I am still wondering about my stomach. I still am in pain...I wonder if they checked me for all the things I though they did.maybe I still have an infection....
I really hope it's not cancer..I am still scared.

so, i have been having some bad stomach problems. it hurts sooo bad. I have been so tired, felt like vomiting, bloated, I do not feel like eating, but do anyways so it doesnt get worse, I feel soo weak, and not to sound gross, my poop has been weird. I looked up symptoms and found those are symptoms of ulcers and stomach cancer. to say the least, I ( Read more... )

I hate being this poor. I have to get a fucking job. Joe needs to find a fucking job too. I told him if he didn't get zack's, he needed to go back to chili's. as much as he doesn't like it, we need the money sooooooo bad. I just hope I get the one at the college. I need to figure something out. anybody know anywhere that is hiring where I know I ( Read more... )

I really do not like nor trust them anymore. I am so tired of them making me cry and feel bad for something I did not even do. I do not think it's right. I am not to blame for what happened to me. they always make me feel as if I am. I think I need to start cutting people out. I do not want shit started at my kid's birthday. who ever does, I am ( Read more... )

on the 29th we lost the baby. there was no heartbeat. the dr pretty much told us there was no heart that had developed. I had a d and c done on the 30th. I am pretty depressed right now, and feel like my heart is breaking to the point to where I can not fix it. I know time will heal this, I think, but I don't know how long. I do not feel whole. Joe ( Read more... )

so, Joe great uncle died friday. he had a heart attack and was rushed to the hospital. we didn't think he was going to pull through but he did for a couple of hours, long enough to say his good-byes. he had bone cancer. My grandma was put in the hospital on the 16th. she has low sodium, and potassium. they got her potassium stable, but not her ( Read more... )

yet again...
as of now, I am 7 weeks pregnant. My due date is March 31. I hope it will be early. Maybe the 23, or 24. I hope I have a girl because I do not want anymore kids after this. Well, at least for a long time. I am fat already..

damn it.

things have been so iffy lately with everything. I have been so tired. My family is driving me crazy. they are so fucking crazy. they fight like mad animals ( Read more... )

I am tired
I really need sleep
I have not been sleeping good.
I need to start excersing. I feel like I am gainig weight. I want my gym membership JOE!!!

does it seem years to get over it? I should be, but somethig reminded me. it was my own stupid fault. I am worried about one of my friends. I am afraid he wants to commit suicide. he is so depressed. how does one help without being over-baring?