but you write it so amazingly and i'm not lying when i say was satisfied with every word of this fic.

your diction and how you piece words together just boggles my mind. like, how can someone write this good? everything fits together like a puzzle and every sentence is elegant and effortless and i loved how i just sort of glide by and let the words take me instead of it being the other way around. the imagery is so well-constructed and i can see everything and ughhhhh this was just so good. you're definitely someone i'll be watching out for from now on and like the person above, i would read 10k more just for your writing.

really great job, thank you for writing it!

[shoreparty]

Wow I'm so gratified that you enjoyed!!! I agree religion is hard and painful and polarizing and I have so many awful feelings about it; I'm so glad it was meaningful for you :D

OMG stoooooopp those are such high compliments auuuuggghh! I was literally in this hotel on Wall Street thinking "what would Liam do?" (haha what is my life...) and "this fic needs to happen". Then I got hungry and went to Duane Reade and got ramen and ate it while staring at Liam on Twitcam being adorable and derpy and being like "this fic REALLY needs to happen" haha. Very happy that my messy thought process translated into something you could easily visualize!!

(And then right after posting this I saw Harry's tweet about them playing at MSG in December and I was like omg the fic is coming true...)

[foreverlarrup]

Agh, this was so lovely to read. There's really not enough Ziam fics in the world, so I was pleasantly surprised that someone posted one, and I was even more surprised when I realized that it was so well written. I love how Liam's fumbling around with religion, and I myself am a religious person, and and I know it's really hard to write about praying and such without offending others, but I think you did a great job at it. And you used really poetic words without it being too purple prose-y, which is also really difficult, so good job, really.

[shoreparty]

Your comment means a lot to me, thank you!!! :D I'm so very glad that you liked it! Tbh this was weird for me to write because I always considered myself quite religious until last year (I think the more medicine I learn the more jaded I get >_<), and since then I've questioned a lot about how much of my faith was wrapped up in my family's faith and especially how much was just because I liked to sort through things via prayer, kind of take a step back and forgo control as a way of evaluation. And it's so easy to conflate religion with other things so I thought maybe Liam could have the same problem. Poor thing, apparently I just love to torture him!