it's sad that my life has to be shitty for me to update......but that's how it is ( Read more... )

So dustin and I are taking a break...pretty much ( Read more... )

So...yeah ( Read more... )

I'm so sick...sick of caring...what other people think...sick of being stepped on...the people that step on me...sometimes I'm a lot more of a person they they'll ever be...so I just let the stepping happen ( Read more... )

and I was trying to get his attention by putting up 50 away messages off and on....and it worked..but failed...the only reason I wanted to talk to him was because I felt bad about the middle finger thing..but now it didn't even happen..I could've gone without that...damnit...here it is...once again ( Read more... )

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooook ( Read more... )

so right after that little IM conversation that happened before..I drove to Home Depot to pick up Dustin and a car was in front of me and I had a weird feeling about it because the person in the front looked like steve and I was like uhh that'd be weird..so at montpelier they went to turn right and I was going straight so I sped so I'd go by them ( Read more... )

oh my gosh...I graduated to bitch....I would feel bad if I let myself think about it...but anyone who knows this story knows that this kid is an obsessed stalker of me and thinks that I shouldn't be with dustin...so...here it is............after I thought he went away..he comes back ( Read more... )

better now

so depressed and alone and dark and scared

how can happiness be so fleeting and sadness be soo deep

-not the best me