people are crazy. someone tried to run me off the road today, assholes. I'm alive though, not much to complain about then. so I'm looking into colleges to go to in the spring. I'm thinking either Montclair or Ramapo. I can't decide. I might just want to get out of this state and go to Deleware. maybe i should go to california

oh yea, I'm in the money now. I just got a raise at work. I have been running around like a mad man. I might be going to Jamaca in December. I think that i need to get that week off before I start planning and booking stuff.

wow its been a while. I've taken on a job that I can't handle. I work 6 days a week working from 9 in the AM to 11 in the PM. Its sucks, but lots of money coming in. So the last time I updated I met a boy named chris, well things got weird between us after i found out he was bi-sexual. now I'm single and loving it (sorta). My and kelly have been ( Read more... )

so his name is chris and he's such a sweetheart. he lives in north jersey though, thats kinda far away. SO i think we might just keep it as friends for now until i feel i can deal with the distance. i'm so happy

How soon is too soon? I met this really awesome kid at the movies the other day and we've been talking, but i don't know if its too soon. I guess I'll see how it goes and play it by ear

Things have been really good for me lately. I went back to GA to visit a few old friends for the week. I saw my darling Anna, i miss my little southern bell. The hardest things was seeing my grandmom, I don't think she knows what to say to me anymore. Maybe things will be normal between us someday. I'm glad that I actually went out there, I miss ( Read more... )

Another easter Alone at my aunts house. Her and my cousins decided to go to her ex husbands house and I just didn't feel welcome. So my lovely easter dinner was a spam sandwich. I miss my mom and I wish my dad wasn't such a fuck up.

I miss the way things use to be

"Waking up frpm this nightmare, how's your life? What's it like there? Is it all what you want it to be? Does it hurt when you think about me and how broken my heart is?"

*Yellow card*

blah, not much else I can say. Haven't really been sleeping, or eating. I've been using alcohol as an escape for my problem. Chrissy gave me a perkiset, it bugged me the fuck out, i don't think I'll be doing that ever again. now I'm going to go to sleep (yes at 1:30 in the afternoon) oh well

"I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself" Fall out boy

Nothing else to say, thought I was doing good, but seems I was wrong