Due to a recent conversation, this song goes out to Samantha....Can you guess who ( Read more... )

So I've been thinking alot lately. Maybe even doubting a little. I pray for all of these things to go right. And it seems that the worst things possible come out of it. And it's not selfish things for myself. No. They are just simple prayers from me for other people. Like someone who is sick, certain situations. Oh well I guess I'll just have to ( Read more... )

So I got tickets to see Panic! in June. I'm pretty excited about that since I always miss them when they are here. But I'm also a little pissed b/c I just found out today that one of my favorite bands in the world is coming and tickets are SOLD OUT. Brand New. Out of nowhere they decide to come and I didn't even know about it. Oh well. I'll just do ( Read more... )

So it was a year ago on Thursday. Dealing with life in the best way. Haven't been able to sleep well for the past week. And most of my family are still just a bunch of dicks ( Read more... )

So spring break is next week. Well pretty much it has officially started for me. I need it. Tuesday night I went and stayed with Sam and her suite mate from IL Emme. She's so funny. I love her. Then wednesday got up and headed to orlando to eat with Jaquese and drop Emme off at the airport. Then off to the house of blues for the silverstein/ ( Read more... )

So I can't believe that a year ago today life was normal. There was a beautiful party, and all of my family. If I would have known that it would have been the last time I would see him in a "healthy state" I would've given him the biggest hug and a kiss on the cheek instead of just saying "goodnight, I love you". I guess that still eats away at my ( Read more... )

So I have officially decided that I don't believe that "everything happens for a reason". My mother tried to tell me this the other day and I feel that it's all bull shit. It just doesn't justify a death. I'm sorry. And I might go to hell for saying it but it's just what I believe. Things happen. People die. But it doesn't make anything better. I ( Read more... )

So I'm over being sick now. But I guess being sick isn't over me because I'm still hacking up a lung. And my nose is Still running. And it's all red, puffy, and sore. And on top of all of that my wisdom teeth are hurting very badly...again. They have defintely got to go. Other than that the birthday went well. Got lots of money so I can buy ( Read more... )

So I guess alot of stuff is going on in my head right now. Some of it is like, "do i talk about it"? or what...And then I'm really considering school in Rockford. It just sounds so good for what I'm majoring in. But right now, where I'm at, I'm completely in my "comfort zone". And I hate messing things up when I'm finally comfortable. I hate change ( Read more... )

So 2005 is finally over. Can't really say that I'm sad about it. But all in all it was an okay year. I had alot of good times to make up for the not so great parts. Went to my aunt's house for New Years Eve. Sammy came with. It was muy fun. We chilled and drank some "Adult Beverages". God forbid it. Let the rumors begin. Haha. Samantha knows what I ( Read more... )