So it gets worst everyday ( Read more... )

Your eyes give me hope when i stare into them,
your words cut me like a knife,
speechless by what happened,
my heart is swallowed by a deep pain,

you ask me why but i can't explain,
words can't explain the feelings i feel,
just the twisting of my stomach,
and the emptiness of my heart,
is all i know....

I don't think it is possible to explain last night in words... i'm speechless.. but i prob. can say last night was one of the worst days of my life. And i am an idiot and I'm am deff. considering never drinking again.

I am at the point where i need to know ( Read more... )

The other night i had a dream.. where me and Trevor White were hanging out and he kissed courtney.. and i was like. what was that and he was lke oh.. come on girls like that. Then Courtney left and we kept hiding in this like appartment then trying to steal chocolate cake from this Asian lady the apartment over ( Read more... )

The struggle to like oneself ( Read more... )

Will he ever return ( Read more... )

Now I'm trying to find my peace in this place ( Read more... )

Seems like it's Always Midnight ( Read more... )

Stomach turning just the thought,
its not a new feeling,
Its been here for a while,
its the feeling of lost,
a lil confused,
and a little bit lonely

Laying alone avoiding contact,
knowing their are things to do,
no ambition to move.

This computer, this website,
is all i have to grieve,
keep to myelf,
stay alive,
it will pass,
in time...