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What is forgiveness?
My daughter and I had a discussion yesterday. She loves to be a super hero and as such, of course, has her nemesis or arch enemy. Until recently, her sworn opposition has been some make believe character. But, last night she told me of Jordan, the child in her class who is her nemesis.
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Shambling towards a nap
I am faltering heavily, lately. I can't quite understand why. I know things are bad. But, there is a part of me that feels, perhaps in denial, that it can't truly be THAT bad. But, that is silly. Of course it can be that bad. Who am I kidding, right? The whole of the nation is going down the drain and my life is just another domino.
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Molten streams of pernicious failures I've succumbed to in vagaries being found in actuality
I'm so tired today. I lost my shit earlier. Just because he looked at me and asked what we are gonna do about this mess. I thought I don't know. I've been in this bed since Friday evening. Why are you asking me? There are a million things I'd rather do than think about this mess, death not being left out as an option.
Yes, I would rather die. Than ( Read more... ) -
So, this is what it means...
...to be going through the motions. I would say that I am becoming numb, but numb doesn't hurt this god damned bad. I have worked so hard to be watching it all just drift away ( Read more... ) -
Invasion of the Borg (Does that have a "j" in it?)
I am here. Sitting in my chair. My hips hurting from the children I bore ( Read more... ) -
:'( I MISS U!!! IRL!!!! (Please excuse the typos, it took forever to type.)
A little over a month ago, I determined that I need to really focus my efforts, at all times, to studying for my PRAXIS (that's a teacher's education program entrance exam). Knowing that I wake each morning, reaching for my phone and read facebook posts, stopping in between to dress children, make coffee, eat breakfast, walk my daughter to bus... ( Read more... ) -
Angst - I has it
I can't do it. I just cannot write worth a fudgesicle unless I have some angst going on ( Read more... ) -
A Secret
I lost the best job I ever had becuase I was playing Katy Perry's "Teenage Dream" over and over on YouTube and loving how it describes my feelings towards my husband. I was so into it, I pushed the wrong button. I hated that job but I miss the pay. I don't know what that says about my marriage, though. LOL -
Anymore...
I'm not myself these days. The girl inside me is dying, slowly. The girl on the outside of me hates that. It's really all too much for me to bear. Time has caught up with me. I find no particular joy in anything anymore. I am fat, unhealthy, and unable to be who I once was. When I wake up in the morning, it's hard to feel 16 when I hurt so badly ( Read more... ) -
Strange
My daughter is currently talking on Skype on her iPad. She was on my phone for over an hour till I switched her to the iPad. She's talking to her best friend, Ashley in Georgia. She moved there a while back.
It's so strange listening to them catch up, about allowances, school and friends, what they got for Christmas, all this stuff. now they are ( Read more... )