Falling Apart

[sideways_heart]

I am really lost. I honestly don't think that you are supposed to be this lost at seventeen. the only thing that i am truly sure of right now, is the fact that i am a grade-A, first-class screw-up. it's like my thing; it's what i'm good at. it's my life's calling. i literally have screwed up everything. i screwed up my grades in high school,

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[anonymous]

im sorry im so sorry. i wish i could help

[sideways_heart]

i know, i know... and i know you don't know it, but sometimes when i look at you... it just gets worse. i'm so confused...

[anonymous]

i know it. same here. but sometimes not.

[sideways_heart]

but i don't know... i mean, i don't know what to do abuot this sometimes... it's awesome, but... complicated. sometimes i just... i don't even know what i'm trying to say.... i don't know what i am trying to tell you. i confuse the shit out of myself.

and i got my SAT scores back. they're really good. i got a 1730 out of 2400. (which means i got a 1250 out of 1600)

score for me!

but yea... still confused and a little depressed.

talk to you later

[konfusion87]

OY is the first thing i have to say to this long entry of yours... fist off Dont kill yourself beacuse theres no way to bring you back and it may seem like a good idea as of now BUT its a permanint fix to a temporary situation corny statment as it may seem but its true. Second Lots of people dont know what they want to do when they graduation. my sister doesnt. and if u dont get in to the college of your choice it truly isnt the end of the world. Yeah rejection sucks. So what you could do is go to a commmunity college for 2 years bring up your GPA and when your there u may figure out just what it is that you want. But thats only a suggestion you dont have to do that. And i know what you mean about have freinds help you with school work for some reason it doesnt mix. Because usually they make u more confused then u started out, thats when u say you know what i got it thanks (even if you dont got it ) As for James.... It sucks that you guys are no longer together. Im not saying move on beacuse its not that easy. and its totally ok to

[sideways_heart]

thanks... that really made me feel better... i've just been really depressed the last week or so.. needed to geth all that junk off of my chest. i cry all the time; for no reason. like the other night at dinner, mom asked me if i wanted rice with my damn chicken, and i just started balling my eyes out, and i couldn't explain why... they's put me in an institution-lol...

but seriously... thank you....

....mmmmm..... wise words of Yoda

[konfusion87]

it happens... np on the advice anytime