I'm in NJ right now visiting my family. it's nice to be away from all the holiday cheer that doesn't involve the jew crew. I do miss my work and all my kiddos. Work is so much fun. It really makes me wonder why i go to school. I can get excellent pay and really enjoy myself more than almost anything else i do. My brain feels occupied by the ( Read more... )

How come after almost two and a half years of pain there's no more reassurance that it will all end some day? For the first six months i knew that there would be a day that i'd be painfree and that by brain would not be dulled by medication. Now here i am, no reasurrance, pain, and a brain that will likely never be back to its potential. i keep ( Read more... )

So far so good here in Leb town. The crew from burlington got to see my humble abode and meet Mindela, as we feasted on home made brownies and talked about life experiences. It was good and really made me realize all the great friends i've made so far at Whea'n. After that i had an anxious dinner with my family as I waited to get to see mis ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up in a bed with Ed and Shiloh. Our limbs were all intertwined as we cuddled and the feeling of eachothers breath hit our faces and chests. It was wonderful! I had forgotten what real food tastes like, what a real bed feels like, and how clean you can feel after a shower! Shis's friends were really great and being in a real ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I've last updated so i guess i will... Things have been going quite well. I have been keeping myself busy like usual. Since I last updated I have been to Sienna to visit the lovely Sarah Larsen, gone to boston for a lecture, went to a nude figure drawing session, saw Farenheit 911 for the umpteenth time, and had the ( Read more... )

So this weekend was pretty low key but good, which i think is optimal for the mood i was in and what i needed to get out of the weekend. I still have more work to do, but i ultimately rested up enough that i have enough energy to work myself through it as long as i can organize my thoughts enough to actually prove my thesis, and least of all ( Read more... )

So this weekend i'm heading into Boston for a conference with SOAR~ Student Organization against Racism... business again, why?? i have a paper i need to write, and i need to work on self control and stay in my room in the evenings and actually get work done rather than getting sucked into the night scenes here. I NEED TO DO THIS! So this is for ( Read more... )

theres something called home... it's differnt than a room and very differnt than a dorm room. The place thats smell is familiar, that you know the countour of your favorite corner, and it can satisfy most moods in which you need to sit back, open a book, listen to music, or simply think. I feel like today i have acheived a huge step by making ( Read more... )

What happens when you hear the news and all you have is nausea and this deep rooted sadness that you have no idea when it will change and how long it will last? What happens when you lost sleep, abandoned your studies, whatever, all in the name of politics? It controlled my thoughts, my body, my emotion and i feel so goddadmn helpless. I feel ( Read more... )

So this weekend was packed with adventures. On friday lucy, adara, will, and I took the streets of boston by storm in search of haloween costumes and tongas miniconcert. We had a good time, got really exhausted, and debated the whole time about whether we would go out and party for the night or just hang back and chill. By the time we had gotten ( Read more... )