Heart Shaped Clock - Chapter 19
Title: Heart Shaped Clock.
Author: shou_ni
Pairing: ToraxShou, some NaoxHiroto
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, Angst, Fluff, Smut-ish
Disclaimer: I dont own anyone, just the story.
Summary: When a beautiful guy enters Tora's life, he's smitten. Unfortunately Shou has a secret and he doesn't want to share it
The blazing sunshine melted all of the remaining puddles of rain away by the following morning. Tora and Shou had ventured an hour from their accommodation to visit a handful of museums and art galleries. Wanting to experience some culture before hopping onto a bus to the next town for an hour at the shops. A friendly shop girl in a trendy clothes store had informed them about a famous Hawaiian rock band playing later that night, so the two decided to see what it was all about.
Shou had only been to a couple of lives when he was in school, he and Hiroto would fantasize about making their own band and performing to millions on a huge stage. But becoming ill had put a stop to those ideas and he'd lost the desire to go to shows.
This time it was different, in the middle of a pulsing crowd holding onto Tora's hand, the beat coursing through him - it all made him feel so alive.
He couldn't really understand what the vocalist was singing, but did it matter? Why would it, music didn't need to have every word understood. The only thing that was important was that it felt right when you listened to it.
The rhythm and melody danced through his ears and into his mind, creating their own stories, just for him.
Tora's body pressed against him, jumping in time with him as the beat kicked into full power, feeling the energy pumping through him.
He was practically dancing from left over excitement as they sat at the back of the bus after the show. Still buzzing. Tora's arm was wrapped around him bringing them closer. Exchanging secret kisses like forbidden lovers. Lights of the passing towns reflecting on the glass windows, immersing them in an almost dream like world. A million miles from home.
The next days were spent going out to dinner, sun bathing, sight seeing and generally soaking up as much Hawaiian culture as they could. Stress free and completely peaceful. Exactly how Tora imagined it would be and that made him so happy. Their fingers intertwined with nearly every step they took, lacing romance into each moment.
The last night came all to quickly. They didn't feel like sharing it with anyone, Choosing to stay at their little haven with drinks, music and fireworks. Tora had found a shop that sold the kind that you lit once and left it to do it's thing.
Tora sat in the sand- swigging from his drink, watching intently as Shou's body moved sensually yet innocently to the music, carefree and happy. The smoke flare that they'd found in the huts bedside table in hand, engulfing him partially in tendrils of red smoke, illuminated by the bright fireworks behind him.
The ebony haired male jumped to his feet, joining his lover for a passion filled kiss. Surrounded by the sound of music, the loud bangs of the fireworks and smoke. It really did feel like they were the only two people in the entire world. No one else mattered to them at that moment in time, it was just the two of them, caught in the moment and embracing each other.
It was heaven.
"I don't want to leave tomorrow" Shou whispered into his ear, fingers brushing over his cheeks.
"I know baby" Tora sighed, kissing the corner of his mouth "Let's stay here forever and forget about everything else"
The space between their lips vanished once again. Sitting in the sand to enjoy the rest of the fireworks, a beautiful end to a wonderful evening.
Shou bolted upright with a gasp. It was almost sunrise and the two of them were in bed. Tora was fast asleep, wrapped up in the bed covers looking peaceful.
Shou on the other hand, clutched at his chest as a sharp pain jolted through him.
Please -he though- please not now.
The last thing he wanted to do was to wake up his sleeping lover, so as silently as he could manage, he clambered out of bed and out of the door. Practically falling against the tree as he stumbled. Suppressing his cries of pain.
He really didn't need this, they were catching the plane home in a few hours so he needed to be well.
Kneeling down, he began taking deep clam breaths. Focusing on getting oxygen into his lungs, eventually the pain dulled down to a ache that was just about bearable.
Tora roused from the delightful arms of slumber to find the bed cold and empty.
Rubbing his tired eyes he rolled out of bed. "Shou?" He wasn't inside in any case.
"Shou.." His eyes scanned the beach frantically, searching the coast line for any sign of his brunette lover. Where on earth had he disappeared to?
To his left he saw a pair of bare feet poking out from behind a tree, making him run over in panic.
"Shou, baby.." He cried, dropping down next to him. The commotion caused Shou's eyes to crack open hissing as the bright sunlight violated his pupils.
"What's going on?" He groaned, shielding his eyes with his forearm.
"Are you okay?"
It suddenly hit Shou, he'd gone outside to get some air, and sat down to calm down for a few moments. So he mustn't have made it back inside.
"Oh.. yeah. I just ... wanted to watch the sunrise" A quickly thought up lie "I guess I fell asleep"
Tora pulled him close in a relieved hug.
They were quiet as they boarded the plane, sad to say goodbye to Hawaii. It'd been such a magical week filled with surprises, amazing new experiences and love, so much love. It felt like it had passed by in a flash.
They sat in their respective seats, fortunately Tora didn't freak out like he had on the journey there. Slumped against his lover with his fuzzy tiger plushie in his arms.
He was kind of annoyed that he had slept so well the night before, as he felt wide awake and not exactly looking forward to their 7 hour flight. With a sigh he snuggled up closer to Shou and squeezed the cuddly toy to settle his nerves.
Hiroto rolled onto his side, brushing stray bangs from his eyes. Nao curled up next to him with Mogu between them. 9am on the Saturday morning and they both had the day off, which the blonde was more than thankful for. He hadn't been able to spend any quality time with Nao as they had been very busy for the past few weeks, so just being able to laze in bed next to him was heavenly.
"What do you fancy doing today?" Nao murmured, still half asleep, gently stroking his fiance's hip bone.
"Nothing, I just want to stay here all day" He shifted closer to him and draped his arms over his sides, almost squishing Mogu in the process. The fuzz ball got the hint and scurried out from between them, making a beeline for the living room - At least he'd get to have a uninterrupted nap there.
"Nothing at all? Are you sure, we have the whole day to burn" Nao laughed, cracking an eye open. Hiroto smirked suggestively.
"Well maybe we can do something full of burning passion later"
"How can I say no to that" a small yet sensual kiss was exchanged "Did you want to go and see Shou today?"
"Yeah, what time does their flight get in?"
"Well Tora said their flight leaves at 12pm Hawaiian time, so that's 7am here" Nao pondered "So if it takes 7 hours, they'll arrive here at 2pm"
The younger nodded and snuggled impossibly closer.
"We'll go and see them 5 for an hour, give them a hour or so to settle in. Until then let's just stay here"
Two tired bodies crossed the threshold of their apartment. Jet lag slowly catching up with them.
"Urgh, we've lost almost an entire day. 19 fucking hours" Shou groaned as he flopped down on the couch "Now I know what time travel feels like"
Tora joined him with an exasperated sigh. They had left Hawaii only 7 hours before but with the 19 hour time difference, it felt so much longer. Shou's phone beeped signaling yet another message, causing him to reluctantly pull it out from his bag.
"How about you and I take a nice hot bath, put some pajamas on, order takeout and snuggle in bed with a Disney movie?" Tora suggested, throwing an arm over the youngers waist.
"I would love that more than anything right now.. unfortunately Hiroto just text me to tell us that he and Nao are coming over in about 2 hours" He sighed earning a loud groan from Tora as he hid his face in the crook of the youngers neck.
"As much as I want to see them, I don't want to see them today" He whined "I just want you all to myself"
Shou gave his knee an affectionate squeeze "Don't worry, we can still do all of that stuff, just after they leave, I'll pretend to be really really sleepy so that they don't stay forever"
Nodding in agreement Tora reluctantly got to his feet so that they could start tidying.
Nao and Hiroto arrived at 5:02pm precisely, greeting their best friends with excited smiles - eager to hear stories of their recent endeavors.
"So, tell us everything" Hiroto prodded as he lowered himself none too gently onto the couch. "What did you guys get up to?"
"Oh we did so much it was amazing, Hawaii itself is just breathtaking" Shou said softly, a smile tugging at the corners of his mouth "The volcano we climbed was super beautiful"
"You climbed a volcano?" Nao gasped in awe.
"Yeah, Tora, go fetch the video camera, we might as well show you whilst you're here"
Without protest, Tora jogged into their bedroom to bring the device before hooking it up to their TV.
Videos from their tropical adventure played on the big screen, starting with a particularly unflattering up-nose shot of Tora, who was clearly unaware that it was recording.
It was only after about fifteen minutes of beautiful scenery and culture did an unexpected scene flash up.
Well, it wasn't the scene that was what shocked them per say, you couldn't see much anyway, simply what they assumed was on the floor next to the bed side table as the video opened with a clatter - most likely from falling from said piece of furniture.
The shocking part was the carnal moan that ripped through the TV's speakers, followed by the steady creak of a wooden bed and short gasps and moans.
It didn't take long for it to dawn on the four, causing four very different reactions. Nao's uncontrollable laughter, Hiroto's hands shot up to cover his ears and Shou's cheeks flushed dark hues of red, whilst Tora scrambled to his feet in an attempt to shut off the camera quickly. Unfortunately in his embarrassment his fingers struggled to function correctly, pressing nearly every button except the stop button.
In the end he opted with pulling out the linkup cable, shutting it off immediately.
The sound of sensual activity seemed to linger, echoing through the apartment.
Eventually Nao's giggles died down, leaving the feeling of embarrassment to burn through the cheeks of the other couple.
"Well" Hiroto announced, getting to his feet "I think it's time we went home, You two must be so jet lagged. C'mon Nao" His foot prodded his lover as he grabbed his keys.
"Alright" The elder huffed "See you two love birds soon" He smirked.
As soon as the door closed Shou's head dropped into his hands with a cry.
"I've never been so mortified, how the fuck did we not know THAT was on there?"
"I have no idea, I don't even remember having to stop it from recording." Tora sighed, flopping down on the couch next to him.
Shou's head rested on his shoulder "Do I really sound that weird when we're having sex?"
"You don't sound weird, you sound fucking hot" Tora laughed, giving his hair a loving stroke. "Anyway, don't we have a date with some take out food and Disney movies?"
"Oh hell yeah"
Stepping into their apartment, Hiroto headed straight to bed, spinning a lie about having a headache. He wasn't in the mood to talk anymore.
That video, hearing Shou's erotic moans.. it had effected him so much. Just when he thought all of his feeling were dead and buried, and now suddenly all of his feelings rushing back to the surface of his mind. For years he had fantasized about being the one to make Shou cry out with bliss like that, always wanting to hear the elder scream his name.
He shoved a pillow over his head, trying to block out his nasty thoughts. He had moved on, hadn't he?
Nao was his world, the man he wanted to spend the rest of his life with, so why did he suddenly feel the old burning desire to pin the tall brunette down and fuck him harshly into the mattress? He was sure that it wasn't romantic feelings he was experiencing, more like sexual attraction, simply the desire to have sex.. nothing more.
Mogu, who had sensed his masters distress, hopped onto the bed next to him and gave his hand an affectionate lick. He sighed and pulled the dog into his arms, gently stroking his soft fur.
"What are we going to do Mogu?" He hushed, snuggling up under the covers.
This was certainly the last thing he needed.
It had been a long few days for Shou. Since getting back from Hawaii he went back to work and spent most of his time rushing around getting things back in order. He'd been up to his neck in various bits of paperwork and jobs. That morning a man came in and bought a huge stack of Cd's, vinyls and even one of the guitars, resulting in a ridiculous amount of cash being put into the till and a large smile on his face. He wondered what kind of person spends that amount of money in a run down old music store, not that he minded, it meant that he was going to get more money on his paycheck so it was all good in his eyes.
He practically skipped out of the elevator, it'd been such a good day despite being so long. Fishing out his keys he opened the front door, kicking off his shoes in the genkan.
"Tora I'm home, and I have cake" He chimed, walking through to the living room.
Tora wasn't there though. Putting the cake box down onto the coffee table he made his way to the kitchen, stopping in the door way as he heard a quiet voice.
"So do you think you can fit him in for tomorrow evening?"
Shou peeped around the door frame and saw his tall lover cradling his phone against his ear, biting his lip.
"Perfect, I'll have a talk with him when he gets home... yep, okay that's fine. Thank you Doctor. See you tomorrow" he said before putting the phone down.
"What was that about?" Shou said stepping into view, causing Tora to jump.
"Babe, I didn't hear you come in"
"No, of course you didn't" He sneered "So.. the phone call, anything interesting?"
Tora looked hesitant, body weight shifting from one foot to the other.
"It was your doctor, I called him because I read about something on the internet the other night" He felt his cheeks heat up, not helped by the way Shou was frowning at him.
"It's a kind of medication that is supposed to help with heart illnesses such as yours. So I wanted to speak with your Doctor about it too see if it was an option. He thinks that it's defiantly worth a try "
"And you didn't think to consult me about it first?" Shou snapped, crossing his arms across his chest. "What if I don't want to?"
"Well you'd be stupid not to bother looking into it"
The younger rolled his eyes, turning on his heel to walk away "I guess I'm stupid then"
Tora wasn't letting him get away that easily, he grabbed Shou's shoulder, spinning him around and pinning him roughly to the wall. He hated being so forceful with the younger, but he was so stubborn that sometimes it was the only way to get him to listen.
"Why won't you even give it a chance? Why have you given up before so willingly, you seem so full of life but then whenever I bring up anything to do with your condition you get all cold and distant" The younger was still beneath his fingers, not so much as a flinch "I haven't seen you make an active attempt to get better, it's like you don't even care about dying. Do you even give a shit at all?"
"Of course I do..."
"Really? because it sure as hell doesn't seem like it. How do you think that makes me feel Shou?" His voice was getting unintentionally louder, tone more harsh, "I have to sit back and watch as you slowly slip through my fingers because you go mental at me if I try and help you. It's fucking torture and I hate it. I've tried to imagine what it would be like in your situation but I can't, I know that it's impossibly difficult for you, but what about me... what do I do when you're gone, where do I go from there. All I ask is for you to just try it, even if it's just for a little while"
Shou was beaten down, Tora had a point. He couldn't really argue back as he didn't have any form of comeback or even a reason not to. Looking into the elders eyes, he saw something close to desperation, it really did mean alot to him didn't it?
With a sigh he gently wrapped his fingers around Tora's wrist, thumb slowly stroking the skin.
"If it'll make you happy then... then I'll go with you to the hospital and we'll talk about it. I don't want to just say yes without knowing anything" He paused, catching the small hopeful look that flashed upon Tora's face "I can't promise anything but it's a big possibility"
That was all that Tora needed to hear. His arms wound around the shorter body and pulled him close.
"Thank you Shou" He said quietly.
They stayed like that for a short while, embracing against the wall, tender feelings out in the open like a bubble surrounding them. Threatening to burst if anyone even so much as knocked on the door.
As arranged, After arriving home from work Tora and Shou went to the hospital and talked things over with the Doctor. Shou was nervous, he felt uneasy about the whole thing but seeing Tora looking so positive mad him a little bit better.
Their hands intertwined under the table as the doctor went over everything- when to take them, how many to take, possible side effects and all of the stuff they needed to know. Then the doctor made Shou sign some paperwork before finally giving him a paper bag filled with the medication and allowing them to leave.
"You're so brave Baby" Tora smiled, throwing an arm around his shoulders "I'm going to take you out some where nice for your courage"
Shou snorted "Alright then, just as long as there's pancakes and or waffles then I'll be happy". The spring evening air was fresh on their skin, a small breeze blowing through the city, reminding them both of the little breezes on their beach in Hawaii.
Their thoughts were broken by the sound of Shou's ringtone, He quickly pulled it out of his jeans and held it up to his ear.
"Hello?"
"Hey Shou" A familiar voice said down the ear piece.
"Oh hi Nao, what's up?" He questioned with a smile.
"Can you meet me at the hospital?"
The brunette let out a small laugh "Me and Tora are already there"
"Eh? You already know?" Nao asked causing Shou's smile to drop into a confused frown.
"What are you talking about?"
"It's Hiroto .... He was hit by a car..."
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Authors Notes- I was hoping to update this sooner but I had far too much uni homework. I really got stuck in a few places with this one, but at the same time, I quite enjoyed writing this chapter.
So Shou and Tora are back from Hawaii, jet lagged and already making asses of themselves. Shou's ow on medication, will it help at all?
Poor Pon, his feeling had rushed back to kick him in the heart and now, now he's been hit by a car, poor poor kid.
Comments are welcomed with open arms and chocolate.
Author: shou_ni
Pairing: ToraxShou, some NaoxHiroto
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, Angst, Fluff, Smut-ish
Disclaimer: I dont own anyone, just the story.
Summary: When a beautiful guy enters Tora's life, he's smitten. Unfortunately Shou has a secret and he doesn't want to share it
The blazing sunshine melted all of the remaining puddles of rain away by the following morning. Tora and Shou had ventured an hour from their accommodation to visit a handful of museums and art galleries. Wanting to experience some culture before hopping onto a bus to the next town for an hour at the shops. A friendly shop girl in a trendy clothes store had informed them about a famous Hawaiian rock band playing later that night, so the two decided to see what it was all about.
Shou had only been to a couple of lives when he was in school, he and Hiroto would fantasize about making their own band and performing to millions on a huge stage. But becoming ill had put a stop to those ideas and he'd lost the desire to go to shows.
This time it was different, in the middle of a pulsing crowd holding onto Tora's hand, the beat coursing through him - it all made him feel so alive.
He couldn't really understand what the vocalist was singing, but did it matter? Why would it, music didn't need to have every word understood. The only thing that was important was that it felt right when you listened to it.
The rhythm and melody danced through his ears and into his mind, creating their own stories, just for him.
Tora's body pressed against him, jumping in time with him as the beat kicked into full power, feeling the energy pumping through him.
He was practically dancing from left over excitement as they sat at the back of the bus after the show. Still buzzing. Tora's arm was wrapped around him bringing them closer. Exchanging secret kisses like forbidden lovers. Lights of the passing towns reflecting on the glass windows, immersing them in an almost dream like world. A million miles from home.
The next days were spent going out to dinner, sun bathing, sight seeing and generally soaking up as much Hawaiian culture as they could. Stress free and completely peaceful. Exactly how Tora imagined it would be and that made him so happy. Their fingers intertwined with nearly every step they took, lacing romance into each moment.
The last night came all to quickly. They didn't feel like sharing it with anyone, Choosing to stay at their little haven with drinks, music and fireworks. Tora had found a shop that sold the kind that you lit once and left it to do it's thing.
Tora sat in the sand- swigging from his drink, watching intently as Shou's body moved sensually yet innocently to the music, carefree and happy. The smoke flare that they'd found in the huts bedside table in hand, engulfing him partially in tendrils of red smoke, illuminated by the bright fireworks behind him.
The ebony haired male jumped to his feet, joining his lover for a passion filled kiss. Surrounded by the sound of music, the loud bangs of the fireworks and smoke. It really did feel like they were the only two people in the entire world. No one else mattered to them at that moment in time, it was just the two of them, caught in the moment and embracing each other.
It was heaven.
"I don't want to leave tomorrow" Shou whispered into his ear, fingers brushing over his cheeks.
"I know baby" Tora sighed, kissing the corner of his mouth "Let's stay here forever and forget about everything else"
The space between their lips vanished once again. Sitting in the sand to enjoy the rest of the fireworks, a beautiful end to a wonderful evening.
Shou bolted upright with a gasp. It was almost sunrise and the two of them were in bed. Tora was fast asleep, wrapped up in the bed covers looking peaceful.
Shou on the other hand, clutched at his chest as a sharp pain jolted through him.
Please -he though- please not now.
The last thing he wanted to do was to wake up his sleeping lover, so as silently as he could manage, he clambered out of bed and out of the door. Practically falling against the tree as he stumbled. Suppressing his cries of pain.
He really didn't need this, they were catching the plane home in a few hours so he needed to be well.
Kneeling down, he began taking deep clam breaths. Focusing on getting oxygen into his lungs, eventually the pain dulled down to a ache that was just about bearable.
Tora roused from the delightful arms of slumber to find the bed cold and empty.
Rubbing his tired eyes he rolled out of bed. "Shou?" He wasn't inside in any case.
"Shou.." His eyes scanned the beach frantically, searching the coast line for any sign of his brunette lover. Where on earth had he disappeared to?
To his left he saw a pair of bare feet poking out from behind a tree, making him run over in panic.
"Shou, baby.." He cried, dropping down next to him. The commotion caused Shou's eyes to crack open hissing as the bright sunlight violated his pupils.
"What's going on?" He groaned, shielding his eyes with his forearm.
"Are you okay?"
It suddenly hit Shou, he'd gone outside to get some air, and sat down to calm down for a few moments. So he mustn't have made it back inside.
"Oh.. yeah. I just ... wanted to watch the sunrise" A quickly thought up lie "I guess I fell asleep"
Tora pulled him close in a relieved hug.
They were quiet as they boarded the plane, sad to say goodbye to Hawaii. It'd been such a magical week filled with surprises, amazing new experiences and love, so much love. It felt like it had passed by in a flash.
They sat in their respective seats, fortunately Tora didn't freak out like he had on the journey there. Slumped against his lover with his fuzzy tiger plushie in his arms.
He was kind of annoyed that he had slept so well the night before, as he felt wide awake and not exactly looking forward to their 7 hour flight. With a sigh he snuggled up closer to Shou and squeezed the cuddly toy to settle his nerves.
Hiroto rolled onto his side, brushing stray bangs from his eyes. Nao curled up next to him with Mogu between them. 9am on the Saturday morning and they both had the day off, which the blonde was more than thankful for. He hadn't been able to spend any quality time with Nao as they had been very busy for the past few weeks, so just being able to laze in bed next to him was heavenly.
"What do you fancy doing today?" Nao murmured, still half asleep, gently stroking his fiance's hip bone.
"Nothing, I just want to stay here all day" He shifted closer to him and draped his arms over his sides, almost squishing Mogu in the process. The fuzz ball got the hint and scurried out from between them, making a beeline for the living room - At least he'd get to have a uninterrupted nap there.
"Nothing at all? Are you sure, we have the whole day to burn" Nao laughed, cracking an eye open. Hiroto smirked suggestively.
"Well maybe we can do something full of burning passion later"
"How can I say no to that" a small yet sensual kiss was exchanged "Did you want to go and see Shou today?"
"Yeah, what time does their flight get in?"
"Well Tora said their flight leaves at 12pm Hawaiian time, so that's 7am here" Nao pondered "So if it takes 7 hours, they'll arrive here at 2pm"
The younger nodded and snuggled impossibly closer.
"We'll go and see them 5 for an hour, give them a hour or so to settle in. Until then let's just stay here"
Two tired bodies crossed the threshold of their apartment. Jet lag slowly catching up with them.
"Urgh, we've lost almost an entire day. 19 fucking hours" Shou groaned as he flopped down on the couch "Now I know what time travel feels like"
Tora joined him with an exasperated sigh. They had left Hawaii only 7 hours before but with the 19 hour time difference, it felt so much longer. Shou's phone beeped signaling yet another message, causing him to reluctantly pull it out from his bag.
"How about you and I take a nice hot bath, put some pajamas on, order takeout and snuggle in bed with a Disney movie?" Tora suggested, throwing an arm over the youngers waist.
"I would love that more than anything right now.. unfortunately Hiroto just text me to tell us that he and Nao are coming over in about 2 hours" He sighed earning a loud groan from Tora as he hid his face in the crook of the youngers neck.
"As much as I want to see them, I don't want to see them today" He whined "I just want you all to myself"
Shou gave his knee an affectionate squeeze "Don't worry, we can still do all of that stuff, just after they leave, I'll pretend to be really really sleepy so that they don't stay forever"
Nodding in agreement Tora reluctantly got to his feet so that they could start tidying.
Nao and Hiroto arrived at 5:02pm precisely, greeting their best friends with excited smiles - eager to hear stories of their recent endeavors.
"So, tell us everything" Hiroto prodded as he lowered himself none too gently onto the couch. "What did you guys get up to?"
"Oh we did so much it was amazing, Hawaii itself is just breathtaking" Shou said softly, a smile tugging at the corners of his mouth "The volcano we climbed was super beautiful"
"You climbed a volcano?" Nao gasped in awe.
"Yeah, Tora, go fetch the video camera, we might as well show you whilst you're here"
Without protest, Tora jogged into their bedroom to bring the device before hooking it up to their TV.
Videos from their tropical adventure played on the big screen, starting with a particularly unflattering up-nose shot of Tora, who was clearly unaware that it was recording.
It was only after about fifteen minutes of beautiful scenery and culture did an unexpected scene flash up.
Well, it wasn't the scene that was what shocked them per say, you couldn't see much anyway, simply what they assumed was on the floor next to the bed side table as the video opened with a clatter - most likely from falling from said piece of furniture.
The shocking part was the carnal moan that ripped through the TV's speakers, followed by the steady creak of a wooden bed and short gasps and moans.
It didn't take long for it to dawn on the four, causing four very different reactions. Nao's uncontrollable laughter, Hiroto's hands shot up to cover his ears and Shou's cheeks flushed dark hues of red, whilst Tora scrambled to his feet in an attempt to shut off the camera quickly. Unfortunately in his embarrassment his fingers struggled to function correctly, pressing nearly every button except the stop button.
In the end he opted with pulling out the linkup cable, shutting it off immediately.
The sound of sensual activity seemed to linger, echoing through the apartment.
Eventually Nao's giggles died down, leaving the feeling of embarrassment to burn through the cheeks of the other couple.
"Well" Hiroto announced, getting to his feet "I think it's time we went home, You two must be so jet lagged. C'mon Nao" His foot prodded his lover as he grabbed his keys.
"Alright" The elder huffed "See you two love birds soon" He smirked.
As soon as the door closed Shou's head dropped into his hands with a cry.
"I've never been so mortified, how the fuck did we not know THAT was on there?"
"I have no idea, I don't even remember having to stop it from recording." Tora sighed, flopping down on the couch next to him.
Shou's head rested on his shoulder "Do I really sound that weird when we're having sex?"
"You don't sound weird, you sound fucking hot" Tora laughed, giving his hair a loving stroke. "Anyway, don't we have a date with some take out food and Disney movies?"
"Oh hell yeah"
Stepping into their apartment, Hiroto headed straight to bed, spinning a lie about having a headache. He wasn't in the mood to talk anymore.
That video, hearing Shou's erotic moans.. it had effected him so much. Just when he thought all of his feeling were dead and buried, and now suddenly all of his feelings rushing back to the surface of his mind. For years he had fantasized about being the one to make Shou cry out with bliss like that, always wanting to hear the elder scream his name.
He shoved a pillow over his head, trying to block out his nasty thoughts. He had moved on, hadn't he?
Nao was his world, the man he wanted to spend the rest of his life with, so why did he suddenly feel the old burning desire to pin the tall brunette down and fuck him harshly into the mattress? He was sure that it wasn't romantic feelings he was experiencing, more like sexual attraction, simply the desire to have sex.. nothing more.
Mogu, who had sensed his masters distress, hopped onto the bed next to him and gave his hand an affectionate lick. He sighed and pulled the dog into his arms, gently stroking his soft fur.
"What are we going to do Mogu?" He hushed, snuggling up under the covers.
This was certainly the last thing he needed.
It had been a long few days for Shou. Since getting back from Hawaii he went back to work and spent most of his time rushing around getting things back in order. He'd been up to his neck in various bits of paperwork and jobs. That morning a man came in and bought a huge stack of Cd's, vinyls and even one of the guitars, resulting in a ridiculous amount of cash being put into the till and a large smile on his face. He wondered what kind of person spends that amount of money in a run down old music store, not that he minded, it meant that he was going to get more money on his paycheck so it was all good in his eyes.
He practically skipped out of the elevator, it'd been such a good day despite being so long. Fishing out his keys he opened the front door, kicking off his shoes in the genkan.
"Tora I'm home, and I have cake" He chimed, walking through to the living room.
Tora wasn't there though. Putting the cake box down onto the coffee table he made his way to the kitchen, stopping in the door way as he heard a quiet voice.
"So do you think you can fit him in for tomorrow evening?"
Shou peeped around the door frame and saw his tall lover cradling his phone against his ear, biting his lip.
"Perfect, I'll have a talk with him when he gets home... yep, okay that's fine. Thank you Doctor. See you tomorrow" he said before putting the phone down.
"What was that about?" Shou said stepping into view, causing Tora to jump.
"Babe, I didn't hear you come in"
"No, of course you didn't" He sneered "So.. the phone call, anything interesting?"
Tora looked hesitant, body weight shifting from one foot to the other.
"It was your doctor, I called him because I read about something on the internet the other night" He felt his cheeks heat up, not helped by the way Shou was frowning at him.
"It's a kind of medication that is supposed to help with heart illnesses such as yours. So I wanted to speak with your Doctor about it too see if it was an option. He thinks that it's defiantly worth a try "
"And you didn't think to consult me about it first?" Shou snapped, crossing his arms across his chest. "What if I don't want to?"
"Well you'd be stupid not to bother looking into it"
The younger rolled his eyes, turning on his heel to walk away "I guess I'm stupid then"
Tora wasn't letting him get away that easily, he grabbed Shou's shoulder, spinning him around and pinning him roughly to the wall. He hated being so forceful with the younger, but he was so stubborn that sometimes it was the only way to get him to listen.
"Why won't you even give it a chance? Why have you given up before so willingly, you seem so full of life but then whenever I bring up anything to do with your condition you get all cold and distant" The younger was still beneath his fingers, not so much as a flinch "I haven't seen you make an active attempt to get better, it's like you don't even care about dying. Do you even give a shit at all?"
"Of course I do..."
"Really? because it sure as hell doesn't seem like it. How do you think that makes me feel Shou?" His voice was getting unintentionally louder, tone more harsh, "I have to sit back and watch as you slowly slip through my fingers because you go mental at me if I try and help you. It's fucking torture and I hate it. I've tried to imagine what it would be like in your situation but I can't, I know that it's impossibly difficult for you, but what about me... what do I do when you're gone, where do I go from there. All I ask is for you to just try it, even if it's just for a little while"
Shou was beaten down, Tora had a point. He couldn't really argue back as he didn't have any form of comeback or even a reason not to. Looking into the elders eyes, he saw something close to desperation, it really did mean alot to him didn't it?
With a sigh he gently wrapped his fingers around Tora's wrist, thumb slowly stroking the skin.
"If it'll make you happy then... then I'll go with you to the hospital and we'll talk about it. I don't want to just say yes without knowing anything" He paused, catching the small hopeful look that flashed upon Tora's face "I can't promise anything but it's a big possibility"
That was all that Tora needed to hear. His arms wound around the shorter body and pulled him close.
"Thank you Shou" He said quietly.
They stayed like that for a short while, embracing against the wall, tender feelings out in the open like a bubble surrounding them. Threatening to burst if anyone even so much as knocked on the door.
As arranged, After arriving home from work Tora and Shou went to the hospital and talked things over with the Doctor. Shou was nervous, he felt uneasy about the whole thing but seeing Tora looking so positive mad him a little bit better.
Their hands intertwined under the table as the doctor went over everything- when to take them, how many to take, possible side effects and all of the stuff they needed to know. Then the doctor made Shou sign some paperwork before finally giving him a paper bag filled with the medication and allowing them to leave.
"You're so brave Baby" Tora smiled, throwing an arm around his shoulders "I'm going to take you out some where nice for your courage"
Shou snorted "Alright then, just as long as there's pancakes and or waffles then I'll be happy". The spring evening air was fresh on their skin, a small breeze blowing through the city, reminding them both of the little breezes on their beach in Hawaii.
Their thoughts were broken by the sound of Shou's ringtone, He quickly pulled it out of his jeans and held it up to his ear.
"Hello?"
"Hey Shou" A familiar voice said down the ear piece.
"Oh hi Nao, what's up?" He questioned with a smile.
"Can you meet me at the hospital?"
The brunette let out a small laugh "Me and Tora are already there"
"Eh? You already know?" Nao asked causing Shou's smile to drop into a confused frown.
"What are you talking about?"
"It's Hiroto .... He was hit by a car..."
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Authors Notes- I was hoping to update this sooner but I had far too much uni homework. I really got stuck in a few places with this one, but at the same time, I quite enjoyed writing this chapter.
So Shou and Tora are back from Hawaii, jet lagged and already making asses of themselves. Shou's ow on medication, will it help at all?
Poor Pon, his feeling had rushed back to kick him in the heart and now, now he's been hit by a car, poor poor kid.
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