11/19/04

I didnt realize it had already been almost 2 weeks since i've written. Theres just so much stuff going on right now with school and work. There isnt enough time for everything. Its almost over so thats good. After Monday I should be ok. School is over soon and its almost scary how it went by so fast.

We played last night at Jokers. I ( Read more... )

11/09/04

I know its been a few days since i've written.  I just hadnt gotten around to it. I was kinda busy with school. I'm also trying to figure out what's wrong with me.

But lets go back to where i left off last time...

I was able to finish the report i was working on. I stayed up really late and I woke up super early to go finish it at the ( Read more... )

11/01/04

Geeeeeeezzzz I was at school practically all day! From 10-9:30. Thats too much. And I'm still not even done with work. I still have to write a review paper for my psychology class and I dont even have any information. Its due tomorrow at 11 a.m! Its 11 p.m. right now so I have exactly 24 hrs to do it. I'm trying to get articles from the ( Read more... )

10/29/2004

I was writting in my journal last night and i didnt get to finish becasue my parents made me get off the computer.  I didnt get to finish and i didnt save it, and now i dont feel like writting everything again. I'll kinda summarize. So here we go again...

On wed. I went to cobbleheads with some friends. I'll admit my main reason for ( Read more... )

10/24/04

Since I was too busy with my own personal drama I never mentioned about my brother and the baby. I feel selfish for being in my own bubble.

My brother is in Afghanistan. He's been writting us emails and lets us know hes doing okay. Its hard to believe that he's all the way over there. I hope things arnt too dangerous and that he'll be ( Read more... )

10/21/04

I'm feeling allright. I think I've snapped back into reality. Its good to be back.

The other night I talked to him. (Online of course.) I asked him how he felt. This time he was very clear. It wasnt easy to take, but I'm glad that he told me plain and clear. Its what I needed to know in order to finally realize its time to let go. I asked ( Read more... )

I dont know where to begin. It just seems like everything is lost. I cant identify what I feel.  Sad. Angry. Hopeless. Relief. Regret. Alone. I'm just a big mess. And I cant blame it on my period anymore.

The other night when he was here I thought we might have another chance.

Its what I wanted. I thought it was what he wanted.

Did he really mean ( Read more... )

10/17/04

It's just like you to contest
you wear it like a label on your breast
don't you see what this takes of me?
A certain callousness complies
with your charm & in your pride
a hopeful look draped in despise.

I want to give you
whatever you need.
What is it you need?
Is it what I need?
I want to give you
whatever you need.
What is it you need?
Is it within ( Read more... )

10/13/04

Today I have done more school work than I have before this whole semester. I spent like 5 hours on the stupid review for my adult psych class. I still need to study it.  I better get an A on that test! Also I've been practicing my piano music. I have both tests tomorrow. :o/

I've gotten in touch with Monic again. It had been a long long ( Read more... )

10/12/04

I just finished watching Pulp Fiction. That movie is awesome. I bought it yesterday with my blockbuster bucks.

Today I was a mess. I could feel it since yesterday. Its the curse girls have to deal with each month until menopause. I dont get bad cramps or sick. I get crazy mood swings. I've been crying all day and sometimes I dont even know ( Read more... )