i woke up at 5am feeling like crap.. ended up puking in my bathroom and then sleeping another two hours.. went into work and just felt like shit, sweaty, felt weak. i really really hope i'm not actually sick and it's just something i ate.

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I still feel very bitter about things that are now in the past.. i know by now that I should let something stupid such as that go, but i have a very hard time letting go of the feeling of betrayal. i have a hard time trusting as it is, and it's even worse when people give you several reasons to trust them even less.

just thinking about shit makes my heart want to explode.

and i really wish it would.

Motivation is so terribly hard for me to come by, essentially I don't want to do shit, ever. A habit I've gotten way too used to and it's really hard to break out of that habit.

On top of that I get to basically sit here, metaphorically, watching and waiting for shit to happen all over again.

Awesome.

Things never turn out quite as I hoped they would.

yep, it's pretty sweet finding out how much of a lying ass one of your friend's are, through someone else.

this shit is just silly and ignorant.

well, i guess it goes beyond that, it's some stupid ass bullshit. really though.

People can really piss me off sometimes.

sooooooo tired of this happening.

i don't really feel like going into length about it, but yeah, needless to say the situation is fucking frustrating.

it's gross out today.

i know because i mowed my lawn and i was soaked like i had gone swimming.