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so, i've mainly been updating my xanga. but for those of you who dont read it, here's those entries. hah, and yes, i have wayy too much free time right now.
F I R S T S:
-First job: HA
-First funeral: my great grandmothers
-First pet: osmosis and stardinkle were my two dogs
-First piercing/tattoo: i got my first ear piercing when i was realllllly young. probably around 4 or 5
-First credit card: none
-First real kiss: it'd help if my memory didnt suck and i could remember his name
-First love: mathew
-First enemy: akeisha. god she was a bitch. hah
-First favorite musician: blink 182. im so awesome. hahah
L A S T S:
-Last car ride: sethery drove me home
-Last kiss: travisssss. is it sad that i just saw him last night and i missed him like hell already? haha. whateva though.
-Last relationship: um, im in one now. and i really dont want to talk about the one(s) before that
-Last library book checked out: back when i was in middle school
-Last movie watched: Spun
-Last beverage drank: water
-Last food consumed: a piece of bread and balsamic vinegar. hah
-Last time showered: im about to take one when i finish this
-Last CD played: ok well you see, seth played blink 182. so then i had them in my head, but my cd's are broken, so i put in the transplants, since they at least have the drummer
-Last website visited: myspace
N O W:
-Single or Taken: taken
-Crush: your mom
-Birthday: march 6th, mother fuckers. buy me something awesome
-Sign: pisces
-Siblings: 2 sisters
-Hair color: its getting kinda dark now, so i guess light brownish? it'll get blonder this summer. *shrug*
-Eye color: blue
-Shoe size: 7 1/2
-Height: 5'4 1/2. and yes, the "1/2" matters
RIGHT NOW WHAT ARE YOU...:
-Wearing: jeans, shirt, shoes, hoody...yeah
-Thinking about: a lot of stuff. i had an eventful day. kind of
-Listening to: the transplants.
-Wanting: i want to take a shower and then go to bed and not wake up till tomorrow morning
F A V O R I T E S:
-Favorite song: i dont have one. it changes like, every two seconds
-Favorite movie: requiem for a dream, rocky horror picture show, donnie darko, fight club, the war, alice in wonderland, willy wonka and the chocolate factory, the neverending story, SLC punk, memento, the butterfly effect, spun....there's probably a lot that im forgetting though
-Favorite show: i have a hard time watching a show all the way through unless someone is with me, making me watch it
-Favorite word: i dont have a favorite?
-Favorite holiday: any that get me out of school. man, i sound lame. hahhaha. oh well
R A N D O M:
-What are you going to do after this: take a nap
-Who's someone you wish you could sleep with but can't (famous person, etc.): your mom, most definitley
-Do you drink: um, im trying to stay clean from everything
-How many times a week do you drink (if you said yes to the last question): i really only drink at parties. or when im reallllly bored and home alone. hah. shut up
-Do you do drugs: like i said before, im trying to stay clean
-Do you smoke: no
-Do you think you're attractive: nope
-Best Friend(s): ashleigh and alex
-Did you enjoy this survey: not really. i dont even know why i did it
last cigarette: never had one
last bowl: um, ask me if you really want to know
last car ride: about 2 hours ago
last kiss: travis
last good cry: within the last week or so
last movie seen: spun
last book read: im trying to finish House of Leaves right now
last beverage drank: Water
last food consumed: bread and balsamic vinegar
last crush: well, if by crush, you mean you dont tell them you like them, then...about a month ago. or a little less. i dont remember. and it wasnt really a crush. i was just kinda interested in him. haha. whateva
last phone call: um, i called travis and left him a couple stupid messages. haha
last tv show watched: i watched the ashlee simpson show the other day!! hahahah
last time showered: yesterday
last shoes worn: converse
last cd played: transplants
last downloaded: i dont even remember since i cant download music anymore
last annoyance: mannnn, ive been so fucking irritable recently. fuck this question
last soda drank: ginger ale
last thing written: um, i responded to a bunch of myspace messages?
last key used: question mark
last item bought: cookies at lunch today
last word spoken: out
last sleep: i got a little last night
last im: jack
last sexual fantasy: i dunno. i havent been horny in awhile. *shrug*
last time amused: i amused myself today. it was pretty sweet. its the only way i can get through school
last time wanting to die: like, seriously? actually, i dont remember, so nevermind
last time in love: well im not good at remembering specific times, but it was towards the end of last year
last time hugged: jamie gave me a hug earlier
last time scolded: my dad yells at me like, every two seconds
last time resentful: i dont remember
last chair sat in: the one im in now
last lipstick used: the bright red stuff we had to wear for comp. cheerleading
last underwear worn: a pink-ish thong from victoria's secret
last bra worn: a black one from victoria's secret
last shirt worn: my "save the rainforest" shirt. hah
last poster looked at: i dont remember?
last webpage visited: mark's myspace profile's blog, which is where i got most of this shit from
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards- nagem
[ x ] The story behind your user name - hhahahhahah..no, im not telling it. ask if you really wanna know
[ x ] Are you a lesbian - nope
[ x ] Where do you live - grayson
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - im not doing this one just because its stupid. we had to do a poem with shit like this in 5th grade
[ x ] Wallet - a sparkly red felix the cat wallet
[ x ] Hairbrush - i have one?
[ x ] Toothbrush - i have one of those too
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily- 3 ear rings in each ear and a black string thing i wear as a necklace. hah. i feel naked without it
[ x ] Pillow covers - navy blue
[ x ] Blanket - i have three random comforters on my bed and my old pink blanket.
[ x ] Coffee cup - i dont drink coffee
[ x ] Sunglasses - i look stupid in sunglasses, glasses, and hats
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - i have three in there
[ x ] Tattoos - none
[ x ] Piercings - three in each ear right now
[ x ] What you are wearing now - clothes
[ x ] Hair color- light brown i guess. or dirty blonde?
[ x ] Makeup - i wear it?
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - nothing. its annoying, too, but im trying to ration out my gum till i get more
[ x ] In my head - my brain
[ x ] Wishing - i dont wish. or something. hah
[ x ] After this - taking a nap
[ x ] Talking to - some kids online
[ x ] Eating - nothing
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - travis, ben, it'd be nice to see alex, andddd your mom
[ x ] Is next to you - nothing is next to me? my computer?
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month- the end of february. so march can begin. hah
[ x ] The last thing you ate - im bored of answering the same questions now. hah
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - rejection. like, damn
[ x ] Do you like candles - yeah
[ x ] Do you like hot wax - uh, no?
[ x ] Do you like incense - helll fucking yes i do. opium is my favorite scent. someone should get me some more opium ones for my birthday
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - ew
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - i dont know.
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - no
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - no
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - i'd like to say yes, but i may never forgive my mom, so then that'd just be
[ x ] Do you believe in God - no
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - i really dont care. ill be dead.
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - mmm, there's one kid in particular that im thinkin of..if i were a boy, i'd totally kick his ass. actually, if i had any muscles whatsoever, i would, regardless of if im a boy or girl.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - my two dogs
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - it was like, 4 or 5 days.
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - yeah, but im not very good
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - ?
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candy - REESES
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - there's a lot of shit i wish people would realize
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - mmmm...i dont know. i'd have to think about that. i mean, there's a LOT, but..
[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - i dont know
i n f o r m a t i o n
1. name: megan
2. single or taken: taken
3. sex: girlll
4. bday: march 6th
5. sign: pisces
6. siblings: two sisters
7. hair color: ive decided im going to call it dirty blonde
8. eye color: blue
9. shoe size: 7 1/2
10. height: 5'4 1/2
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends?: ashleigh and alex
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes
3. did you send this to your crush?: i didnt send it to anyone, really
4. are you a virgin?: no
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop: thrift stores. i HATE shopping
2. any tattoos or piercings: 3 piercings in each ear right now, im getting my rooks in each ear pierced for my birthday. this was a short section. hah
s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?:
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: ok. i use suave(sp?) apple shampoo, then dove intense moisture shampoo.
3. what are you most scared of?: its probably a tie between rejection and spiders
4. what are you listening to right now?: some guy on the news. my dads watching it
5. who is the last person that called you? ashleigh
6. where do you want to get married?: i dont care
7. how many buddies are online right now?: im not online anymore, but probably around 60, i'd guess. thats the general average
8. what would you change about yourself?: nothing. if i changed something, then one of the people who like me may not like me anymore. so im fine with myself.
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: my sisters when they were babies
2. smoked?: smoked what?
3. bungee jumped?: not yet
4. skinny dipped?: yes
5: ever been in love?: yes
6. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: probably
7. pictured your crush naked?: i dont have a "crush" on anyone
8. actually seen your crush naked?: see number 7.
9. cried when someone died?: no, i always go into denial. like, i can say they're dead, but it's really just words. i havent really admitted to myself emotionally that they're dead..:-/
11. fallen for your best friend?: i fell for my old best friend
1. clothes: i really hate clothes.
2. music: im definitely into that electronica country-trip hop
3. make-up: i basically just wear eyeliner and mascara
4. annoyance: a have a lot of them
5. smell: opium
6. favorite artist: i cant remember the guys name. ill have to look it up
7. favorite group: i dont have a favorite.
8. desktop picture: a picture travis made me that says "travis e. "heart" megan j." hahhaha...my grammar is better than yours travis!!
9. book you're reading: house of leaves...maybe ill try to finish it tonight. my bed seems soo nice right now
10. cd in player: i dont remember
11. dvd in player: Spun
12. color of toenails: pink
i hate that im still paying for shit i did in the past/am trying not to do anymore. but, it's weird. like, my days kind of collide. if i do sleep, its hardly a dent in the flow. i never really quit moving. i dont remember the last time i was really bored. i mean, i get bored, but only sometimes. like, when im walking through the halls at school. speaking of school, i got kicked out of class today. yeah yeah, i know it was immature of me to have started such an argument anyway, but it was fun :-/. im so quiet in all of my classes now. i remember when i used to get in trouble almost every day for voicing my opinion and shit..mainly in language arts though. and that was just funny. she was sooo christian! not that i have anything against christians, but she just begged to be messed with.
man, i cant wait till this weekend. then again, im not going to have time to do anything. chas and i are going to the mall on saturday!! yayy, im excited to see him again. and if BEN WOULD CALL ME we're supposed to hang out as well. and, im also going to (hopefully) be painting my room this weekend. and of course, ill get to see travis . he is by far the best boyfriend ever.
another interesting note: we had to call the cops on my mom the other night. hah. she's such a crazy bitch. as much as i enjoy the break from little kids running around the house all the time, i miss jamie . poor kid. she doesnt need to be in the middle of all this.
oh and, i definitely turn 17 in 12 days, and i still do not have my learners. heheh. im so awesome.
i need a nap
hmm..so who's been clean of clear for 24 days? that'd definitely be me. im proud of myself. i remember back when (ok fine...at the beginning of the year) i couldnt even imagine staying straight for more than a day.
anyway. so, yesterday, i started removing wallpaper from 5 rooms in my house at around 3:20 in the afternoon. i didnt stop till 10 that night. i got every fucking room finished except for half of one because it was being lame and i got frustrated. afterwards, i had some dinner. i was hoping to hear from travis, but i guess he was too busy/got home too late or something. i miss getting to talk to him all the time and see him more than twice a week. but, ill deal with it. speaking of travis, im almost finished with his valentines day gift. hahahhaha. even though its like, 80 years late. whateva. it looks kinda neat in my opinion.
i saw mr. john moore at kroger today. that was pretty sweet, considering the last time i saw him was when we went to see iwouldset and the heuristic. by the way, TH is a fucking good band. in my opinion, anyway.
a conversation between me and a friend from theatre that you probably wont find as funny as i did. but, it made me laugh, thinking of how stupid i can be sometimes. by the way, a nick name of mine is Jar Jar. i didnt come up with it. and, i was realllllly fucking out of it.
Jaimie: the lights off makes me tired
Me: no dude...it's like, if you try walking...you'll fall and drown. like...look...you can drown in that shit dude *pointing to the concrete*
Jaimie: Jar Jar...it's concrete
Appearance:
x. Height: 5 feet 4 1/2 inchesss
x. Hair colour: dirty blonde
x. Eye colour: blue
x. Piercings: 3 in each ear so far.
x. Tattoos : none
Right Now:
x. What are you wearing?: eh, im wearing some old t shirt and a pair of cheerleading shorts. i've been working all night and underwear are much too restricting to wear while working under such harsh conditions. hahaha...whatever
x. What song are you listening to?: the faint sound of music from my bedroom
x. What taste is in your mouth?: the vegetarian taco i just ate
x. What's the weather like?: rainy
x. How are you?: worn out, tired, yucky feeling, and kinda lonely
x. Get motion sickness?: to a small degree when im in my mother's van for some reason.
x. Have a bad habit?: of course. i have too many
x. Get along with your parents?: with my dad, yes
x. Like to drive?: too bad i CANT
x. Boyfriend?: i have one
x. Girlfriend?: dont have one
x. Sexuality?: straight
x. Children?: noo way. not for awhile
x. Had a hard time getting over someone?: always. when i get involved with someone, i give them my heart. might as well give it your all, you'll eventually get over most heart breaks after awhile
x. Been hurt?: duh
x. Your greatest regret?: i try not to regret things for long
x. Your CD player has in it right now?: 3 cd's. i really dont remember which ones
x. If you were a crayon: i'd be white. cause the white doesnt get used much, so i wouldnt have half my head worn down
X. What makes you happy?: a lot of things. but as for things that arent illegal, travis, most def
x. What's the next CD you're going to get?: i want to get the newest The Streets cd. also, The Dresden Dolls. and, another Prefuse 73 cd. so, ill be getting one of the three next
Have you ever:
x. Been in love?: yes
x. Gone skinny dipping?: yes
x. Had a medical emergency?: well, yes, but i've never been to the hospital for one
x. Had surgery?: no
x. Swam in the dark?: yes. but ive only done it once alone. im afraid to swim in the dark unless im swimming close to someone because of that Are You Afraid of the Dark episode. hahah. im so lame
x. Been to a bonfire?: yes. we have one a lot in our back yard
x. Played strip poker?: no, i dont get how to play it. hah, im stupid. ive played strip rock-paper-scissors though
x. Gotten beaten up?: no
x. Been on stage?: yes
x. Slept outdoors?: yes
x. Pulled an all nighter?: definitely
x. If yes, what is your record?: umm, i was awake for about 4 or 5 days. i dont remember which number it is
x. Made out with a stranger?: yes
x. Been on radio/tv?: yes
x. Gotten lost in the woods?: no
x. Been in an undertow?: no, thankfully.
x. Smoked a Cigar?: yes
x. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yes
About You:
x. Wallet: i've only got $40 in there right now, but i should be getting more soon
x. Coffee: i only like it with french vanilla creamer in it. unless im just really in the mood for it
x. Shoes: i mainly just wear my chucks cause im too lazy to get out another pair
x. Cologne/Perfume: i have Lilu from PacSun but i dont wear it that often
In the last 24 Hours have you:
x. Cried: no
x. Bought something: yes
x. Sang: most definitely
x. Been kissed: no
x. Wanted to tell someone you love them: maybe
x. Talked to an ex: no
x. Talked to someone you have a crush on: no
x. Missed someone: yes
x. Hugged someone: no
Social Life:
x. Boyfriend/girlfriend: im travis's girl
x. Would you rather be with friends or on a date?: i dunno
x. Job: i dont have one
x. Attend Church?: no
x. Like being around people?: i would probably die if i had to be 100% alone for longer than 2 days
Last:
x. Thing you ate: tortilla chip
x. Thing you drank: ginger soda
x. Place you went: school
x. Person you hugged: jamie
x. Person you talked to: my dad
x. Person you IMed: jack
x. Song you heard: some song by nofx. NICE GOING TRAVIS. you got me listening to them again :-/
Currents:
x. Current Mood?: im all right
x. Current Hair?: its messy, ooo
x. Current DVD In Player?: Drugstore Cowboy
x. Current Worry?: im not worried about anything right now
x. Are you artistic?: in some areas
x. Are you athletic?: mann, i used to be. now im just lazy
x. Are you a brat?: i dont know, am i?
x. Do you like spiders?: im fucking terrified of them
x. What are you listening to?: the TV. my dads watching Family Guy
x. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: in my bed asleep, only, change the time to like, 5 in the afternoon so i could get a lot of sleep.
so, the mall was pretty sweet, even though we were only there for like, an hour. i got some new incense. they're fucking sweet. not as good as opium, but close. i also saw ronnie. that was pretty sweet. andd i bought a lighter from the dollar store for 89 cents. notice how 89 cents is most definitely not a dollar? yeah. me too. i paid for it with a $20 bill. the guy at the counter was really pissed because ash had just bought a candy bar that was under a dollar and also paid for it with a 20.
i asked some little kids if they wanted to buy cocaine. this one group of boys, probably in 6th or 7th grade, told me they were going to call the police on me. heh. it made me giggle.
yesterday, chas and i met up at ronald reagan park. aw, thats where me and travis 1st really hung out. anyway. it was pretty fun, gettin to catch up and such. some black lady almost beat chas up. it was hilarious. silly skater kids. after we dropped him off and i came home, my dad left for my neighbors. so DC came over and we watched napoleon dynamite. hah...DC is such a funny kid. we wanted to go get milkshakes, but then i realized it was 11:35 and so he just left instead. lame. i want a milkshake still. hah
anddd i still do not have my monologues finished. maybe ill just skip 1st period again. or, i could go and work myself up so much that i cry. like, really hard. and then my teacher wont make me do my monologues. yesssss. hahah...i did that last year in the same class. only i wasnt faking it, so its not as cool sounding. oh well. hah
man, i really do not want to go back to school. at least spring break is coming up soon. i cant wait till the weather gets realllly hot so i can bust out my bikini and jet ski and hit up the river house. yayyy.
have fun
F I R S T S:
-First job: HA
-First funeral: my great grandmothers
-First pet: osmosis and stardinkle were my two dogs
-First piercing/tattoo: i got my first ear piercing when i was realllllly young. probably around 4 or 5
-First credit card: none
-First real kiss: it'd help if my memory didnt suck and i could remember his name
-First love: mathew
-First enemy: akeisha. god she was a bitch. hah
-First favorite musician: blink 182. im so awesome. hahah
L A S T S:
-Last car ride: sethery drove me home
-Last kiss: travisssss. is it sad that i just saw him last night and i missed him like hell already? haha. whateva though.
-Last relationship: um, im in one now. and i really dont want to talk about the one(s) before that
-Last library book checked out: back when i was in middle school
-Last movie watched: Spun
-Last beverage drank: water
-Last food consumed: a piece of bread and balsamic vinegar. hah
-Last time showered: im about to take one when i finish this
-Last CD played: ok well you see, seth played blink 182. so then i had them in my head, but my cd's are broken, so i put in the transplants, since they at least have the drummer
-Last website visited: myspace
N O W:
-Single or Taken: taken
-Crush: your mom
-Birthday: march 6th, mother fuckers. buy me something awesome
-Sign: pisces
-Siblings: 2 sisters
-Hair color: its getting kinda dark now, so i guess light brownish? it'll get blonder this summer. *shrug*
-Eye color: blue
-Shoe size: 7 1/2
-Height: 5'4 1/2. and yes, the "1/2" matters
RIGHT NOW WHAT ARE YOU...:
-Wearing: jeans, shirt, shoes, hoody...yeah
-Thinking about: a lot of stuff. i had an eventful day. kind of
-Listening to: the transplants.
-Wanting: i want to take a shower and then go to bed and not wake up till tomorrow morning
F A V O R I T E S:
-Favorite song: i dont have one. it changes like, every two seconds
-Favorite movie: requiem for a dream, rocky horror picture show, donnie darko, fight club, the war, alice in wonderland, willy wonka and the chocolate factory, the neverending story, SLC punk, memento, the butterfly effect, spun....there's probably a lot that im forgetting though
-Favorite show: i have a hard time watching a show all the way through unless someone is with me, making me watch it
-Favorite word: i dont have a favorite?
-Favorite holiday: any that get me out of school. man, i sound lame. hahhaha. oh well
R A N D O M:
-What are you going to do after this: take a nap
-Who's someone you wish you could sleep with but can't (famous person, etc.): your mom, most definitley
-Do you drink: um, im trying to stay clean from everything
-How many times a week do you drink (if you said yes to the last question): i really only drink at parties. or when im reallllly bored and home alone. hah. shut up
-Do you do drugs: like i said before, im trying to stay clean
-Do you smoke: no
-Do you think you're attractive: nope
-Best Friend(s): ashleigh and alex
-Did you enjoy this survey: not really. i dont even know why i did it
last cigarette: never had one
last bowl: um, ask me if you really want to know
last car ride: about 2 hours ago
last kiss: travis
last good cry: within the last week or so
last movie seen: spun
last book read: im trying to finish House of Leaves right now
last beverage drank: Water
last food consumed: bread and balsamic vinegar
last crush: well, if by crush, you mean you dont tell them you like them, then...about a month ago. or a little less. i dont remember. and it wasnt really a crush. i was just kinda interested in him. haha. whateva
last phone call: um, i called travis and left him a couple stupid messages. haha
last tv show watched: i watched the ashlee simpson show the other day!! hahahah
last time showered: yesterday
last shoes worn: converse
last cd played: transplants
last downloaded: i dont even remember since i cant download music anymore
last annoyance: mannnn, ive been so fucking irritable recently. fuck this question
last soda drank: ginger ale
last thing written: um, i responded to a bunch of myspace messages?
last key used: question mark
last item bought: cookies at lunch today
last word spoken: out
last sleep: i got a little last night
last im: jack
last sexual fantasy: i dunno. i havent been horny in awhile. *shrug*
last time amused: i amused myself today. it was pretty sweet. its the only way i can get through school
last time wanting to die: like, seriously? actually, i dont remember, so nevermind
last time in love: well im not good at remembering specific times, but it was towards the end of last year
last time hugged: jamie gave me a hug earlier
last time scolded: my dad yells at me like, every two seconds
last time resentful: i dont remember
last chair sat in: the one im in now
last lipstick used: the bright red stuff we had to wear for comp. cheerleading
last underwear worn: a pink-ish thong from victoria's secret
last bra worn: a black one from victoria's secret
last shirt worn: my "save the rainforest" shirt. hah
last poster looked at: i dont remember?
last webpage visited: mark's myspace profile's blog, which is where i got most of this shit from
[ x ] Spell your first name backwards- nagem
[ x ] The story behind your user name - hhahahhahah..no, im not telling it. ask if you really wanna know
[ x ] Are you a lesbian - nope
[ x ] Where do you live - grayson
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - im not doing this one just because its stupid. we had to do a poem with shit like this in 5th grade
[ x ] Wallet - a sparkly red felix the cat wallet
[ x ] Hairbrush - i have one?
[ x ] Toothbrush - i have one of those too
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily- 3 ear rings in each ear and a black string thing i wear as a necklace. hah. i feel naked without it
[ x ] Pillow covers - navy blue
[ x ] Blanket - i have three random comforters on my bed and my old pink blanket.
[ x ] Coffee cup - i dont drink coffee
[ x ] Sunglasses - i look stupid in sunglasses, glasses, and hats
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - i have three in there
[ x ] Tattoos - none
[ x ] Piercings - three in each ear right now
[ x ] What you are wearing now - clothes
[ x ] Hair color- light brown i guess. or dirty blonde?
[ x ] Makeup - i wear it?
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - nothing. its annoying, too, but im trying to ration out my gum till i get more
[ x ] In my head - my brain
[ x ] Wishing - i dont wish. or something. hah
[ x ] After this - taking a nap
[ x ] Talking to - some kids online
[ x ] Eating - nothing
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - travis, ben, it'd be nice to see alex, andddd your mom
[ x ] Is next to you - nothing is next to me? my computer?
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month- the end of february. so march can begin. hah
[ x ] The last thing you ate - im bored of answering the same questions now. hah
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - rejection. like, damn
[ x ] Do you like candles - yeah
[ x ] Do you like hot wax - uh, no?
[ x ] Do you like incense - helll fucking yes i do. opium is my favorite scent. someone should get me some more opium ones for my birthday
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - ew
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - i dont know.
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - no
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - no
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - i'd like to say yes, but i may never forgive my mom, so then that'd just be
[ x ] Do you believe in God - no
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - i really dont care. ill be dead.
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - mmm, there's one kid in particular that im thinkin of..if i were a boy, i'd totally kick his ass. actually, if i had any muscles whatsoever, i would, regardless of if im a boy or girl.
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - my two dogs
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - it was like, 4 or 5 days.
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - yeah, but im not very good
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - ?
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candy - REESES
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - there's a lot of shit i wish people would realize
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - mmmm...i dont know. i'd have to think about that. i mean, there's a LOT, but..
[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - i dont know
i n f o r m a t i o n
1. name: megan
2. single or taken: taken
3. sex: girlll
4. bday: march 6th
5. sign: pisces
6. siblings: two sisters
7. hair color: ive decided im going to call it dirty blonde
8. eye color: blue
9. shoe size: 7 1/2
10. height: 5'4 1/2
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends?: ashleigh and alex
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes
3. did you send this to your crush?: i didnt send it to anyone, really
4. are you a virgin?: no
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop: thrift stores. i HATE shopping
2. any tattoos or piercings: 3 piercings in each ear right now, im getting my rooks in each ear pierced for my birthday. this was a short section. hah
s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?:
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: ok. i use suave(sp?) apple shampoo, then dove intense moisture shampoo.
3. what are you most scared of?: its probably a tie between rejection and spiders
4. what are you listening to right now?: some guy on the news. my dads watching it
5. who is the last person that called you? ashleigh
6. where do you want to get married?: i dont care
7. how many buddies are online right now?: im not online anymore, but probably around 60, i'd guess. thats the general average
8. what would you change about yourself?: nothing. if i changed something, then one of the people who like me may not like me anymore. so im fine with myself.
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: my sisters when they were babies
2. smoked?: smoked what?
3. bungee jumped?: not yet
4. skinny dipped?: yes
5: ever been in love?: yes
6. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: probably
7. pictured your crush naked?: i dont have a "crush" on anyone
8. actually seen your crush naked?: see number 7.
9. cried when someone died?: no, i always go into denial. like, i can say they're dead, but it's really just words. i havent really admitted to myself emotionally that they're dead..:-/
11. fallen for your best friend?: i fell for my old best friend
1. clothes: i really hate clothes.
2. music: im definitely into that electronica country-trip hop
3. make-up: i basically just wear eyeliner and mascara
4. annoyance: a have a lot of them
5. smell: opium
6. favorite artist: i cant remember the guys name. ill have to look it up
7. favorite group: i dont have a favorite.
8. desktop picture: a picture travis made me that says "travis e. "heart" megan j." hahhaha...my grammar is better than yours travis!!
9. book you're reading: house of leaves...maybe ill try to finish it tonight. my bed seems soo nice right now
10. cd in player: i dont remember
11. dvd in player: Spun
12. color of toenails: pink
i hate that im still paying for shit i did in the past/am trying not to do anymore. but, it's weird. like, my days kind of collide. if i do sleep, its hardly a dent in the flow. i never really quit moving. i dont remember the last time i was really bored. i mean, i get bored, but only sometimes. like, when im walking through the halls at school. speaking of school, i got kicked out of class today. yeah yeah, i know it was immature of me to have started such an argument anyway, but it was fun :-/. im so quiet in all of my classes now. i remember when i used to get in trouble almost every day for voicing my opinion and shit..mainly in language arts though. and that was just funny. she was sooo christian! not that i have anything against christians, but she just begged to be messed with.
man, i cant wait till this weekend. then again, im not going to have time to do anything. chas and i are going to the mall on saturday!! yayy, im excited to see him again. and if BEN WOULD CALL ME we're supposed to hang out as well. and, im also going to (hopefully) be painting my room this weekend. and of course, ill get to see travis . he is by far the best boyfriend ever.
another interesting note: we had to call the cops on my mom the other night. hah. she's such a crazy bitch. as much as i enjoy the break from little kids running around the house all the time, i miss jamie . poor kid. she doesnt need to be in the middle of all this.
oh and, i definitely turn 17 in 12 days, and i still do not have my learners. heheh. im so awesome.
i need a nap
hmm..so who's been clean of clear for 24 days? that'd definitely be me. im proud of myself. i remember back when (ok fine...at the beginning of the year) i couldnt even imagine staying straight for more than a day.
anyway. so, yesterday, i started removing wallpaper from 5 rooms in my house at around 3:20 in the afternoon. i didnt stop till 10 that night. i got every fucking room finished except for half of one because it was being lame and i got frustrated. afterwards, i had some dinner. i was hoping to hear from travis, but i guess he was too busy/got home too late or something. i miss getting to talk to him all the time and see him more than twice a week. but, ill deal with it. speaking of travis, im almost finished with his valentines day gift. hahahhaha. even though its like, 80 years late. whateva. it looks kinda neat in my opinion.
i saw mr. john moore at kroger today. that was pretty sweet, considering the last time i saw him was when we went to see iwouldset and the heuristic. by the way, TH is a fucking good band. in my opinion, anyway.
a conversation between me and a friend from theatre that you probably wont find as funny as i did. but, it made me laugh, thinking of how stupid i can be sometimes. by the way, a nick name of mine is Jar Jar. i didnt come up with it. and, i was realllllly fucking out of it.
Jaimie: the lights off makes me tired
Me: no dude...it's like, if you try walking...you'll fall and drown. like...look...you can drown in that shit dude *pointing to the concrete*
Jaimie: Jar Jar...it's concrete
Appearance:
x. Height: 5 feet 4 1/2 inchesss
x. Hair colour: dirty blonde
x. Eye colour: blue
x. Piercings: 3 in each ear so far.
x. Tattoos : none
Right Now:
x. What are you wearing?: eh, im wearing some old t shirt and a pair of cheerleading shorts. i've been working all night and underwear are much too restricting to wear while working under such harsh conditions. hahaha...whatever
x. What song are you listening to?: the faint sound of music from my bedroom
x. What taste is in your mouth?: the vegetarian taco i just ate
x. What's the weather like?: rainy
x. How are you?: worn out, tired, yucky feeling, and kinda lonely
x. Get motion sickness?: to a small degree when im in my mother's van for some reason.
x. Have a bad habit?: of course. i have too many
x. Get along with your parents?: with my dad, yes
x. Like to drive?: too bad i CANT
x. Boyfriend?: i have one
x. Girlfriend?: dont have one
x. Sexuality?: straight
x. Children?: noo way. not for awhile
x. Had a hard time getting over someone?: always. when i get involved with someone, i give them my heart. might as well give it your all, you'll eventually get over most heart breaks after awhile
x. Been hurt?: duh
x. Your greatest regret?: i try not to regret things for long
x. Your CD player has in it right now?: 3 cd's. i really dont remember which ones
x. If you were a crayon: i'd be white. cause the white doesnt get used much, so i wouldnt have half my head worn down
X. What makes you happy?: a lot of things. but as for things that arent illegal, travis, most def
x. What's the next CD you're going to get?: i want to get the newest The Streets cd. also, The Dresden Dolls. and, another Prefuse 73 cd. so, ill be getting one of the three next
Have you ever:
x. Been in love?: yes
x. Gone skinny dipping?: yes
x. Had a medical emergency?: well, yes, but i've never been to the hospital for one
x. Had surgery?: no
x. Swam in the dark?: yes. but ive only done it once alone. im afraid to swim in the dark unless im swimming close to someone because of that Are You Afraid of the Dark episode. hahah. im so lame
x. Been to a bonfire?: yes. we have one a lot in our back yard
x. Played strip poker?: no, i dont get how to play it. hah, im stupid. ive played strip rock-paper-scissors though
x. Gotten beaten up?: no
x. Been on stage?: yes
x. Slept outdoors?: yes
x. Pulled an all nighter?: definitely
x. If yes, what is your record?: umm, i was awake for about 4 or 5 days. i dont remember which number it is
x. Made out with a stranger?: yes
x. Been on radio/tv?: yes
x. Gotten lost in the woods?: no
x. Been in an undertow?: no, thankfully.
x. Smoked a Cigar?: yes
x. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yes
About You:
x. Wallet: i've only got $40 in there right now, but i should be getting more soon
x. Coffee: i only like it with french vanilla creamer in it. unless im just really in the mood for it
x. Shoes: i mainly just wear my chucks cause im too lazy to get out another pair
x. Cologne/Perfume: i have Lilu from PacSun but i dont wear it that often
In the last 24 Hours have you:
x. Cried: no
x. Bought something: yes
x. Sang: most definitely
x. Been kissed: no
x. Wanted to tell someone you love them: maybe
x. Talked to an ex: no
x. Talked to someone you have a crush on: no
x. Missed someone: yes
x. Hugged someone: no
Social Life:
x. Boyfriend/girlfriend: im travis's girl
x. Would you rather be with friends or on a date?: i dunno
x. Job: i dont have one
x. Attend Church?: no
x. Like being around people?: i would probably die if i had to be 100% alone for longer than 2 days
Last:
x. Thing you ate: tortilla chip
x. Thing you drank: ginger soda
x. Place you went: school
x. Person you hugged: jamie
x. Person you talked to: my dad
x. Person you IMed: jack
x. Song you heard: some song by nofx. NICE GOING TRAVIS. you got me listening to them again :-/
Currents:
x. Current Mood?: im all right
x. Current Hair?: its messy, ooo
x. Current DVD In Player?: Drugstore Cowboy
x. Current Worry?: im not worried about anything right now
x. Are you artistic?: in some areas
x. Are you athletic?: mann, i used to be. now im just lazy
x. Are you a brat?: i dont know, am i?
x. Do you like spiders?: im fucking terrified of them
x. What are you listening to?: the TV. my dads watching Family Guy
x. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: in my bed asleep, only, change the time to like, 5 in the afternoon so i could get a lot of sleep.
so, the mall was pretty sweet, even though we were only there for like, an hour. i got some new incense. they're fucking sweet. not as good as opium, but close. i also saw ronnie. that was pretty sweet. andd i bought a lighter from the dollar store for 89 cents. notice how 89 cents is most definitely not a dollar? yeah. me too. i paid for it with a $20 bill. the guy at the counter was really pissed because ash had just bought a candy bar that was under a dollar and also paid for it with a 20.
i asked some little kids if they wanted to buy cocaine. this one group of boys, probably in 6th or 7th grade, told me they were going to call the police on me. heh. it made me giggle.
yesterday, chas and i met up at ronald reagan park. aw, thats where me and travis 1st really hung out. anyway. it was pretty fun, gettin to catch up and such. some black lady almost beat chas up. it was hilarious. silly skater kids. after we dropped him off and i came home, my dad left for my neighbors. so DC came over and we watched napoleon dynamite. hah...DC is such a funny kid. we wanted to go get milkshakes, but then i realized it was 11:35 and so he just left instead. lame. i want a milkshake still. hah
anddd i still do not have my monologues finished. maybe ill just skip 1st period again. or, i could go and work myself up so much that i cry. like, really hard. and then my teacher wont make me do my monologues. yesssss. hahah...i did that last year in the same class. only i wasnt faking it, so its not as cool sounding. oh well. hah
man, i really do not want to go back to school. at least spring break is coming up soon. i cant wait till the weather gets realllly hot so i can bust out my bikini and jet ski and hit up the river house. yayyy.
have fun