Taiwan Number One ( Read more... )

Yesterday my parents were in fine form. Absolutely toddlers, the both of them, especially my dad who was screaming and being a bully and threatening to smash things and kill people. I'd say he has a maturity of a blueberry but that's an insult to blueberries ( Read more... )

I always knew I had a sentimental streak. You'd think someone who has moved as much as I have, who has closed countless chapters of lives, said numerous good-byes, would move on a lot easier than I actually do. Dude, I have to have moments of silence for shoes and bags before I throw them away because they hold so much memories for me. "Remember ( Read more... )

Going to goddamn do my damnedest to. It could be a disaster, but even disasters have been great teaching moments for me ( Read more... )

I’ve been holding onto a visual of being a lighthouse, solid, lighted, calm, amoung the stormy seas. I used to want to be a lighthouse for others, to be a refuge of calm and care for them amoung the storms of their lives, and I ran myself ragged, and suppressed my own frustration, exhaustion, desires, and emotions for them. It didn’t work ( Read more... )

He's still not talking to me so it was a very silent morning. I went to see my parents in the afternoon and Dad was saying if there was a gun lying around he would shoot himself. Heh. But we managed to talk my dad into going out for dinner with a family friend because my mother really wanted that. I didn't go because I can't stand 99% of of ( Read more... )

Relationship is still not good, which is REALLY awkward when one is sharing s tiny apartment with another person who’s just oozing contempt and misery. I’ve learned that I don’t have to let his mood affect me though so I’m working on healing myself and staying as positive as I can. It’s not easy as I feel super responsible for keeping him happy ( ( Read more... )

Ottawa still sucks and I’m still depressed and unhappy ( Read more... )

Yes, I'm going to launch into yet rant about this depressing, ugly, soul-sucking city, BUT there is one good thing that I will get to at the end of this post ( Read more... )

I was thinking of giving up and calling it quits but things have gotten better and I want to give it one really shot where I actually stand my ground and see if being assertive will make a difference ( Read more... )