Things don't work out so perfectly for me always. Like, all this college shit is happening with everyone and I expected it to be so different then, but now It's not like the rest. My shit is mixed up and I dont know what to do. No where to stay, trying to figure out where to transfer to get the college experience, it's all how I would of never ( Read more... )

Like, why put myself through more misery? Just stop caring so much. I can't just stop entirely but it's a work in progress I suppose. I just don't have to call or anything. Let go of it. Think about yourself and school and just everything this summer that I haven't yet processed. You can do better.

Hii.

My sister and my best guy friend Matt Saloman, both got their tonsisls out and it's been soooo much fun taking care of them. I took Matt to the mac store yesterday and we looked silly mostly. I love him:

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So like, my mom had this BRILLIANT idea to drive me to Colorado for my Outward Bound Trip. However, she made me wake up at 4 am tuesday morning (today) and spend eleven hours in the car. It was exceedingly beautiful going through Nevada, then Utah, and then Colorado. The canyons and mountain ranges we drove through were all different colors and all ( Read more... )

I just dont know how to feel now. He's gone and I don't know what to do. I have no control over anything. I want to dissappear so badly Ive never felt so alone just to not know what's happening, wtf. ;(

I've been in Michigan for the last three weeks. I'll be flying home sunday night. Since I've realized that I'm finally leaving, I've choose to hybernate in my bedroom for the last two days. Avoiding and hiding is what I do best. I can't wait to come home to Los Angeles and see my boyfriend. I've never missed someone so much. Happy summer guys, take

So I woke up this morning/afternoon at like 1:32 pm. I layed around and ate and did things that the ems usually does. You know, whatever I felt like. Anyway, I hung out with the crazy bff/ex kind of and sophers and we went to main street for ice cream. I got my phone to work finally while there and so shits pretty dopeee. Today is my boo's birthday ( Read more... )

I feel like a utter mess and I can't believe what I have gotten myself into. Last night I spent over an hour getting yelled at by my parents. My dad has never been so angry and hurt by me and for that I just would rather not exist. Not overly dramatic, honest. I need to be good for myself but I don't even know what that looks like because ( Read more... )

So, today is the big day but I haven't done much of anything. But I feel good, will post later alligator

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