I speak how i feel. im not ever scared.

[sillymistakes]

So alot of people are mad at me because of what i said about brandon. This has been going on now for a few weeks now. And for me to bring it up may start drama and maybe this isnt the brightest idea, but i wanted to clear a few things one

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[xbeachb0undx]

Okay, I was upset that someone would say that about Brandon. Yes, I wrote on my journal that we all need to forgive easily and blah blah blah, but it's easier said than done. I'm still not over it, and I usually get over things right after they happen. But that comment seriously like stabbed me in the heart. I don't hate you, I just don't like that you said that. It didn't feel too good, and it definitely didn't help the situation.

[sillymistakes]

Im sorry my comment stabbed you in the heart. It wasent even meant for anyone else to see, just me and mike cause it should of stayed a conversation between us. But it happend, and im sorry. If i could take it back and rearrange my words i would, but the fact is I cant, and hopefully one day this all will be cleared up. I learned my lesson from this and i wont ever do it again.

[soigounnoticed]

i'm with rachel on this. i never said i hated you brittani, and i don't. was i mad? hell yes, but you have to understand where i was coming from. i've experience a lot of death in my life and been to more funerals than i should. around 6. you'd think i'd be used to death kinda, after all, a kid i grew up with died of a drug overdose and a long time ago, he and i were real close. but his death was caused by stupidity. brandon's wasn't, and brandon was more like a brother than a friend to me, so naturally, it hit me harder. after i've broken up with someone, or gotten dumped, i've said "man, my heart hurts/aches" but when brandon died, that was the first time my heart actually physically hurt. i literally felt sick to my stomach and wanted to just curl up in HER (can't say who she is) arms and cry my eyes out for days. i cried so much that week it's rediculous. and when i read that and we had that whole conversation, it just came at a really bad time when i was thinking with my emotions. so i'm sorry. i know you blame everyone hating

[sweet_lovin]

well i know id like to talk to you about the whole thing, i dont want you to think that i have the same opinion on the situation as any of brandons other friends. IM me when you can b/c i dont have your s/n- oxcarriexo <3 thanks