wow you described how i feel now when i think about my dad. at first i'd cry instantly. instead of thinking about the emotions behind him being gone, i more think about what it actually means. like he isn't here to see things happen or be here for things, it's been almost a year of not seeing him or talking to him, etc. i still feel the saddness and all of that but i don't cry instantly like i did (which is good i guess cause the simplest thought about him usually set me off)
yesterday i found a picture of maceo that said july 2005 on the back of it. i know my dad was here when it was taken (i remember he was in the kitchen cooking while my brother and i took the pictures) but i don't remember the exact date. it's so strange to think now that i never thought almost a year ago that he was going to die within the month. it's not that i've gotten used to the fact he's gone, i guess i just accept it or deal with it better.
good luck with your goal! i think you'll do fine as long as you keep your mind to it! ♥
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yesterday i found a picture of maceo that said july 2005 on the back of it. i know my dad was here when it was taken (i remember he was in the kitchen cooking while my brother and i took the pictures) but i don't remember the exact date. it's so strange to think now that i never thought almost a year ago that he was going to die within the month. it's not that i've gotten used to the fact he's gone, i guess i just accept it or deal with it better.
good luck with your goal! i think you'll do fine as long as you keep your mind to it! ♥
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