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sickboy

Something no one will read

May 23, 2005 11:26

It's commonly stated that high school can be the most difficult time in a persons life. It's that time where no one really knows who they are and everyone is struggling for acceptance and a sense of belonging all while trying desperately to create a sense of self ( Read more... )

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razzberee May 23 2005, 15:50:08 UTC

I'll take a top shelf margarita, thanks. :)

sickboy May 23 2005, 15:55:21 UTC

haha, coming right up

and thanks =)

razzberee May 23 2005, 16:03:43 UTC

Well you made it so long, I had to read... JK. :)

ms_tek May 23 2005, 15:54:52 UTC

That is what Kendra is there for.

sickboy May 23 2005, 15:57:58 UTC

well, I agree. I just think that we all need more than just our significant other. It's hard for us to have any resolution when we both feel like we'd enjoy having some other people to spend time with and talk to and end up both wondering why no one likes us =P

ms_tek May 23 2005, 16:00:21 UTC

Thats because no one does like you, Mr. Poopypants! };p

sickboy May 23 2005, 16:08:42 UTC

hehehe

Ich Bin Mr. Poopypants

I owe you a drink. keefsbriefs May 23 2005, 15:59:18 UTC

nah, just your friendship will be sufficient enough...nicely noted Scott, great exhalation of stuff here...I am currently getting my 'high school' angst and alienating friendships out in a screenplay, and I must say I mirror some of your stuff

Re: I owe you a drink. sickboy May 23 2005, 16:07:55 UTC

Thanks. I feel quite a bit more relieved to get that off my chest. It's been brewing for quite some time. I must say, I'm looking forward to eventually reading this screenplay.

shillolo May 23 2005, 16:00:11 UTC

We talk about moving into a house and having children and how our children's friends will have parents that we'll finally be able to relate to but honestly, I don't think that works.

Nope, it doesn't change really. How you compare and relate to each each other changes but the emotions are all the same just in different context. There are just as many cliques in parenting, if not more.

Maybe it is just me, but I think many, most, if not all people feels this way. We're individuals - whether we choose to admit feeling vulnerable, or powerful depending on the situation - well some of us do and some don't.

I admire that you put it out there, aching brain aside.

Well least that's the way I see it.

sickboy May 23 2005, 16:06:53 UTC

It's funny because Kendra and I talked about that theory and your journal is one of the reasons we were certain that it wouldn't change anything. I've seen you struggle through so much of it that it would be a crime for me to walk into this as blindly as we might have had you not shared your experiences.

I feel like I've created this character on LJ. Rather unintentionally but still... I need to get this stuff off my chest and put the real me out there. I'd rather no one liked me for who I am than anyone liking me for who I am not.

I'm glad to hear that many of us feel vulnerable. I think that getting others perspectives on this sort of thing will help. Unless of course everyone says that I'm nuts and this doesn't happen to anyone else. We may be at your door a lot in the future since you'll be the only one that understands us =P

Oh and happy belated birthday. I wish we could have made it out to the park with you but I hope you had a great time

shillolo May 23 2005, 16:22:50 UTC

:) You did wish me happy birthday, but I'll take another! I just haven't been online much to thank you! It was a great time - an largely with such a mix of personalities it helped me related to all that you just posted. There will be more fires in the park, you'll make it one day.

You'd be welcome at our door, and although I don't think it is case, even the nuts need company.

It's kinda overwhelming that my perspective on my own life has any impact on anyone else, but since the same holds true the other way 'round - it is one of those things that perhaps should have been obvious but wasn't.

sickboy May 23 2005, 16:43:56 UTC

Yeah I figured it couldn't hurt to do it again

I know we'll make it out sooner or later

Thank you =)

macdatty May 23 2005, 16:29:56 UTC

loving and losing is a part of growing and a part of life..

you are very lucky to have kendra.
just cherish the friendships that you do have.

i dont think people just 'click 'with everyone or feel like they can associate with them.
do you feel this way because people are too uptight or too wild?

you have a lot of drinks to buy, my friend.
but im sure the real friends will pass on that.

sickboy May 23 2005, 16:42:00 UTC

Yeah, I certainly agree I am lucky to have Kendra
It's just that the two of us feel so alienated from the rest of the world that it's a little disorienting at times.
That's really the reason I bring up those past friendships is because I mourn the times when there were people around me that truly understood me, and I understood them and we related well to one another. Now it's the two of us feeling like we are constantly struggling against the rest of the world instead of being a part of it

I couldn't put my finger on what exactly it is that keeps us feeling this way either. Some are too wild, some are too conservative... it's just that there doesn't seem to be any place for us. Much of it has to do with the current living situation as well. That building is just full of people with their own agendas pushing them on one another and quite frankly, we don't want some of these people in our lives that keep forcing their way in.