You're mine.

[shou_ni]

Title: You're mine.
Pairing: Tora x Shou
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Smut, angst, fluff.
Warnings: Mansex, erotic asphyxiation/breath play, reference to mental illness.
Summary: Paranoia can eat away at the strongest of people.

Request for iyka_09



Paranoia would often breathe down Tora's neck, creeping under his skin and festering away- eating away at him until he couldn't take it anymore. He'd lost count of how many nights he'd lay awake allowing his thoughts to consume him.

The object of his paranoia?

His lovely boyfriend, Shou.

He was beautiful and kind, with the voice of an angel and a heart of gold. Tora had no idea how he'd managed to snag a guy like that. He'd question it everyday until he was blue in the face and still not find the answer.

They had pined over each other for a number of years. Throwing puppy eyed stares across the room when they thought the other wasn't looking. Blushing if hands even lightly brushed and flustered stuttering when they spoke to one another. It slowly began to make band activities difficult and the other members were starting to feel the strain. It had gone on for more than long enough, Saga couldn't take it anymore.

In the end, he grabbed them by their ears and shoved them none to gently into the practice room and locked the door. Sliding some condoms and sachets of lube under the door just for good measure and left them there for the rest of the day.

Needless to say they both came out with a smile on their lips, refusing to speak about what happened, only to announce their new relationship a few days later.

Tora thanked his lucky stars every day, Shou was just divine. He'd make Tora smile just by looking at him. The lingering taste of him on Tora's tongue sweeter than any nectar. Indulging all of his desires every time he buried himself between the elders legs.

But that was the problem...

He simply couldn't get his head around the thought of actually being with the man of his dreams. Shou was so perfect, and Tora wasn't.

He'd stare blankly at his reflection with hate. The dark circles under his eyes becoming more and more prominent with each passing day. He wasn't elegant like Shou, he didn't have anywhere near the amount of charisma and he didn't have a magical personality either.

He didn't ever feel worthy of Shou, he was clearly just settling or for second or even third best.

Of course he couldn't be further from the truth.

Shou was infatuated with him. So completely in love that every time the tiger was near him, his heart would beat so hard that he could practically hear it. In his eyes, Tora was the most perfect human to walk the earth. Stunning and talented, ridiculously cool in every way. Shou had never been so fucking in love with anyone in his life.

The moment that Tora had confessed his feeling, Shou thought that he was literally going to explode. Brain spazming so relentlessly that all that fell from his lips was a string of incoherent noises. Not even a hardcore fangirl could possibly understand his happiness at that moment.

Living with Tora, waking up next to him every morning and kissing him goodnight was just the most amazing thing he could ever wish for.

So seeing his lover standing infront of his reflection with hate filled eyes made him feel sick.

He knew exactly why the Tiger was paranoid. His self esteem had somewhat diminished over the years, never feeling good enough for anything. He was worried that Shou would fall for someone a million times more attractive than himself and run off with them, leaving his poor shattered heart on the floor.

It didn't matter how many times the other reassured him and told him not to be silly, the paranoia was always there.

Shou came up behind him and wrapped his thin arms around his waist, pressing his naked chest to Tora's equally bare back. Soft kisses caressing his shoulder.

"Baby, you should put your suit on now. We have to leave for the press event soon" He said as his hands massaged the tiger's shoulders.

"You know what Nao will do to us if we're late"

The younger nodded, giving Shou a small smile through the mirror.

It was slightly forced, but Shou accepted it none the less.

The press event was a glamorous affair, held in a luxurious European style hall. Fancy decor and incredibly high ceilings, filled wall to wall with journalists, photographers and musicians and occasionally the odd actor thrown in.

The atmosphere was buzzing, everyone was having a good time. Overall the evening was going well for everyone.

Except Tora that is...

He'd lost Shou. He'd nipped to the bathroom for a moment and when he returned to the main room, his boyfriend was no where to be seen. He weaved through the ocean of people in search of him but he still could not find him.

He wanted to be sick, Shou had run away from him. His worst fear had finally come true and he was going to lose his mind. No. He had to find him, no matter what.

"Are you okay Tora?" Hiroto asked with a worried expression "You look stressed"

The taller merely brushed it off "I'm fine, I just need to find Shou. Have you seen him anywhere?"

"Yeah, some photographers dragged him off with some other band members to take some photos" The blonde shrugged "I think they went to the entrance"

That was it, Tora was off like a shot. Barging past anyone who happened to be in his way. His stomach was churning up a storm, fingers trembling like mad.

He was blinkered, all he could focus on was finding his lover and not getting separated again. Soon enough the entrance was in sight, but no photographers, musicians and no Shou.

Shit.

Where was he? He looked around frantically, spotting a door to his right so he hastily made his way through.

It lead to another room, fairly large with plush furnishings and expensive shit every where. It wasn't as impressive as the other room, but still pretty breathtaking.

Not that he was even slightly bothered about that, his sights were set on the slime ball who was standing with Shou in the far corner of the room.

Tora felt his heart tighten as he looked at his boyfriend, a coy smile on those full lips. Laughing lightly every now and then. The other male eyeing him like a piece of meat, he even had the audacity to lay a hand on him.

It had gone far enough.

Tora stomped over, fist colliding with the mans jaw forcefully, knocking him down to the floor.

"Tora, what the fuck?" Shou cried, quickly crouching to see if the other male was okay.

The tiger growled with clenched fists and rage in his eyes "You keep you filthy fucking paws off of my boyfriend, You bastard" He yelled, successfully gaining the attention of the rest of the rooms inhabitants. He grabbed Shou's wrist and pulled him to his feet "We're leaving!"

Shou was gobsmacked, one second he was having a conversation with an old school friend and the next, his boyfriend had suckerpunched him and was dragging him out of the entrance.

"Tora, let go of me!" He yelped as he was pushed against their car. "What the hell is going on?"

The raven's response was pulling him close and crashing their lips together, kissing him so aggressively that it almost made his legs buckle. Bodies pressed against the car door and hands cupping his jaw.

"I saw what you were doing with that guy" He hissed "How dare he touch you!"

"Tora, he's just an old School friend" Shou cried trying to wriggle free "We were only talking, I promise. Nothing happened. You know I'd never do that to you"

Tora only tightened his grip "How do I know you're not lying?"

"Look at me! You're being paranoid again. I wouldn't lie to you, I love you so fucking much" He yelled, praising Tora's fingers from his jaw. "Do you hear me? I love you, I love you"

It seemed to get through to him, pulling him back to reality. Even if it made his heart beat too fast.

"Please Shou, I wan't to go home." The younger said with a look of anxiety in his eyes.

The blonde knew that look, very well indeed. Tora's paranoia had kicked in and it was taking no prisoners. Only amplified by the alcohol that flowed through his system, it was always more extreme when he drank although that wasn't too often. As agitating as it was, Shou couldn't hold it against him, he knew it wasn't his fault. Heaving a sigh he smiled sheepishly.

"Okay baby, just relax .. it's me you're talking to, calm down". Fingers gently caressed that soft black hair, coaxing a subtle smile upon pierced lips.

They got into the car without another word. Shou chose to drive, as he hadn't drank anything unlike Tora.

The apartment door was slammed closed as two bodies pressed up against it. Eager tongues battled while equally eager hands fumbled with annoying clothing. Shou kissed his way down the younger's neck as Tora ripped off their shirts, scattering buttons everywhere.

Shou would have complained about how expensive the shirts were if he wasn't so darn wrapped up in lust. He needed to feel Tora's skin against his own, needed to be ever closer.

Belt buckles were clumsily undone, pants shimmied down hips and discarded along with the rest of the garments to be delt with later.

They manage to just about make it to the bedroom, practically falling against the wall as desperate lips locked.

Tora dropped to his knees and pinned Shou to the wall by his hips, nibbling the skin between the bones lovingly.

"Shit.. Tora.." Shou moaned when the tigers tongue slowly teased its way up his shaft. So agonizingly slow that the blonde would surely lose his mind.

Tora eventually allowed him to slip past those pierced lips into his hot cavern. Shou desperately tried to find something on the wall to cling onto, feeling his knees begin to buckle.

Tora's mouth was just too hot, welcoming and so fucking delicious.

The way his velvet tongue caressed the underside of his cock while his cheeks hollowed and he bobbed his head.

He shuts his eyes tight just so that he wouldn't lose it completely.

"Tora.. please, I'm gonna come if you carry on like this" He hissed, twisting his hips.

With a smirk, the other gave his cock one last long suck before allowing it to slip from his lips with a vulgar pop.

"Get on the bed, on all fours" Tora breathed in his ear, sending tremors of anticipation down Shou's spine.

He didn't need to be told twice, he was on the mattress in the blink of an eye, resting on his elbows. Tora dipped his hand into the bed side draw to retrieve a bottle of lube before kneeling behind his lover.

"God you look so beautiful like this" He smiled, fingers trailing up and down that elegantly curved spine. His soft creamy skin reacting to his every touch. It was like sparks igniting throughout his entire body when Tora teases his entrance with lube slicked fingers.

"Stop being such a dick Tora" He said impatiently. The slow, torturous ministrations getting him all worked up.

With a final smirk, Tora finally pressed two fingers past the puckered little hole, drawing a hum of appreciation from Shou.

He scissored and thrust his digits within that tight orifice, willing the muscles to relax somewhat. Harder and harder making the blonde chew his lip in an attempt to suppress his moans.

Tora was still agitated, the nights events still crawling under his skin and infecting his mind. That shithead laying his hands on Shou like that, trying to steal him for himself. That bastard, he was lucky to walk away with just a bruised jaw.

Shou belonged to him and no body else. He wouldn't let anyone take him away, he'd protect him no mater what it took.

Growling he retracted his fingers and lubed up his neglected cock, entering Shou without any more prep or warning.

The blonde let out a pained cry, tears pricking his eyes as he fisted the bedsheets. Tora was pretty well endowered in the downstairs department so lack of proper prep made him claw at the fabric beneath him in agony.

The tiger gave him no time to adjust, thrusting into that tight heat roughly. Gripping onto those slender hips possessively.

"You're so divine" He breathed huskily "I wanna keep you all to myself, no body else can have you"

Shou's cries slowly turned into shaky breaths as the jolting pains melted away into pleasure. That burning pleasure that consumed him entirely making his hips thrust back to meet Tora's.

"mmmhhm.. More.. more!!" He begged.

Tora swooped his hands to his shoulders and pulled him up, plastering his chest to Shou's sweat slicked back. Sinking his cock even deeper into his willing body and drawing the most delicious sounding moans from his lover.

The blonde reached behind him, holding onto Tora's things to anchor himself, those sinfully skilled hips driving into him again and again. A relentless dance that was driving him wild.

A hand snaked to Shou's neck, slender fingers tightening around his throat. His lips brushing the shell of his ear and warm breath tickling the nerves.

"You're mine" smirking at the shallow breaths he could feel beneath his digits "I love you Shou"

Shou near screamed as Tora's cock slammed into his prostate with such force that it was almost animalistic. So carnal that Shou's short fingernails dug into his flesh, likely to leave marks in the morning. So hard and deep. So Possessive.

But filled with so much love. Love, adoration and utter devotion.

"To..ra.."

The hold on this throat got tighter as Tora's pace increased. His other hand taking Shou's neglected cock and pumping in time with his rhythm.

Oh god. Shou was seeing stars, nothing but fireworks in his wide brown eyes. The lack of oxygen only proved to heighten the pleasure that puled through every nerve.

He was close, so fucking close. He could feel himself starting to lose consciousness, it was just a matter of which desire would take over first. The desire to come, or the desire to pass out.

Tora reveled in the short haggard breaths falling from Shou's lips, feeling his member throb in his hands and pumped ever harder.

With another thrust he released the blonde's throat perfectly in time as his orgasm hit. The beautiful sharp intake of breath and the oxygen flooding his system as he came, so intense that he couldn't even scream.

The feeling of Shou clenching around him as his air starved lungs forced him to cough was simply bliss, and with two more thrusts he was pulled into ecstasy right along side him. Moaning loudly as he spurted white jets deep inside of his partner.

They collapse bonelessly onto the mattress, panting as they come down from their high.

When Tora eventually pulled out, Shou turned over and buried his face in the crook of Tora's neck.

"We can't go on like this" He said quietly "Paranoia is going to kill us".

Tora softly wrapped his arms around the smaller frame and held him close.

"I know. I'm going to start seeing a therapist about it. I can't keep freaking out whenever you aren't in my peripherals" He sighed "I want you to have freedom"

The blonde planted lazy kisses on his shoulder, lovingly caressing the small of his back with stray fingers.

"Thank you. I really appreciate it"

The raven haired flipped them over so that he was hovering mere centimeters over the tired looking blonde, swooping down to capture those plush lips softly.

"I'm so sorry for hurting you so much earlier. I got a little carried away" He said apologetically. But Shou simply smiled warmly and kissed him.

"Don't worry about it. Just remember that you'll have to tend to my every whim tomorrow for wrecking me like that" He laughed "I expect a nice hot bath, massage, your splendid home cooking and of course lots of kisses to make me feel better"

"Oh, I'm sure I can manage that, my love" Tora grinned "Anything for you"

"I love you Tora, but remember... You're mine!"

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DISCLAIMER: Asphyxiation/ Breath play (aka choking) can be very dangerous and should never be done without due care and attention. If you are going to try it, please do it with a partner you trust and make sure you know your bodies limits. Other than that.. enjoy it.
With that out of the way

Authors Notes- Request for iyka_09. I didn't have any theme to go on for this one, so I hope you like it. And I'm sorry aleksiina_26 I couldn't help myself ;D
Just to clarify, this isn't an abusive relationship in anyway, even if Tora did cause Shou pain during intercourse. They are simply the victims of a mild mental illness, but they seem happy enough right?
I've not really got much to say about this one, just some nice smut for you all, I hope you enjoy.