My head hurts.
My throat hurts too.
Two classes until Thanksgiving.
Hurry.
From the Oberlin Confessional:
Post:
I never wanted to do these things:
Comments:
pull off the wings of a dragonfly and watch it squirm on my windowsill
put my step-sister's toothbrush in the toilet water without her knowledge
like you
use the magnifying glass to burn ants
like her from a distance and never say more than hi
enter a relationship solely to help her
make things awkward
avoid homeless people
forget about helping others. i never willed this to be...yet i cannot bring back the love i felt for human beings.
poop my pants twice in the same year
feel so much hatred in high school
throw my dog in the pool so much that she grew to hate water
get upset about not doing well in school, then not doing anything about it
not kill myself when i had the chance and the motivation and the will to
make excuses not to do Difficult things
not be able to love my mom
steal her virginity, then her heart, then her trust
try to find the time to write the letter instead of making the time to write the letter
teach my little brother bad words
letting her go every time and never understanding that she wanted me to stop her
not lying when it would have been better to lie
drink expired soy milk by accident
try ice cream with soy sauce
not be smart enough to give clearer signs, let her fall for me out of my ignorance
make empty promises and not regret them
miss a whole winter without going into the mountains to see the snow like i said i would
become one of the Cool Kids
apologize for things i'm not sorry for
shoot a pigeon to death with a BB gun, have to pick it up to wrap it in a trash bag and stuff it in the garbage
never discover my hometown until it was too late
lie and say i love you too
have sex without a condom
not learn to surf when the beach was so close
get jealous when i wasn't supposed to care
not smile at you
Two classes until Thanksgiving.
Hurry.
From the Oberlin Confessional:
Post:
I never wanted to do these things:
Comments:
pull off the wings of a dragonfly and watch it squirm on my windowsill
put my step-sister's toothbrush in the toilet water without her knowledge
like you
use the magnifying glass to burn ants
like her from a distance and never say more than hi
enter a relationship solely to help her
make things awkward
avoid homeless people
forget about helping others. i never willed this to be...yet i cannot bring back the love i felt for human beings.
poop my pants twice in the same year
feel so much hatred in high school
throw my dog in the pool so much that she grew to hate water
get upset about not doing well in school, then not doing anything about it
not kill myself when i had the chance and the motivation and the will to
make excuses not to do Difficult things
not be able to love my mom
steal her virginity, then her heart, then her trust
try to find the time to write the letter instead of making the time to write the letter
teach my little brother bad words
letting her go every time and never understanding that she wanted me to stop her
not lying when it would have been better to lie
drink expired soy milk by accident
try ice cream with soy sauce
not be smart enough to give clearer signs, let her fall for me out of my ignorance
make empty promises and not regret them
miss a whole winter without going into the mountains to see the snow like i said i would
become one of the Cool Kids
apologize for things i'm not sorry for
shoot a pigeon to death with a BB gun, have to pick it up to wrap it in a trash bag and stuff it in the garbage
never discover my hometown until it was too late
lie and say i love you too
have sex without a condom
not learn to surf when the beach was so close
get jealous when i wasn't supposed to care
not smile at you