Comments | silent_muse06: Jesus, I'm really losing it.

silent_muse06

Jesus, I'm really losing it.

Oct 27, 2007 14:20

I feel like an alien inhabiting someone else's body. I feel so distant from everything and I'm not sure how much longer I can take this.

I'm lonely, but I don't feel like talking. I know I should make myself leave my room, but I don't want to. I'm tired of pretending to be cheerful when I see someone I know.

depression, bipolar

Comments 6

spiral_meter October 28 2007, 01:06:19 UTC

HUSH CHILD! what goes down, must come up.

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mdu_ntr October 28 2007, 12:41:48 UTC

Do yuo have any close friends you could just sit quietly with? Maybe you could invite a friend over to sleep the night and just watch movies and eventually talk about something. Just remember all the good times you've had in life and it might seem a little better.

anonymous October 30 2007, 09:41:37 UTC

Sarah,i don't know if your title was actually a cry out to Jesus or was just used as an expletive, but i jus wanna stop here to tell u a truth. Jesus knows your name.
He sees your pain and this was NOT in His plan for you. He has a better plan and a better way. I'm a 25 year old chick from south london,i grew up on a council estate and hav had my fair share of rubbish. religion was NOT for me!! i didnt even grow up in the church,but Jesus got my attention at the age of 22. boy,He flipped my life upside down.

C

silent_muse06 October 30 2007, 14:28:36 UTC

You're not telling me anything I haven't heard before. I grew up in a Christian home and I attend a Christian university. I actually am a Christian, although I don't pretend that I'm a model of Christian behavior. While I call myself a Christian, I do not consider myself to be religious. I have hated most churches I have attended, and I've got no patience with the hypocrisy I see in the modern church. Religion *is* rubbish. God is not. However, while I believe that Jesus could cure me of my mental illness, I doubt that He will. Prayer doesn't help depression. Medications help depression. That's just reality.

anonymous October 30 2007, 18:26:38 UTC

there are couple women in my church that have been released from depression from prayer. ive never had clinical depression but i did have a phobia (and not jus a little fear either) and He set me free from that. suppose it also depends on your faith.

silent_muse06 October 30 2007, 18:44:17 UTC

Obviously those women weren't mentally ill.

I've been told that I'm sick because I don't have enough faith in Jesus. I don't have the words to describe how absolutely infuriated that makes me. I inherited a disorder. That's it. End of story. I'm not sick because I'm bad, or sinful, or a bad Christian. I doubt that you'd tell a cancer patient that she is sick because she doesn't have enough faith, so why tell it to me?