I have a test. Honestly, I hope I do well, but I really don't care. I'm working off of little sleep, but that doesn't change the fact that it's a really good day outside. Thanks for all the good days God. Thanks for being near me even when I seem distant. Thanks for loving me like a son. In you I find purpose.

Alright, go time.

Later, Ben

Long ago, a young man took a stroll through a garden. This place was intoxicating to say the least. A gentle breeze made its presence known as beautiful petals swirled around him. The aroma of fresh flowers filled his senses and awakened his spirit. The flowers, however, were very much the same...this is what the young man found so comforting. This ( Read more... )

And good lord, my thesis/essay is crap. I love to write a lot, but it's pretty lame when your mind won't translate your thoughts through your fingers. But I did my best considering the circumstances, so I guess we will wait and see ( Read more... )

Kristal and I just spoke, and I felt like a 5 year old school boy. With suspenders. And a goofy propellor hat. I couldn't stop myself from shaking...I couldn't find the words to say, but I know some came out. Seriously, who she is makes me happy. She inspires me ( Read more... )

Reading my entries is nutty. I sound really depressed. I'm really not at all. I'm actually very happy. This journal just helps me vent my crap to a screen instead of a soul.

I'm understanding what it means to love whole-heartedly. Without reserve. Thank you God for placing such lovely people in my life.

We truly live in a beautiful world.

Ben.

Happiness should be inclusive, not exclusive. Why do some feel the need to exclude others during the best moments of life? Is it selfishness? Maybe it's realizing the people you love in your down times are a means to a happy end. People should not be means to an end. Good friendships should not pacify someone until things start falling their way, ( Read more... )

Michael, Joel and I were able to hang out with Mr. and Mrs. Weed tonight. That was cool. We ate at Outback Steakhouse, picked up some college supplies at Wal-Mart, and then I came back here. Been chillin' ever since. Kristal called me, but she wasn't in a good mood. She talked to her dad tonight, and she said they had a horrible conversation. I ( Read more... )

I think it's time I start to write again ( Read more... )

I would just like to take this moment to say ( Read more... )

Sometimes I need to tell what I feel, even if I spill it to a lame computer screen. Honestly, I find it hard to believe that I can't speak without some kind of negative emotional reaction. I say it again and again: I think you are a tight person, and I want the friendship we had. So why on earth are you getting so upset? What I said was not meant ( Read more... )