06/14/05

its beeen soooo looong. yesterday was a month since i've been here. i dont know why but i just hadnt felt like writting. there hasnt been much to write anyway and i guess whatever did go on i felt like keeping it to myself.

everythings been cool so far. finally feel a little more comftorable in SA.

booo i have to get a job now. i might ( Read more... )

05/13/05
grrrr....how something so simple as the air conditioner can turn a place into a mad house is unbelievable. Gilbert wanted the air on and I didnt think it should be on. The sun hasnt even been out so I saw no need for it. we cant afford to be paying light for nothing. gilbert went crazy, cuz he said he was hot. i said something i shouldnt ( Read more... )

05/09/2005

I had a brush with death this weekend. I don't know how I got sick, but I felt like I was dying. I woke up up sick on Friday and i'm barely starting to feel better today. I want it to go away. I hate being sick. It was the first time I had been sick and not at home. No mommy to take care of me I had to take care of myself.

On tuesday I ( Read more... )

04/25/05

I had to look at it again. just to make sure. yeah now i'm sure. it was like torture, but i had to keep on looking. he has a g/f. it kills me, but there nothing i can do. i shouldt even care cuz its been 9 months. 9 months! i should be over it. i am over it. i dont care anymore. and i'll just leave it at that.

due to my fit of distress in ( Read more... )

04/22/05

i've been 20 for 6 days now. i still feel the same. nothings better or worse. i'm just old.

theres always gotta be something. it just wouldnt be right if everything had just been cleaned and it didnt get shit on. hmph. i guess its okay. keeps life intresting.

i had started this entry yesterday. and i started it differently too. something ( Read more... )

04/13/05

hmm i dont really remember what happened in these last 2 weeks. thats crazy i have no idea what i did. i have a bad memory and i'm scared i'm gonna get alzhiemers. well i'll just write about what happened recently.

sonia was here! it wa so awesome that she actually drove all the way over here by herself. i could never do that. i was really ( Read more... )

04/01/05

i'm not really sure what to write about. i feel boring. i need some excitement, drama or something. everythings allright, but thats it, just allright.

hmm i kinda miss my house. i dunno i guess i'm just feeling a little homesick. i also need my girls. i'm tired of just hanging out with a bunch of boys. its kinda wierd when they start ( Read more... )

03/21/05

I'm here at the computer lab cuz i came to school for nothin since my dumb class got out early. I'm very tired and sleepy. Last night we watched 2 movies and then we werent sleepy so gilbert and i talked about how scared we are of the future and we dont know what to do with our lives. We didnt get to sleep like until 5:30 and i had to wake ( Read more... )

03/17/05

I'm back in San Antonio now. Its hard to be going back from one place to another when your not really settled yet. You feel kinda stuck in the middle. I had a good time at home. Spent a good amount of time with my mom and at home. Saw my friends and hung out. When your there you get comftorable and wish you didnt have to leave again, but ( Read more... )

03/13/05

i am writting from the computer at my house. yep i'm back in brownsville. just visiting though. it feels nice to be home. Its a little strange, but i feel in place. I'll be doing a lot of hanging out with the family. My mom practically died cuz i'm leaving wed. but i think shes come to terms with it. I just hate the guilt trips she puts me ( Read more... )