"Normies" Need To Know We Are As Fragile Eggs

[sikolto]

“Normies” This is MY reference to those people with a mortgage severely in default 1 car, a dog and 2 kids. I would love to see them on a psychiatrist’ couch to see how they are able to handle the real world

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[bexplant]

im sorry you just got out of the hospital. i was in for 14 days myself over christmas and new years (went in on christmas and got out on the 7th). my friends and family are all pretty good with me taking meds (i dont tell everyone, tho, i admit) but ive gotten some really really adverse reactions when i tell people i did ect while inside.

...i dont even want to think what it's going to be like when i have to start telling people im on disability (not right now, but going to try to get on ASAP). maybe i can just keep is a secret and not tell anyone? will take some thinking. will prolly talk with my therapist about it.

big bro! ::hugs:: thinkin of you.
--your lil sis

Don't you love the normies?

[enelet]

Don't let it bother you about getting on disability as for what other people think. You will be to busy trying to keep up with all of the government B.S. They keep you so busy running here and there filling out forms and just trying to make it from one month to the other with the "large" amount they award you with. Nobody has to know except your landlord, doctor(which they will so graciously help you find one!),your utilities will have to know so they can put you on low income assistance programs they offer. The food stamp office is another dog and pony show in itself. By the time you go through all of the government B.S., you really won't give a damn who knows what except what you have to know to keep up with the system. Good luck and don't worry what others will say as they won't be the ones trying to keep up with your bills.

Re: Don't Love The Normies?

[sikolto]

Amen... You're preaching to the choir on this one. The Government has so many papers to have you sign I think they use the masses of waste for sanitary personal hygiene needs. This is of course since they are all full of $h!t.

The waste of paperwork is their way of seeing if you have the capacity of waiting out the time frame. If you can't, then you will just go away and that is JUST what they want you to do.

I Got Your Back Sista!

("ALWAYS") SIK

Psych Docs and Therapists

[sikolto]

Hi Bexie!!!

Well, be careful deary who you share what is happening to you. I do think that sharing this with your PDoc would be good, the therapist, I don't know. I never had good luck with therapists.

The last one that I had could never remember my name or what I was in there for even though she had her notepads with her, which I thought was and downright rude.

To me it is a bad thing when your Therapist cannot remember your name and what your diagnosis was. And that is the God's honest truth.

To me, it was a waste of an hour of my time.

Now, this latest thing that I have been noticing that I talked about, the psychosis, really scares the Be-Jesus out of me and I dont know what to do.

If I tell My Doc, I don't know what will happen, at the last meeting we had they thought about putting my on Thorizine.

I understand that they have made many adjustments to the drug since the '60s but OMG I am still scared to death about the entire though.

SIKOLTO

[killereyes65]

i came to the realization i would be on medication for the rest of my life the last time i stopped my meds. i felt good and i thought to hell with the meds i can control this...wrong!! lost a job, my kids, and soooo much more.

i am now on disability and live in a rent controlled building. mostly seniors and then me and my son. (i just got custody of him in june) its been an experience with him because he is also diagnosed as bipolar. so we take our meds and see our dr's and talk about stuff. its got to be harder on him since he's only 14 and doesnt have many friends, i remember what i was like at 14. tough age.

as far as telling people about my disability i tell then its personal and that i'd rather not discuss it. or i'm on leave of abscense from work indefinitely until my dr releases me back to work. i tried to go back to work before the holidays part time in a department store, but i only lasted 6 weeks before the anxiety took over again. some days i feel like im never going to be whole again, i just go thru the motions.

(((( KILLER EYES ))))

[sikolto]

I am sorry that you have had to go through all of this. I can understand what you are talking about with a youngin' (FAKE TEXAS DRAWL) and I am goad that you have him back with you! That is for some of us an achievement

Re: (((( KILLER EYES ))))

[killereyes65]

thank you for the kind words Sik, My ex doesnt want him anymore, didnt say it in those words but he used the excuse that J is doing detrimental damage to A and therefore we should split the kids. My ex cant deal with J's moodiness and all they did was fight and argue about school and chores. well guess what? all i do is fight about school and chores. same fight different parent. but i get more out of J than the ex does. he talks to me, i get him. he's the odd man out in school. thinks different, sees the world different, interacts differently. i understand all that. this kid is f**kin brilliant but has no drive or desire to succeed. i dont want to see him fall thru the cracks and i am willing and able to fight for him and be his advocate. his father doesnt understand any of this. but i do. his father is too busy bringing perfect babies into the world with his perfect wife. (do i sound bitter?)lol. i survive for my kids, bottom line. im not checking out on them. they are what gets me thru my darkest days. i am alone and feel it a lot

God Bless You Girl

[enelet]

I know and understand exactly what you are going through with the disability dog and pony show. I have been on it for going on 2 yrs and it ain't getting any bigger or better. I get my check at the 1st of the month and usually by the 5th I am down to maybe $10 or less. I am so fortunate to have my fiance' (SIKOLTO) here with me and if it weren't for him I would probably not even be here. I had just gotten out of a very abusive 23 yr marriage about 2 yrs when I met him. I am still waiting to wake up from this dream. I didn't know how to act when I met him as he treats me like what you only read about in books or see on movies! He has truly been my saving grace. I was on disability when I met him and to be honest I don't know if mine was granted for mental of medical because I grew up rodeoing and did do a lot of damage to my body which I am paying for now. I can say I really respect you for what all you have gone through and are still going through. My question is why does life have to be such a struggle? Again, let me say

[bipolartist]

What doesn't shatter these eggs only makes us stronger. Just imagine every day that you're feeling good is like painting your egg with some super-hard paint. With each good day and with each coat of paint we're that much harder to crack!

Thankfully I've never been hospitalized, but there were at least 2 occasions I was out-of-my-mind manic and very well should have been "put away" for at least a short stay. Instead I just know when I'm close to the edge and I'm aware, as you've pointed out, how fragile I really am, and I'm not ashamed of it, but I think it's really shit that I have to lie when I call in "sick" -- "Oh, it's my stomach again... it's my allergies... it's any one of a million things except, 'I can't come in because I'm losing my g.d. mind!'" Oh well, I'm sorry you had to see such horrible things in the hospital, and that you had to be hospitalized at all, but I'm glad you can see the brighter side and appreciate your own diagnosis more having been through it, and lived to tell. I'm glad you're here on LJ!

I like Your Analogy On Eggs...

[sikolto]

Hey, The horrible things were not what I was ever worried about. Hell I have seen more over the years that one day I hope to put it to writing but seriously, people, the "Normies" think that you are lazy and just don't want to come into work.

If you can get up the gumption to do this, Have your Psych write you a note and give it to your Human Resources person. If there isn't one in the store, then go to corporate. You would be really surprised how fast they will get off your ass. Not Literally of course. Maybe a different schedule than what you have been getting... BP's it is suggested should be on a schedule that is rather rigid. You know, come in at 7 and leave by 4, you see what I mean. When I was working for the big orange box, they did some pretty crappy things to make it tough on me but I did and will after the lawsuit is over with, have a bit of change coming back to me from them.

I bid you well,

SIKOLTO

Cracked

[bipolartist]

Well, today I'm a shattered egg. A fragile soft-boiled egg, cracked

Cracked

[bipolartist]

Well, today I'm a shattered egg. A fragile soft-boiled egg, cracked