... Ha, so much for yesterday's post. I figured tonight, what the hell, why not call him again tonight to see if we could actually get along again. Wrong! I think I have discoverd new math because I called him on his cell and at the house about 9:35 and he didn't answer the phone. So, I decided to get online after 10 and I messaged him and I got ( Read more... )

... Well, I was going to update earlier but then I kinda got a little busy with things. Plus, something that I thought that would never happen in a million years happen tonight. Chad and I actually had a nice conversation tonight. It was scary... to say the least. Something inside of me told me to call him, so I did. And sure enough, he told me ( Read more... )

... Well, I did call Chad Monday night, but no answer and I called again last night and woke him up. I felt kind of bad since he had to be at work at 3 in the morning. So, after that... I figured it was for the best that I don't call anymore and still time I mean it. It is still somewhat hard having all these mixed emotions, but once again, this is ( Read more... )

Incomplete and empty are the two words that describe the way I am feeling right now. I have the want to call him, but I have to stay strong. Eh, this just sucks ( Read more... )

So just when I didn't things could not get more crazy, I was wrong. Of course, everyone knows that I am single since Chad decided that I was not good enough for him in a nut shell, we spoke today for about 10 minutes and he told me that he missed me too and so did his doggie. I was truthfully shocked that he actually does and then as soon as he ( Read more... )

Well, as you can guess I am still having a hard time with this whole break up thing. I still don't really understand everything and have to just except the fact that I never will. I didn't talk to him at all Thursday. I basically buried myself at school just to keep my mind busy from thinking about the whole situation... at least I tried my hardest ( Read more... )

Well, I got through the first day of just really some rough times today. From the conversation Chad and I had last night, I told him that I would come and get all my stuff and leave his key under the mat. And I did just that... I left my lab class 40 minutes early because I just really wanted to get things over with so I did. I drove up there which ( Read more... )

... I emailed Chad tonight and it can be for the better or for the worse. It goes a little something like this ( Read more... )

My life is really starting to fall apart right before my eyes. Just when I was the happiest I ever thought I could be, it is amazing how things change so quickly. I still worried about my mom and her smoking and I still haven't hear from my other friend. Then there is my boyfriend. He was really distance this weekend towards me and then he drops ( Read more... )

Well, I will start off by talking about yesterday. Angela and I went out yesterday to eat and spend time together since I am not going to be around on Sunday for her birthday. So we did just decided to do it early. We had a really good time, probably one of the better times I have had in a while. We went out to eat at Red Lobster and, of course, ( Read more... )