the fourth of july is in two days.
i'm hoping chris comes to wakefield again.
cause last year was absolutely...
you don't even know...
it was amazing.
also i havn't seen him in like eight months.
as of the end of the week, 
i won't see him for at least three years...
or ever? sorry to be pessimistic.
but he's dumb sometimes.
which means he does dumb things. 
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i love to watch the rain fall.
cause when i do the best things happen.

i like this feeling.
the feeling that for once i'm doing the right thing.

i can't decide how i feel.
whether i am happy or sad.
this is a new experience.
or maybe it's an entirely new emotion. 
either way i don't like it.
sometimes i wish people would just believe me when i say things.
thats it.

CHRIS 
COMES HOME IN 
8 
DAYS!!!
<333
I AM SO UNBELIEVABLY EXCITED!

every day brings him closer.
i feel better than if someone handed me a million dollars.
kthx.

i actually feel ok today.
for the first time in a while.
not long left now. 
and i found sarah on myspace. 
who would have thought?
maybe things are finally falling into place.
yeah right.
but for the moment they're ok.

i hate how every time i come to terms with something,
something else comes and slaps me in the face.
three years i'll have to live without him.
more if he doesn't come back alive.
he won't see me graduate.
just 19 days until i see him for the last time.
knock on wood.
the last time for three years.

"The pieces are lost, these pieces don't fit.
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do you remember the night we walked across hte common?
we held hands in the cold december air.
and i couldn't have been anywhere more perfect.
the streetlights would illuminate us... together.
and when i looked in your eyes i knew you loved me.

where did it all go?
i thought i had it made.
you took it all away.