4:30 in the morning.
drunk as can be while still awake.
though a happy nivht...

i might be drunk.
i might not know exactly ehats going on.

but i fucking miss him.
and, friend or more..
i think i always will.

screwww this shit. wheres the alcohol!?

i. fucking. miss. him.

spend $395 on bartending school, leaving about $500 in my account...with no guarantee of a job afterwards, but with the training needed..
or get some job I'll probably hate to get the money level up in my account beforehand...

i dont knowwwwww

what to do..

keep the job doing what I love, with a whole bunch of cool people..

or take the job that pays more, isn't as hectic, and has full benefits while being part time?

oiy.

it's funny to look back and read old journal entries, from yourself and your friends. to see all those people who said you were inseparable, or that you'd be friends forever. that nothing would ever come between you. and to see that you don't know them anymore. I don't even know where some of them are right now. others I just haven't talked to in ( Read more... )

I started saying goodbyes tonight.

this is alot harder than it should be. I cried saying goodbye to brian even though i know I'll see him still.
fuck man.

it's for the best but I'm terrible at goodbyes. i don't know how I'm even going to be able to show up for my last day...

Life is a big confusing mess but I'm still happy ( Read more... )

so. i have my two weeks notice all written and printed out and everything.

now the hard part is turning it in. oiy.

its time. i have to keep repeating that. it's time.

Life is pretty damn good right now ( Read more... )

I hate trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my life.

because as soon as I think I have it all figured out,
and I set a path to achieve it,
that old pestering dream of mine comes back to taunt me.

And I can just feel that if i don't achieve the dream I've had my whole life, that I just won't ever be happy.
i dont know man...

This year is great ( Read more... )