Down the rabbit hole...
I had a hard time sleeping last night, my wife decided that she needed to get to bed early as she has a new job now that requires a lot more of her time. Yesterday was refreshing, sure I played WoW in the morning, but I had a prior commitment with my guild mates who i spent the last 3 nights trying to kill the Flame Leviathan on hard mode with 4 towers up. What a pain in the ass that fight it, feels completely luck based. However, Sunday I had told April that I would bring her to Denny's and we would hang out. So I told Zak that I needed off at 1, he let me go at 12:45. At that moment I thought, I hope you guys don't get FL while I am gone, all that time to waste, but the more I thought about it as I left was, man I hope they get it down cause I don't want to spend anymore gold this week on repairs.
So I went out to Denny's. Got myself a Moon over my Hammies. (I LOVE THIS SANDWICH)April got herself a scramble that had onions/green peppers/etc. We then proceeded to go to best buy and I bought april a idog and Wii Active for the Wii I recently purchased for her. I always told my wife I never wanted a Wii. Well we got one. Oh well. Proceeded to go to Blockbuster as I wanted to spend more of the day with her, so we rented the movie, "Taken" with Liam Neeson. I really liked this movie. It was great. I will find you and I will kill you. That was my favorite part, his voice was stern and full of command. Not even a flinch. Merciless. Anyways, after that got a little hungry but not to much as I cleared the Denny's from my system earlier (that happens frequently... not that you wanted to know but hey it's my livejournal!). We actually went back to the blockbuster and returned the movie and rented out Davinci Code, I remember seeing it in the theater but I wanted to watch it after seeing Angels and Demons the other day. Good movies. Complete Fiction, don't know why the church/religious nuts got in arms over this. Movies are fiction unless they are a documentary. Get it right... Anyways. Went to Bullmoose, picked up some magic cards and by some I mean a fat pack and about 5 boosters. Wanted some Variety. I had recently played at a draft tournament, I didn't do so well but I pulled some great cards at the rare draft. But yeah, talk about magic... If people know what card Nicol Bolas is then grand, if you don't then its probably the most sick planeswalker card that magic has released (abet I like Elspeth) and I managed to pull out of my first conflux draft... Nicol Bolas. Yummy. I would a had two Nicol Bolas if the douche in front of my had passed it in the Rare Draft. Anyways... We got Arby's however, Cory wasn't working so it wasn't as fun to brag about magic cards lol. Spent the rest of the night with April, downloaded my versions of x64 and x86 Windows 7 RC. Plan to get this beta off my system anyways.
Flash to today. I didn't sleep well. Thoughts of being unemployed after working for so long. I consider 4 years at one job a commitment and a career. Whether you are in retail, customer service, tech support, if a job keeps you that long you should probably keep it unless something guaranteed comes up. Nothing is ever truly guaranteed. verizon made the decision that they were not going to keep the tech department that was part of RCC/Unicel the original company I worked for. They source all their internal technical support to the centers in Texas and New Jersey. Now I had the opportunity to transfer and relocate. The offer was 15k after taxes to help with the move with a 2 yr working stipulation. My concern was April. She doesn't want to be to far away from family and we all know April to not want to live in big crowded areas, (lol Jersey is full of this) but I took her wants into consideration and declined the transfer. During those times I though all was lost... Granted April's current job was keeping us happy and gave extra money to the funds. But it wasn't enough to live off. I got loans to pay, car to pay, internet/cable/phone/rent to pay. I love my wife but her job alone wasn't goign to be enough...
Until she took the managers position at Family Dollar. My wife is in charge of her own store now. Relief blew over me. An air of resentment also came over me. I'm no longer the breadwinner. I am no longer supporting my family. I feel saddened that I have to have April support me. I know it might be temporary but I just feel useless. I got a couple leads on jobs but I don't want to work right now. I want some time to think and get over my previous job. This morning I couldn't find my badge... The one thing the company wants back from me... I( looked high and low, called april and matt thought I left it in the other vehicle, I was right pissed, couldn't find it at all... Then I sat down... at 8:25 and saw my badge behind FrankenMolly (Misty's poor system that is having the worse time getting fixed), I pretty much kicked my ass, my cats must have gotten on the side table and knocked it down... Well, I went to work to grab my papercraft Cait Sith and hand over my badge. I signed my exit interview and that was it. I said bye to my co-worker Ross, a lady friend that was surprised that I was leaving and the security guard. No one else. There's no need, all those people that I considered my friends stopped talking to me when I answered their question, "Are you staying...?" No.
I am currently staring at my monitor thinking... I got so many thoughts that its hard to sort them out. Even this post is disjointed. Here and there, now and then. I don't seem to know what I want right now. I guess its time for lunch now and I'm going to have that with the wife. Enjoy your day everyone.
So I went out to Denny's. Got myself a Moon over my Hammies. (I LOVE THIS SANDWICH)April got herself a scramble that had onions/green peppers/etc. We then proceeded to go to best buy and I bought april a idog and Wii Active for the Wii I recently purchased for her. I always told my wife I never wanted a Wii. Well we got one. Oh well. Proceeded to go to Blockbuster as I wanted to spend more of the day with her, so we rented the movie, "Taken" with Liam Neeson. I really liked this movie. It was great. I will find you and I will kill you. That was my favorite part, his voice was stern and full of command. Not even a flinch. Merciless. Anyways, after that got a little hungry but not to much as I cleared the Denny's from my system earlier (that happens frequently... not that you wanted to know but hey it's my livejournal!). We actually went back to the blockbuster and returned the movie and rented out Davinci Code, I remember seeing it in the theater but I wanted to watch it after seeing Angels and Demons the other day. Good movies. Complete Fiction, don't know why the church/religious nuts got in arms over this. Movies are fiction unless they are a documentary. Get it right... Anyways. Went to Bullmoose, picked up some magic cards and by some I mean a fat pack and about 5 boosters. Wanted some Variety. I had recently played at a draft tournament, I didn't do so well but I pulled some great cards at the rare draft. But yeah, talk about magic... If people know what card Nicol Bolas is then grand, if you don't then its probably the most sick planeswalker card that magic has released (abet I like Elspeth) and I managed to pull out of my first conflux draft... Nicol Bolas. Yummy. I would a had two Nicol Bolas if the douche in front of my had passed it in the Rare Draft. Anyways... We got Arby's however, Cory wasn't working so it wasn't as fun to brag about magic cards lol. Spent the rest of the night with April, downloaded my versions of x64 and x86 Windows 7 RC. Plan to get this beta off my system anyways.
Flash to today. I didn't sleep well. Thoughts of being unemployed after working for so long. I consider 4 years at one job a commitment and a career. Whether you are in retail, customer service, tech support, if a job keeps you that long you should probably keep it unless something guaranteed comes up. Nothing is ever truly guaranteed. verizon made the decision that they were not going to keep the tech department that was part of RCC/Unicel the original company I worked for. They source all their internal technical support to the centers in Texas and New Jersey. Now I had the opportunity to transfer and relocate. The offer was 15k after taxes to help with the move with a 2 yr working stipulation. My concern was April. She doesn't want to be to far away from family and we all know April to not want to live in big crowded areas, (lol Jersey is full of this) but I took her wants into consideration and declined the transfer. During those times I though all was lost... Granted April's current job was keeping us happy and gave extra money to the funds. But it wasn't enough to live off. I got loans to pay, car to pay, internet/cable/phone/rent to pay. I love my wife but her job alone wasn't goign to be enough...
Until she took the managers position at Family Dollar. My wife is in charge of her own store now. Relief blew over me. An air of resentment also came over me. I'm no longer the breadwinner. I am no longer supporting my family. I feel saddened that I have to have April support me. I know it might be temporary but I just feel useless. I got a couple leads on jobs but I don't want to work right now. I want some time to think and get over my previous job. This morning I couldn't find my badge... The one thing the company wants back from me... I( looked high and low, called april and matt thought I left it in the other vehicle, I was right pissed, couldn't find it at all... Then I sat down... at 8:25 and saw my badge behind FrankenMolly (Misty's poor system that is having the worse time getting fixed), I pretty much kicked my ass, my cats must have gotten on the side table and knocked it down... Well, I went to work to grab my papercraft Cait Sith and hand over my badge. I signed my exit interview and that was it. I said bye to my co-worker Ross, a lady friend that was surprised that I was leaving and the security guard. No one else. There's no need, all those people that I considered my friends stopped talking to me when I answered their question, "Are you staying...?" No.
I am currently staring at my monitor thinking... I got so many thoughts that its hard to sort them out. Even this post is disjointed. Here and there, now and then. I don't seem to know what I want right now. I guess its time for lunch now and I'm going to have that with the wife. Enjoy your day everyone.