i got the most amazing camera!
holy whoa.
orgasm.

We put Larkin down on monday.
Andrea still decorated her stall for the open house.
And every time i walked past it all day,
I wanted to cry.
At least i got to say good-bye.
I held her head in my lap last thursday,
And i sang to her.
For whatever reason i thought of that song,
From The Inside Out.
That made me think of Felipe.
With everything lately;
I feel ( Read more... )

hello world,
long time no update.
so anyways.
last night i was talking to caitlin,
and we got on the subject of mike.
mostly how i'm mad at him. 
more hurt than mad really.
but i'm pushing back the hurt,
until i get a chance to tell him how much i hate him.
(except really i don't but right now i do.)
after i yell at him i can be hurt.
but i know if i let ( Read more... )

so tonight i want to rant about rumors?
not really.
either way it just occured to me,
 that it would be a waste of energy to type everything here.
i'll have to post a bulletin.
anyways.
i know there are alot of things being said about me right now.
(behind my back may i add.)
most of these things aren't true.
if you want to know i would prefer you come and ( Read more... )

last night was devoted to very little sleep.
completely to blame on paranoia and nightmares.
then when i wake up in the morning the first thought in my head:
"sweet the last day of school"
only to realize it was the first.
no good people in the majority of my classes.
and then...
well...
i need to learn to think before i act.
i hate school.
i want this year ( Read more... )

i want an IRH
i'm not trying to cause problems
i'm just trying to keep myself safe
when i fall off a horse and go into a coma
i hope you'll all tell him that you shouldn't buy Troxels
that's it
kbye

so today,
i was on the phone with mike,
and his mom invited me to got to the beach with them.
which was kind of wierd. 
cause i've only ever met the lady for like .5 seconds.
but it made me smile cause that means she likes me.
and moms usually don't.
and i wanna go.
but i can't.
cause i gotta work.
and it's gonna be 98 degrees.
does anyone else remember that ( Read more... )

so things worked just like rowely.
except this time i cried.
wtf.

kay so BTA/BOLT show is saturday.
hence my first dressage test.
EEK!
so this is my acronym to remember the letters.
it's actually pretty funny if you get it.
All
King's
Horses
Can 
Mount
Big 
Females
that's it.

so tonight i brought home a baby barn swallow.
he's really weak and he probably won't make it.
but i'm gonna take care of him.
i named him pirate.
cause he's only opened one eye so far.
and he has alot of problems.
his leg is messed up i think.
and one of his eyes?
and possibly one of his wings. 
but he's really cute.
and i love him.