getting sick of symbolism and metaphors. the fact that life just is... thats the true deeper meaning.

Because I'll see my limit over there ( Read more... )

4 days off this week. gonna hang out with some cool kids. tomorrow is all gonna be errands though. i have to go to hartford to get my last cpk check, go to the bank and diposite my mad money, get my dad a fathers day gift, and my mom a birthday gift. then i might go to torrington depending on if im going out to dinner with my mom and sisters. busy ( Read more... )

finished elemental gerad today. pretty good ending for a decent show. found the song ive been looking for, so thats cool. tomorrows gonna be cool, till i have to go to work. pleh.

"when i can im gonna build a castle that touches the clouds. not to get closer to god, but to get further from y'all."
-atmosphere

im trying to make a story to tell to my nieces to take their minds off of their life. i know, they are only 9 and 6, what can they possibly need to take their mind off? their asshole father thats hell bent on fucking up their minds/lives as much as possible. so im trying to make up a story that i can tell them over a long period of time so that ( Read more... )

starting to give up on some things. could be good, or the worst thing possible. but i know one thing, i cant stay in limbo forever. im trying to train myself to be more decisive. all this wishy washy garbage is wearing down on me. unfortunately no one is going to decide things for me. and i have to let go of this childish way of thinking, and ( Read more... )

im tired, but i dont want to sleep. im trying to charish my free time, but getting caught up in pointless feelings. i just wanna sleep. im practically comatose when im awake ( Read more... )

work all day on my only day off. it sucked monstrous. im still tired but want to accomplish something i enjoy before the night is over. aka, probly just watch some anime. finished busou renkin. good show. not sure what i wanna watch next. pleh.

12 and a half hours again today. im so fucking tired, and i have to get up early again and do stupid crap tomorrow. i have to drive to westfarms to get my check, then to torrington to move my dad into his new apartment, then probly back to granby to hopefully hang out with andrew cuz i havent in for-goddamn-ever, then at night i have to go out for ( Read more... )

worked 12 hours today with the head chef... i feel like i suck at my job now. oh and i had to cut the faces off of crabs today. some were still alive, but joe helped. it still sucked monstrous though. cutting the face off a crab while its trying its hardest not to die. kinda depressing, but also delicious (i think). i have to work 12 hours tomorrow ( Read more... )