go to my calendar....and read the january 24th entry......it seems like i havent kept up to that promise.....but im gonna try....cause im sick of this cycle of emotions....

.....some samurai lead a life of solitude.....heh....thats how im gonna do it!!! i just now realize that im on my own.....and i dont mind it that way.....i have my friends and family and what not.....but ill stil be alone.....later on in life....ppl will have their own cares and concerns....ill here alone...to fight my own battles.....but wait.... ( Read more... )

i want to be like him....cold.....decietful, dark, strong, feared, manipulative....ill get these things!!!! ill get power like that!!! and i dont care how!!!...he is awesome!!! his traits excite me, and i want to turn my traits like his!!!there is something about the evil that flows from him....its enticing!!!...ill turn away from the light, theres ( Read more... )

what has my life been the past 18 fucking years.....letdowns, im just a big ass fucking let-down!!! ive been a failure to my parents, in school, with friends.....evry fucking thing!....wtf is the point in living..."there is no such thing in life worth throwing away...".....who said mine is worth anything? it seems like all i am are just empty ( Read more... )

Yoko Kanno - Flying teapot ( Read more... )

my fucking head is breaking open............shit....

happy 4th pppl.....jusrt gt home from a firework party.......awesome.....liquor beyond knowing....im not that bad off tho....my mom would kill me if i came home smasherde...but it was awesome!!! me, david, john, billy, ethan, and nick....just at davids house...oh yea...davids sis, christina, and ethans sis were there too....but it was awesome as ( Read more... )

yes thats right!! the mars candy company has come out with the "baja claifornia" line of flavors!!!(i first thought of mimi after seeing theese!!...luv ya mimi!!)....but thats not what my journal entry is about....im not gonna make fun of mimi-chan ne more!! ^^.....cause shes my lil burrito....and she'll get mad ( Read more... )

.....got this song stuck in my head now.....gr8.....well its catchy...really catchy ( Read more... )