so yeah, i've definitely been ridiculously sick since wednesday, but im getting better now and i should be myself again by the weekend. ive missed horrible amounts of school. i should hire someone to do all my work for me. thanks to all the kids stayed online and talked to me for hours and hours since i really couldnt do much else ( Read more... )

so im up and ashleigh is down. but its totally cool cause we're rockstars.

so this break has been physically flat lined, as in, i havent gone out and done anything thats incredibly exciting. emotionally, however..wow. just...wow. i would explain, but to do so would take at least 48 hours ( Read more... )

LOOK GUYS, MEGAN HAS A PENIS!! AND ITS 3 INCHES LONG!!

i dont update anymore. see, this is what censorship does to people. in fact, i dont even write anything anymore, or draw or paint ( Read more... )

80'S PARTY!!!

it's ashleigh's party, and it'd be really kick ass if you could come

DECEMBER 18TH, 2004

8PM TILL WHENEVER

contact me or ashleigh for directions/more information

you MUST!!!!! dress up!

Tonight I met a boy who was completely amazing. He was a lot of fun and verrryy beautiful. I’m happy ( Read more... )

i talked to a friend for awhile last night, i feel better, optimistic even. so no worries about that last post

so all i did was trade one bad habit for another. both are harmful to my health. its stupid.

i realllllllly need someone to call when i cry.

i also need a healthy way to deal with being sad or mad

because eventually these cuts wont fade
or ill press to hard
and then where will i be?

p.s. sometimes i wish that the people i really want to care ( Read more... )

this morning i woke up crying and i dont know why. the night before, i woke up in a light sweat, feeling very very alone and afraid.

what i would like to know is....what am i dreaming about? i havent been able to remember any of my dreams recently ( Read more... )

i need to learn to accept who i am. i need to gain more confidence in myself. i dont think ill ever be able to give complete trust the people i care about and who care about me until i can learn to trust myself. i need to find a reason to my life. i need to find some motivation to make everything worthwhile. sure, michael is having a great ( Read more... )

LAYER ONE ( Read more... )