Every once in a while I get to a point when I wonder what the hell I'm doing with my life.

I try to do what makes me happy....but then it always turns out to hurt me more than anything.

I'm trying to be a responsible adult and do what I have to do to survive and make everyone happy and help everyone as much as I can.

And I'm completely

God I can't WAIT to quit my job.

It's official. My life has no other ability than to suck.

I hate my job, not having money, and being sick all the time.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!

It never ends.

you can't hide
behind social graces
so don't try
to be all touchy feely
cuz you lie
in my face of all places
but i've got no
problem with that really

what bugs me
is that you believe what you're saying
what bothers me
is that you don't know how you feel
what scares me
is that while you're telling me stories
you actually
believe that they are real

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Do you ever think that you're not even close to where you thought you'd be when you thought about your future not too long ago?

Yeah. I do. Sometimes I haven't a clue how the hell I ended up in this life; doing the things I do.

Yep, that sounds right.

The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick
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I really think that I just plain suck at being a law secretary. I can completely handle secretarial bullshit in general, but all of this lawer shit is driving me insane ( Read more... )

I feel ok.

No, really. I think I'm fine.

I'm still poor as hell and feel physically kind of crappy, but besides that I think my life has calmed down a bit.

I like it.

Hope it stays that way.

Ya know, for a while now, it takes a lot to surprise me. Why? Well, besides being awfully jaded at a young age, I also started to expect the unexpected from people, especially those that I think I know very well. I don't really know why, I guess it's a defense mechanism ( Read more... )

It's like the end of a hurricane; Val. Day is over and the sun is shinning and the world is right again.

Kind of funny, I guess.

Thanks to Mr. Randy I had a pretty good, if not strange, Valentine's Day. I had a nice time and got pretty drunk on good wine. It was nice.

I'm just glad that today is a nice day.