//Locked against everyone except maybe Xander, Lindsey, and Spike//
Since when does driving around women in wheelchairs and inter-dimensional drug pick up fall into the job description of...what I do? It's bad enough I have to be around sick people.
I guess it not so bad. Would rather be spending time with Xander, but I haven't really heard from him or Giles. So I do what anyone does do when they can't be with the people they want to be with? Be with other people who would rather be with someone else.
So I've been hanging out with Lilah. And Lindsey a little. It's sort of complicated. Which reminds me I'm supposed to ask Xander; have you heard from Savannah? (She hasn't been writing any more porn has she? Not that I'd have a problem with that. Spike said he'd much rather have sex with me than Angel anyway. Or something along those lines. Sure he may have been drunk at the time but a compliment's a compliment. )
Anyway, gossip about people more pathetic than me. Well I think the main place to start is that Lilah was in Paris when she found out she was pregnant, and Wesley insisted she come back. That was when he thought it was his. Which made sense, cause as far as she knows she's pretty much been living in a sex free zone. Which is not fun, and here I'm speaking from personal experience. Oh, before that she was gonna leave the firm or some junk, be a better person, so there was talk of love or whatever. I don't know. I was dead. Anyway she thought the baby died and they fought and Lindsey stayed with her in the hospital for a while, where I bumped into Xander, and she got a blood transfusion; doctor's said it was her daughter, and now the babies are triplets...Not actually all that complicated.
Bottom line; she's pretty upset, scared, and hurt. And I get that. It is her fourth pregnancy, and the first time she's managed to keep the kids. Only they don't have a father. Which is a big deal, I guess cause hers died. Plus a lot of other stuff that was in her file which you know, is a longer story. And cause she's going to die too. At least...well, what do doctors know? Maybe the short little squeamish man who whines about ice cream is right.
So she's got that and then this really noble theory on how she can still love Wes even though she knows they'd never work. She actually wants him to be happy. Which is really screwing up my whole deal. But now Wes and Lindsey um, a different unrelated Lindsey, but disturbing, all the same are dating and she thinks she's gonna lose her friend. Of course she'd never admit it. Don't get me started on humans and friendship. Almost as illogical as the whole falling in love deal. Need an example just look at Xander and his stupid undying loyalty to Buffy.Point is this makes the whole situation even more pathetic. Cause now I have to spend my time eating ice cream with and genuinely feeling sorry for someone else.
There's a message here, and it's I can't maim you people, so could you at least tell the poor pregnant woman you're still her friend. Or talk to her. Geez.
Coffee's getting old. Lilah was right, booze is very much needed. Spike you up for drinks?
Oh yeah, Xander. If you read this and you know, wanna go out sometime. Totally available. For drinks, dinner, dancing, sex...no babies. Because I've seen what pregnancy can do and it's not pretty.
P.S. Lindsey, I heard word of a poker game/baby shower? That happening soon? You know she's looking at airline tickets right? Oh and that monitor, blood pressure thing; she's supposed to call the doctor when it goes berserk, isn't she? She tried telling me it was a ringtone, and I didn't want to say anything.
//unlocked//