Helping Myself

[silentluciditi]

When did I say that I didn’t want to help myself? Does anyone think I enjoy living my life like this? That I am unaware of what happens in my daily life, that I am ignorant of the mood swings and problems that accompany them? Do you really think I enjoy this

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[anonymous]

I do think you are trying. I have a very close friend who has the same disorder and it's much harder then people realize. You need to also be able to recognize that they dong understand and not lash out at them for it. I totally understand the while friend thing and how lonely it is. There was a time when I felt exactly the same way. Sometimes I still do. It's so important in a relationship to mantaine seperate but respectful friendships. I know therapy isn't the answer for you as you've been scarred by the experience in the past, but maybe you should look in to something more spiritual. ( not religios but spiritual). Maybe if you can meet with people looking inside themselfs you will learn things you didn't know before and make some friends along the way that are just yours.

Don't lose hope! Just look at is as an opertunity to start over. Once you clean the mental slate the other things will fall into place. (especially with Dave).

[anonymous]

Excuse the misspellings, damn PDA.