Lost fic: Conscience (Sawyer, PG, 1/1)

[shyaway]

Title: Conscience
Author: shyaway
Rating: PG
Character: Sawyer
Spoilers: for "The Brig"
Summary: A response to last week's episode - revenge isn't always all it's cracked up to be.
A/N: First fic in this fandom... I crave your indulgence. :-) Suggestions on where to cross-post it, please?
Cross-posted to: ficinabottle, lostsquee, and lost_fanfic (thanks for the sign-post, jenthegypsy!)

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Comments

[jenthegypsy]

Well met, shyaway, and welcome to the South Pacific. I've been on the Island of Mystery for a good while now and hendercats appeared out of the magic box several months ago. You already have friends here, isn't that nice?

I thought The Brig was the most compelling episode of Lost that I've seen yet, and you've done a good job of looking into Sawyer's head, following the threads which led him to, as you so aptly put it, ...this prison in a black hole in hell. Your last paragraph is enough to break a heart, and to drive the reader to go back and watch the progression again.

Well done, and once again, welcome!

Here are a few places to post Lost fic. Hope to see you again here sometime soon!
http://community.livejournal.com/ficinabottle/
http://community.livejournal.com/lostsquee/
http://community.livejournal.com/lost_fanfic/

Also, if you'd like, please check out Lost fic written by

[shyaway]

*waves* Thank you for the welcome! Very relieved that this meets with your approval. :-) "The Brig" was a great episode, and the Sawyer-Cooper scene was one of the most riveting of the series (hence the fic, obviously). I was thinking, oh, no, don't show him the letter, nothing is going to make a dent in that man's feelings or conscience...

Thanks also for the community links, and I will check out your fic!

[hendercats]

Wheeee! How wonderful to see you here on this island!

Oh, well done! I love how you build this, little snapshots of pain and determination.

Then he would be cool, calm - cold-blooded - just like the reptile who had destroyed his family. Yelling and lashing out wouldn't get the message across.
His careful, cool resolve as he plans and fantasizes just isn't strong enough to hold up to a real confrontation, and this:
man of his nightmares prodding at him with bamboo shoots of ripped open memories, Sawyer won't read the letter, won't take the blame, shut up shut up SHUT UP...
is an incredible glimpse of the torture he's going through. "Bamboo shoots of ripped open memories" is especially arresting.

Am *bouncing* and *squeeing* and applauding and you should have seen my sleepy, caffeine-deprived eyes pop open when the meaning of your comment came clear! I see jenthegypsy has already pointed at the proper communities for this, but perhaps I could also tempt you with lostfichallenge, which has just restarted issuing weekly challenges

[shyaway]

*blush* You are so nice! Thank you very much. That scene was so good, it was so painful seeing Sawyer trying and failing to get Cooper to "know what he done" - the real essence of the revenge quest, wasn't it? - I just had to write something.

lostfichallenge, which has just restarted issuing weekly challenges.

*gets hot and panicky at the thought* I've made several PotC claims, you know! One of those comms, zodiacfanfic, is defunct now, but it was such a good idea that I'm playing with the format for several fandoms. Fanfic + astrology = addictive love.

[hendercats]

*gets hot and panicky at the thought*
Oh no, oh dear! *fans you while handing you a cool drink* I'm sorry! It's very low key (for the challenge that just finished there were five entries). I meant it only as an opportunity for inspiration. *wrings hands and frets*

Have two POTC claims myself and there they sit, languishing in the corner. Am about to give up the 10 hurt/comfort table as I've had zero luck with that one, but am still hoping for inspiration to strike from somewhere so a little more progress can be made on the other.

[shyaway]

Oh, I'm exaggerating, don't worry! :-D I think that the problem with claim tables can be that you sign up having a great idea for one or two or a few of the prompts, but nothing comes for the others, and that somehow gives you a block for all of them. And yet, those tables are so pretty, and if you're anything like as much of a nut for organising things as I am, totally irresistible. :-) Apart from zodiac, I'm keeping at 30_lies - it just screamed Jack at me.

Squee!

[camille_moineau]

Oh, what a happy surprise this is! You did a great job capturing Sawyer's voice, and this:

Face to face with Sawyer, in this prison in a black hole in hell, Sawyer-Cooper-Seward-man of his nightmares prodding at him with bamboo shoots of ripped open memories

was a nice tie-in with season one's torture scene.

(Sorry, I don't have any Sawyer icons in my journal right now, so will Desmond be okay?;-))

Re: Squee!

[shyaway]

Thank you! Yay, I'm so pleased you liked it. :-)

Desmond's always okay. *g*

[hereswith]

Here I am. Sorry it took me so long!

Oh, poor Sawyer! This is very effective, conveying his inner torment and terrible determination, all of which lead him down that dark path. I was hoping he wouldn't do it, though I suppose it was inevitable, with the situation Locke put him in, and the way Locke's dad behaved. And you describe the point of no return so well here: Face to face with Sawyer, in this prison in a black hole in hell, Sawyer-Cooper-Seward-man of his nightmares prodding at him with bamboo shoots of ripped open memories, Sawyer won't read the letter, won't take the blame, shut up shut up SHUT UP...

[shyaway]

Thank you very much! *hug*

[jenthegypsy]

Look here what a nice welcome you got to the fandom - your very own nomination for the lost_fic_awards! Voting is easy, just comment to the post with your choice for the category. Rules are posted under "user info", and you (or anyone else) don't have to me a "member" to vote.

Hoping that we will see more from you during this L O N G hiatus. Keep an eye out for drabble challenges and odd prompts for random weekly challenges. Nothing to sign up for, just enter when you are so moved.

Good luck in the voting!

[shyaway]

Oooh, thank you for letting me know! :-D

Hoping that we will see more from you during this L O N G hiatus.

Loooong indeed - I hope we get the DVDs earlier than rumoured. They're always conducive to creativity. :-)