Heartbreak Hotel

May 29, 2008 02:32

Last night I sat in my bathroom for an hour crying into a towel ( Read more... )

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emblemparade May 29 2008, 06:52:42 UTC
Is it absolutely inconceivable that you two can become friends?

Sure, there's some animosity, but doesn't some animosity exist between close friends at times? And don't we love friends in spite of their flaws? So, you're better off not dating, as you say, but there are other configurations of relationships with people.

Explore this opportunity in your heart.

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silentasascream May 29 2008, 07:30:04 UTC
It is something he wants ( ... )

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emblemparade May 29 2008, 07:35:08 UTC
That's an honest response. And, true, feeling vengeful towards someone makes it very hard to be their friend. I guess that's something you have to deal with yourself. And I guess it's pointless for me to point out that revenge is pointless, right?

Sure it won't be the same, but even "BFFs" are ideals that don't really exist. The fact is that you and him have been through a lot of crap together, and survived a lot of it. It gives you a fighting chance to survive this current rearrangement in your relationship.

By the way, your post is public. I just want to make sure you didn't make it public by mistake.

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silentasascream May 29 2008, 07:47:29 UTC
Revenge is pointless. But i still feel like he should hurt as much as i do, especially since it is through his self-serving, thoughtless cowardice that i was wounded. He needs to learn a lesson, so this never happens again.

We'll see about surviving. Only time will tell.

And yeah, i know it's public. Thanks for warning me.

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felldown May 29 2008, 12:36:47 UTC
You don't ever really recover from the deep wounds, babe- you just heal closed, scar over, and spend the rest of your days occasionally twinging with pain or, eventually, as the nerves wither, stiffness, whenever your movements cause you to twist that particular knot of keloid ( ... )

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silentasascream May 29 2008, 22:45:42 UTC
You are certainly an authority upon scars if ever there was one. You also happen to be right as regards the impossible prospects of full recovery. My experience has led me to the same conclusion. Which makes me want to sigh and sigh for all eternity, but there's nothing for it. At least i am in good company in my pain, eh? So i look forward to the occasional twinging stiffness, for it would be a great improvement upon my current haunting soul-aches ( ... )

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felldown May 30 2008, 04:12:10 UTC
Eh, I still contend that you, Claire, Will, and the rest are deluded , but A) I'm not giving back the Hunter S. quotes used to describe me, and B) I love you guys anyway.

But, for real- all I say, I say with fury, and I say with truth, and I say with a wary eye cast upon those who would bring you harm... but, yeah, you know that.

I still don't fucking know how to deal with compliments, though. :P

<3

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silentasascream May 30 2008, 05:45:42 UTC
The Hunter S. quotes could never be taken back because he was totally writing about you when he wrote them, it's just that neither he nor the rest of us knew it at the time.

Aw, look, i made the black-hearted shadow demon uncomfortable! Cute! I should compliment you more often then. ;)

*squeeze*

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wsreaves May 29 2008, 17:26:46 UTC
"Relax. These are the quiet times, where you get to think, to take the world in, and to decide who you want to be. And these times will never come again. They're as crucial to your life as the experience of being partnered that you want. Use these days ( ... )

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silentasascream May 29 2008, 23:21:46 UTC
Your Warren Ellis quote is incredibly insightful and encouraging and comforting. I'm the sort of person who collects words of wisdom and these are particularly constructive. Thank you for sharing them with me.

Your statement about excising is exceedingly beautiful and concise. And in large part its beauty comes from its truth.

They say there is always a silver lining in every cloud and i think you have helped me to discover it in this one. It is important for me to remember that now is not only a time for sadness and self-pity but also a time for clarity and self-discovery. One often learns more about oneself when sailing the high seas alone. I'm ready to recovery my own identity and find new worlds. And seeing the situation from this point of view gives me a great surge of hope.

I am grateful for your thoughts and more grateful you have taken the time to share them with me. Your counsel has proven tremendously heartening. I cannot thank you enough for that.

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