Comments | siastepstudy: I’m new here. Looking for support

lacey_sue in siastepstudy

I’m new here. Looking for support

Feb 22, 2020 17:39

It’s scary to reach out - even online. I was sexually abused by my biological mother from age 0-18 years. I repressed it all until my 30’s when I started having nightmares and little pieces started coming back. It’s disgusting and terrifying and so so disturbing. I am feeling like I need someone to relate to. I’ve never met anyone who was sexually ( Read more... )

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faith48 February 23 2020, 19:59:52 UTC

I am new here too. I am 30 and only recently started to have memories and flashbacks of being abused by my mother and my father.

lacey_sue February 24 2020, 02:17:33 UTC

Did u have any idea that the abuse had happened?
I always knew my mom didn’t have good boundaries but I never thought it went so far.

lacey_sue February 24 2020, 20:25:00 UTC

I thought I was crazy or that I was making this stuff up. It’s comforting to know I’m not the only one, although I wouldn’t wish this upon anyone.

anonymous February 26 2020, 09:57:17 UTC

I am glad that you are here. It is scary to confront memories that are so painful. Denial is such a powerful coping mechanism. Know that you are not alone.

llomf February 26 2020, 10:19:20 UTC

I know the feeling of thinking it wasn't "bad enough" to complain about but the truth is that my experiences have profoundly shared the course of my life. Peace and healing to you. The anonymous comment was also mine. I commented before signing in. Sorry.

lacey_sue February 26 2020, 13:41:39 UTC

Thank you so much!! It means a lot to just be heard.

anonymous March 10 2020, 00:03:36 UTC

I will be 31 next month. I have always had nightmares because during the day I have other things that take up my time and thoughts. So a lot of suppressed memories and things I want to forget come out at night. I was sexually abused from the time I was 4 till I was 10. Then I was in and out of foster care for a little. If you allow these nightmares to control your life it will make things harder for you in relationships and in life. I was date raped among other things in my life. My first marriage was bad, it took me almost 10 yrs before I realized that my childhood friend was the man I was to live the rest of my life. I am the happiest I have ever been and he doesn't force me to do anything that I don't want to do. He listens to the events that has happened in my life and does not judge me for them. He tells me every day he doesn't understand how I can still be so compassionate to others, even those that have hurt or wronged me at some point in my life ( ... )