Just....Jess.

[sicilianjessa]

wow. i don't even know where to begin. so i spent all weekend looking forward to jay coming down - i couldn't wait to see him, to hold him. it was what i really needed after being alone these last two weeks and dealing with him moving home. i guess i made a big mistake

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[lookin4he2luv]

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry you are going through this, I really understand a man leaving, mine left with a string attached to my heart still saying "When we see each other (because we are 500+ miles apart due to school but 6 miles apart when both at our parents' homes) we can be physically together." *HUGS JESS

[kiky87]

I've been reading all of your entries and I'm so sorry that this all happened. *hug* I'm up here in Allentown and my boyfriend is in Baltimore. He's got a hectic schedule finding time to be together is rough. I worry that he's not going to wait for me to finish school.

I really don't have much advice. (I'm horrible at this.) But after I lost my dreams to a redlight runner I've had to had to convince myself that everything happens for a reason. It took a long time for me to believe that, but now I know it's true. I was supposed to have a career in the Army. A few hundred miles between me and my boyfriend has mad me emotionally unstable. I can't imagine how it would have been if I was in another country. I know I wouldn't have made it.

So maybe this has a reason behind it. I wouldn't totally give up on the relationship but give Jay his time and space for a little while.

*hug*