Heart Shaped Clock - Chapter 18

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Title: Heart Shaped Clock.
Author: shou_ni
Pairing: ToraxShou, some NaoxHiroto
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, Angst, Fluff, Smut-ish
Disclaimer: I dont own anyone, just the story.
Summary: When a beautiful guy enters Tora's life, he's smitten. Unfortunately Shou has a secret and he doesn't want to share it



Tora was distracted. He had awoken in the tangled embrace of his sleeping lover, feeling soft tendrils of warm air against his shoulder as Shou breathed slowly. His fingers gently stroked silky chestnut hair with an almost somber expression.

He had alot on his mind, even as they strolled to a neighboring beach to go scuba diving. Only giving his poor brain a small rest to enjoy looking at all of the different brightly coloured sea life that went about their daily ocean business around him. Not missing Shou pointing excitedly at a small turtle swimming among the reef. Perhaps Shou's drunken plan might actually work he thought.

It was one of those beautiful moments where nothing else in the world mattered, just him, his love and the vivid sealife all floating in the warm water without a care.

Of course, as soon as he was back on dry land, back in his clothes everything came rushing back to him, weighing his mind down again once more.

They stopped off at a nice restaurant for lunch, their tummies rumbling and growling for food. For once, Shou ordered more food that Tora did, twice as much infact. Wolfing it down as if he hadn't eaten in a year.

"You gonna eat that?" He asked, pointing to Tora's untouched chicken. The elder shook his head lazily and watched as Shou comped it down happily.

Pleasantly unaware that his boyfriend was feeling mildly distressed.

After clearing both plates like a human vacume cleaner Shou paid the bill and they left.

The streets were quiet at that time, the few tourists that were in the quaint little town were all either shopping at the market or at the beach. Tora and Shou however were strolling through a beautiful little street filled with odd looking shops selling trinkets and other magical looking objects.

Shou looked over his shoulder at Tora, who was walking much slower.

"Hey, are you okay?" He questioned, lacing their fingers together. The black haired male glanced at him, he wanted to just come right out and say everything that was bugging him, but when he went to open his mouth nothing came out.

"Tora, what is it?"

"I don't know how to say it" He mused, brows furrowing in mild frustration.

"Just start from the beginning?"

That was an obvious point, did his troubles really have a prominent beginning. He'd been fine during the previous two days, but waking up that morning it swarmed his mind.

With a sigh, he perched himself down on a nearby step, running his fingers through black hair.

"When I hit my head on the cliff side, I had a dream... about you" He paused, looking at the other who had joined him on the step.

"I dreamed that I'd been in a coma for fourteen years ten months and two days. Apparently my accident had turned me into a vegetable for all of those years. But for some reason you stayed with me, and you looked older, and were so so beautiful"

A smile tickled at the corner of Shou's lips, trust Tora to have such a dream.

"You told me that you'd been waiting for me to wake up for all that time and that you were lonely. You looked so sad... Then..... we started making love"

"How would that work, you wouldn't be able to move" Shou laughed. "Clearly your dreams aren't scientifically correct"

"That's not the point. The important thing was that you were still alive... You told me that you'd had a heart transplant and everything was fine" He sighed "Which got me thinking.."

"Stop right there" Shou cut in, the smile disappearing from his face.

"But Shou, it's so obvious, why have we never thought of it? There's gotta be a waiting list you can be put on or something. Maybe they'll put you at the top because you're so young"

The younger clenched his fists, staring at the ground in front of him. Did Tora not hear his protests or was he just too warped to pay attention.

"We can talk with your doctor about it when we get back to Japan and get everything sorted then we can.."

"STOP IT!" Shou Yelled, his frustration exploding inside of him "Shut the fuck up already!"

He sprung to his feet, shocking the other who was almost oblivious to his annoyance.

"Why do you keep doing this Tora? You keep pushing me, just give it a rest for fuck sake"

Tora joined him standing, sending a surprised look in his direction.

"What's gotten into you?" He tested, stepping closer to the younger who pushed him away "Shou?"

"Piss off"

"Baby, what's wrong? We don't have to wait until we get home to call him if that's the problem"

"That's not the problem, the problem is you" Shou hollered. All attempts to keep calm and mellow had gone out of the window leaving nothing but flaming anger. Who the fuck did Tora think he was, Honestly?

"You don't get it do you? Just stop doing this to me all of the time Tora, I can't do it anymore" Before Tora could even react, he was running off in the other direction.

Tora sprinted after him, stumbling on the uneven cobbles beneath his feet. What the fuck just happened? Why did he just explode like that?

"Shou wait!" He called, to no avail. It only seemed to make the other run faster.

He was catching up to him, reading to grab him when he turned a corner and suddenly... Shou was no where in sight.

His eyes darted all around him but he couldn't see his lover anywhere.

"Fuck" He cursed, falling against the wall with a dull thud. Heart pounding and lungs screaming for air. He had no idea what was going on, or why Shou shot off but he didn't like it one bit and it made him feel scared. The mere thought of losing Shou made him feel sick, but actually losing him that far away from home made his knees feel like jelly.

After thirteen failed phone calls, He decided that perhaps he should let the brunette cool off. Even if he had no idea what he had done wrong.

Shou stared down at the water below him, waves gently rippling against the rocks surface, occasionally spraying droplets onto his bare shins. He'd somehow managed to find the quietest spot in the entire village, perched on some rocks on the beach.

He needed to get away before he did or said something that he would regret.

That stupid ass of a boyfriend really didn't know when to zip it. It was as if he was clawing at all of the memories in Shou's mind and tearing them out into the open.

Painful memories. Memories that made him hate himself.

Tora was his soul mate, why couldn't he see what he was doing?

The wind gently drifted against his over heated skin, trouseling his hair ever so lightly.

He rested his head in his hands and took a deep breath, eyes falling shut.

The sound of people shouting around him whirled in his head. Air blowing on his face beneath the mask that was strapped to his face. Every thing hurt. Somewhere in the distance he could hear Hiroto crying, calling out to him. But the shrill rapid beeping of a heart monitor cut through the noise, echoing in his mind. Vision blurred with every blink, he knew he was fading.

"I'm going to die because of my silly little heart" He though, using the last of his strength to laugh. His body was exhausted, heart failing to pump blood properly, filling his mouth with the bitter taste of copper as he coughed.

His entire body felt as if it was on fire, the unbearable pain running through his chest. Everything around him started to dissolve, blurring into the same thing and before he knew it everything went black.

A single tear rolled down his cheek, quickly wiped away by shaky fingers. His mind was all over the place. He was furious, upset and feeling alone once more. Tora had promised him that he'd never have to face anything on his own and yet, here he was all over again wanting nothing more than to curl up in a ball and shut out the rest of the world.

That desire was interrupted by the sound of his phone ringing for the umpteenth time. With an exasperated sigh he pulled the device from his pocket and held it to his ear.

"Shou, look I'm sorry" He heard Tora say quietly "whatever I've done I'm sorry. Please, I just want to see you again. I'm sitting by the water fountain in the center of the village, come and meet me.... Please?"

Shou didn't utter a word before he hung up. Pondering to himself for a good while.

Tora was worried to say the least, Shou hadn't said a word on the phone and that was over two hours ago. He was beginning to fear the worst. What if he was already at the airport catching the first flight home? What if he'd been struck by lightning? What if bandits had kidnapped him and were doing unspeakable things to him? Nah that was highly unlikely, but still he couldn't bring himself to lift his head from his hands.

The sound of the water fountain that he sat on did little to ease his anxieties, but did kind of drown out the occasional sound of happy lovers who passed him every now and then.

"You wanted to talk?"

His head snapped up to see his own lover stood infront of him. Cross armed and wearing a blank expression.

"Shou" He said, getting to his feet to hug the younger, but Shou stepped back, holding a hand up.

"Don't ... just" The brunette sighed "I don't wanna be touched right now. What is it you wanted to say?"

"Oh, right ... yeah.." He signaled for Shou to sit next to him, at a distance of course. "I've been thinking... and it's not been an easy decision but I think it's what I really want" He paused, looking deep into Shou's eyes.

Shou really didn't like where this was going.

"I want to give you my heart"

Oh no.

"We have the same blood type so it'll be more likely to be a success. I know it's drastic but I just want you to live a long and happy life, even if that means I can't be a part of it"

Tora suddenly felt a sharp pain radiate through his cheek. Shou's hand lingering infront of him for a few seconds. He was shaking.

"You just don't get it do you?" He cried in anger "I don't want that. I'd rather die right now than live without you"

"But you have so much to live for Shou."

"No I don't, that's precisely it... I don't have a family, or a career or even many friends. But you have everything, a blossoming career, loads of friends and a family that loves you more than anything. Do you really want to give all of that up for some kid with a broken ticker that you met only a year ago?"

He was on his feet once again, unsure if Shou was going to run again - Tora grabbed his wrist.

"You aren't just some guy though. I've never felt this way about anyone before"

"But it isn't enough to make such a a huge decision Tora. Besides, do you really think I could live with myself knowing what I took from your parents and the rest of your family? You think I'd be able to cope with guilt? I would never be able to live my life without you." He yelled.

Too many emotions churned around in his stomach, threatening to spill from his eyes in the form of hot - frustrated tears. He felt the grip on his wrist waver.

"Even if I could, it would fail anyway."

Tora cocked a brown, staring at him in confusion, "What do you mean?"

There was no point in keeping it a secret anymore Shou thought. Letting out a deep breath he freed his arm.

"Since I quit highschool, I've had to under go three blood transfusions. The first one was fine but the other two rejected." He paused to let out a bitter laugh "Some thing so simple rejected twice, transfusion rejection is such a rare occurrence and yet it happened on two separate occasions. Because of that the doctors said that it would be pointless to even attempt something as difficult as a heart transplant"

Tora's brows furrowed, shoulders slumping. He refused to believe that he was defeated.

"Is there no way they'd even try?"

"The risk is too big. If the operation was successful then there's the huge possibility that my body would reject it further down the line." Shou nodded sadly "Anyway, who am I to take a heart from someone else only to reject it. I'd rather it go to someone else so that they can live a healthy life"

"I'm sorry.."

Slowly, Shou wrapped his arms around Tora's waist and pulled him close, resting his head on the others shoulder.

"It's okay. In future just be a little more thoughtful. This has dragged up stuff that I thought I'd managed to push away, so please don't bring it up again. If you do I'll run so far away that you'll never find me"

The elder knew that it wasn't a joke. Shou might be sweet and loyal but he was also stubborn and knew exactly what he wanted. So he knew that if pushed too much he would disappear without a word.

He nodded silently, threading his fingers gently through the brunette hairs of the back of his head.

Neither of them dared to say anything, the tension had melted away leaving an awkward feeling hanging over their heads. Settling to head back to the village, fingers lightly intertwined.

A calm breeze blew along the island, getting rid of the last of the clouds from the storm the night before. Sunlight reflected and rippled on the puddles creating a rainbow across the sky.

They stopped by a small food stall, grabbing some cheap local cuisine and resting their tired feet as they sat on a bench near the sea front.

The day had been contrasted by so many emotions that it was mentally exhausting. All Tora wanted to do was go back to their beach and chill out before rolling into bed for some well deserved sleep. Shou however seemed wide awake, toes tapping the sound of a busker in the distance.

"Shou, do you mind if we.." Tora trailed off with a yawn. Shou seemed to understand what he was hinting at and rose to his feet.

"No not at all" He smiled, pulling Tora up with him.

His mind wandered as they walked back, Shou's hand in his own, swinging back and forth slightly.

He thought back to the plane journey, he'd been such a pain it was any wonder why Shou hadn't just punched him in the nuts and given him Chloroform . Then the image of Shou's frightened face at the top of the volcano, how he'd been stupid enough to knock himself out and then the big bust up only a few hours before. He really had ruined the entire vacation, ruined Shou's dream of Hawaii. The awful feeling of guit ran through him, draining the colour from his face.

It was only when he felt himself be pushed forcibly against the bark of a tree did he snap back to reality. Blinking he saw that they were in the forest right next to their little beach.

Soft lips met his own, pressing him further against the tree.

"Shou.."

He was silenced by the kisses that were planted on his lips, trailing down and latching onto his neck.

Hands swept under his shirt, caressing the warm skin beneath in slow circling motions, he let an accidental moan slip out.

With a smirk, Shou nibbled on the patch of his neck, sucking hard enough to leave an impressive mark, After all if Tora could do it, so could he.

A sneaky hand dipped into his pants, groping him almost shamelessly. It wasn't that often that Shou was so forward, usually if he was horny he'd be more subtle about it, but it seemed as if Hawaii had given him more of an edge.

A stark contrast the the Shou he had first met, who had been so frightened of sex that Tora had to jerk off in the bathroom on one occasion after a heated make out session. The old Shou never initiated and was always so timid when it came to intimacy, but now, he'd blossomed with confidence, knowing what he like and how to please Tora more than any other lover had done. And the fact that he had come so far was wonderful in Tora's eyes, it gave them a much stronger spiritual connection and brought them much closer together.

Pretty soon he was uncomfortably hard, straining against the confines of his underpants.

"Baby stop teasing me" He growled earning a small laugh.

"Okay, c'mon we'll be back in a minute"

But Tora wasn't having that, he grabbed Shou's shoulder and pushed him to his knees.

"I can't wait that long"

"B..but what if we get caught?" Shou stuttered, suddenly blushing at the thought.

"Fuck, babe.. we're in the middle of nowhere. No body is going to walk through here"

That was all the younger needed to hear, fingers quickly making light work of his belt and pulling his jeans down enough to set his rock hard member free into the cool evening air. Proceeding to drag his tongue lazily along the underside, drawing a long deep groan from Tora. He purposefully took time to tease the tiger, placing ghosting kisses up and down his shaft.

He looked up at the other and was met by a fiercely lust filled gaze, watching him every ministration, warning him that anymore teasing would not work out well.

So with a final lick to the head he let Tora's cock slide past his plush lips and into the warm cavern of his mouth.

Tora let out a sigh and allowed his eyes to fall shut, fingers threading through Shou's honey brown hair.

Oh god, he always felt so good, always knew the exact amount of attention needed to drive Tora insane. Letting his slip to the back of this throat, Shou swallowed around him, deep throating him so amazingly.

"fuck"

Keeping his hips still was proving more difficult than he thought, his body begged more of Shou's innocently sinful mouth.The faster his head bobbed and the harder he sucked - the more Tora began to loose his composure, thrusting ever so slightly to meet his ministrations, gripping his hair tightly although not enough to cause too much pain.

He couldn't take it anymore, he was getting so close. Pulling Shou up by his hair they kissed passionately, hands roaming each others bodies frantically. More clothes shed onto the damp floor.

Shou still felt anxious about being completely naked in the middle of a forest, worried that somebody would stumble across them. But to his surprise the mere thought of it turned him on even more. Tora pinned him against the trunk of a nearby tree and hooked an arm under his leg to bring it up around his hips, sticking his fingers into his mouth to wet them, but Shou shook his head.

"Don't bother with that, Just get in me" He breathed

"Are you sure, It might hurt"

"I'll be fine, please hurry up"

Tora couldn't deny him. He was just as desperate and hot. Wasting no more time he spat onto his palm and coated his member, mentally kicking himself for not having some lube to hand.

Slowly as he could manage in his worked up state he pushed into Shou's entrance. The Younger instantly began to regret his haste as the pain burned through him. He neglected to anticipate just how big Tora was and usually be had been stretched. So without any prepping or sufficient lubrication- He was having a hard time keeping his cool, Gripping Tora's shoulder tightly with gritted teeth.

"Wait" He choked "d..don't move yet"

"Are you okay Shou?" Tora asked, not daring to even breathe incase it hurt the younger. He felt nails digging into the skin of his shoulder signaling that his lover was experiencing a heightened level of discomfort.

"Yeah yeah, just give me a minute" He murmured, taking a few deep breaths and attempting to disperse the tension from his body and in turn get rid of the pain.

Soon enough he gave Tora the nod to begin a steady rhythm which quickly became more swift and heated. Hoisting Shou off of the ground allowing his legs to wrap around his waist.

Shou had to bite his lip to prevent himself from crying out, the pain had melted into uncensored pleasure. Lack of proper lube creating a delicious friction with just the smallest sting.

"Harder, please.."

The way the elder gripped his thighs as he thrust forcefully into, the fiery kisses that swallowed his own vulgar moans, the way the bark scraped harshly at his skin as his back was pressed into the tree trunk... it was all too much, he was sure that he had never felt so anxious for release, he usually savored every wave of pleasure but now he just needed to get off.

Tora couldn't hold back, smashing into Shou's prostate with such skill, drawing sensual screams from him.

Grabbing his neglected weeping cock Tora pumped him, causing nails to claw at his back.

"Don't stop, please.. Don't .."

He couldn't take it anymore, with a final cry he orgasms hard, crying out Tora's name. He was sure that if he was standing on his feet, his knees would've buckled beneath him.

Shou's muscles clenched around him, and a few more frantic thrusts saw Tora tumbling over the edge with him. Riding out both of their orgasms to see that they were well spent.

Tora fell against the brunette, practically crushing him against the tree trunk. Not that Shou minded, he was still trembling from his release so was thankful for the support.

After a few minutes ad regaining his composure, Tora pulled out of his lover and helped him back onto his feet before they searched for their discarded clothes.

Shou hated to admit it, but he had always wondered what people found so exciting about sexual encounters in the open air and now he could understand exactly why that kind of thing was a turn on. Pulling his shirt on he smiled, grabbing Tora's shirt and giving him a loving kiss. God he felt so dirty, almost slutty... But boy was it worth it. Make up sex was defiantly one of the perks of a healthy relationship.

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Authors Note - This chapter is a little shorter than the last because I thought that this was an appropriate cut off point. I'm also aware that there's been alot of smut recently and I don't want this fic to turn into a smut driven one so don't worry, this is possibly the last smut scene in the story. I've also decided to add an extra chapter or two after an idea I had a couple of weeks ago. So there's still a little while left yet. 
So Tora revealed his dream to Shou, didn't get quite the response he was expecting. 
Working on the next chapter now, proving difficult and I'm stuck D:
So comments are motivational love.