therapy...

[sidhedancer]

I have a therapy session again tomorrow. I don't feel like it's helping. I know I've only had two sessions so far, but I just don't know. He set me this exercise where every time I think something negative about myself I'm supposed to write it down. Then I'm supposed to decide if that thought was absolutely true, inexplicit, or erroneous. To

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[plasticrapping]

I never fully caught on to what is going on with you, and I mean on a macro level, not so much micro.

Did you leave portland? Where did you go? Why the sudden change? Etc etc...

[sidhedancer]

I came back down to Cali for X-mas, and I haven't left yet. I 'm still deciding whether to stay in cali or move back to portland.

[cmdrbean]

Do you really feel that it's primarily a psychological issue? I mean, just from what I know of you... and from what I know of myself, it sounds likely to be more along the lines of wonky brain chemistry. That doesn't always mean that medication is the answer, but it's something to consider.

[sidhedancer]

I have considered that. I have also wondered if it is to do with my hormones, I had some major problems until I went on birth control. However, things have gotten noticably worse within this last year. I've had some major upheavals, I was hoping that therapy would get things back to a tolerable level.

[cmdrbean]

Ah. Well, I'd bet both factors play a role to some extent or another. Best of luck with your therapy-- I've never been able to tolerate trained counselors, myself.

[dragonmyst29]

Well, the guy has only known you for about two hours. It was quite a few sessions before I felt like my therapist was starting to understand HOW things affect me and some practises to help. Some of them seemed really pointless at the time, I told her the ones that really didn't pertain to me, so some of them we didn't try, some we did anyway, or a variation of them. In the end she didn't tell me anything I hadn't already known either. There was never a huge quantifiable break threw, but she did give me small tools to break away at the garbage that builds up so that when something big does come up I'm not already weighed down. I'm not constantly at the breaking point any more, I have good long stretches of down time, which is such a reliefe. I love you, babe, stick with it and be as open minded to him as you want him to be with you.

We are going to the beach tomorrow, you'll be with us.*kisses*