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[shygirl8301]

So yeah...

My birthday was sort of a downer this year. Thankfully my sister loves me and took me out. And Becky met up with us which was nice cause I haven't seen her in a long time.

Otherwise I felt like shit...not like when you are sick...but emotionally I felt like shit.

I bawled my eyes out on Friday night. I was cranky Saturday. And I was depressed on Sunday.

I feel like I have no friends...maybe it's because I don't put enough effort into things...but I feel like I do. I tried to make plans for my birthday...and every single one of them fell through.

I feel alone right now.

I feel like I'm not allowed to have a life or to have feelings or express them.

I feel trapped in a place I don't want to be right now.

I feel like I'm starting to fall back into what I was.

I feel like I have depression.

I feel all sorts of screwed up.

I feel that everyone has suddenly decided that I'm not worth the time of day to them anymore.

I just want to be able to go out with my friends (if I have any left) and have a good time. I want to be social.

Sigh...